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Thank You

Sometimes,
We forget,
To say how grateful and to ponder upon,
All things that were blessed upon us,

It's so easy for us to value things that we don't have,
But it's not that easy to value something that we already posessed,
Even though what we have are more precious,
Than that we don't and going to get,

Be grateful,
For the air that we breath,
For the bodies that contain our soul,
For this freedom,
For this land,
And for this chance.

Maybe it's not perfect,
But it's precious and we should be proud of it,
By using what we have for the sake of our life,
For better future,
Under HIS guidance.

Thank you AllAH,
For this MERDEKA.


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Life without friends....

Well it's been almost a week since everyone left for Malaysia for summer holidays. So only me and a few buddies left here in Irbid. Since the new students are coming, so we kinda busy here looking for new houses (read: new house for students but actually they are old. *sigh*). Still when I'm lying idle or reading books, I feel really lonely here. Have nothing else to do. No real friends to talk to. And the best part is no one to cook for me. I wonder, will I be able to endure it a little bit more? That a question that I don't know how that I'm going to answer it.

And it's been a week since Wali left us. He's such a good guys with a typical teenager's attitude. There's nothing more to say about him. Only that he'll always be with us here in our heart. Back to the case. Well, I really don't know this feeling but it really make me sick. I really feeling lonely here. With no one to talk, no one to turn to, and no one to play with. Well guess this is life. I wonder how can certain people can live by their one without others. For me, I think I'll choke to death if I live on my own. HELP ME!!!!!!

Since I've been playing around so much this year, the result is not looking so good. So I guess must work harder in order to stay put in this school. Guys, this thing really kills me. I really need some good advice or wisdom words. Cause right now, I feel a little drifted away from the mainland. I think I didn't really pray hard recently. Well, I know that our iman a.k.a faith can really be as thick as the onion skin (as there is say like that), but I don't see why I should be like this. Maybe because there's no one to turn to I think. So I think that's why people always say that we have to seek for the everlasting love of HIS. Because HE won't abandon us in time we need HIM the most. Yet, people didn't know that why their prayer are not answered. Actually he always there looking at us.

This is how a typical not so brilliant medical student like me have in his head. Well you guys know that I once went to visit a clinic here in Irbid. For what reason that's something only me and few friends know what and you guys don't have to worry because it's not something really BIG. Well the doctor there once told me that life as a medical student is not just here in medical school. Actually our journey is way over. Actually once you have step into the medical school, your whole life will be as a medical people. Eat medicine, drink medicine, sleep medicine, play medicine, and have a family of medical people (woopss, I guest I talk too much. hehehe).

If you guys want to know what this means, it's life as a medical student. This is the real life. Actually people always being blurred by the BIG TIME doctors. And they say to their kids that someday you can be like that person. So you have to do medice. Go get good grades then apply for medical school. "If you don't get it, don't you guys ever thinking of going home" (this dialogue is being made to clearify the situation here). This is one thought that we have to clear from our people. Why people always relate good result, and you have to do medicine? After all this time, all I can see is people ditching school because they don't have passion for medicine. They said that they were told by their parents, friends, and teacher to do medicine. But what they really want to do is something else. So if there is parents of people out there reading this blog, let me make it clear ; don't ever ask you child to do want they don't like doing. You guys are going to take them to the crust of the earth. Or you guys even will sink them to the bottom of the ocean. Leave them alone. Let them make their own mind on what they're going to further their study in. (note: the writer just talk on behalf of unlucky people. But he himself wish to do medicine on his own. So don't get the wrong idea).

I guess I've talk alot. Yeah since there's no one to turn to, I guess I just put all my feeling here in this blog. Actually got alot of other things to say. But I guess that's all for now. Got to run some errand here. That's what you have to pay for living alone. Hope that I won't be in this state forever, Insyallah. To all my friends in Malaysia (either you guys really study there, or just went home for vacation), happy holiday. And out of all, Happy Independence Day. As on the 31st of August, Malaysia will be celebrating her 49th Independence Day. That's all for now.


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Muhammad Mutawalli in memory....

Sunday, August 20th. The last day for me with my friend; my housemate, my dinner tablemate and my "in crime partner", Mutawalli. He already left this land for good (hehe~ actually good for him since he cannot concentrate anymore toward his study). I actually don't know what really in his head. The only thing that I knew is that he's really happy this morning when we sent him off to airport. Well, this is what I've been keeping for the last few weeks. So to all my friends out there, I here by announcing that Wali is no more in Jordan.*sigh*

As I've mentioned before that I'm going to tell a shocking news. Maybe it's not for others, still for me it's a shocking one. Well for the last two years we've been living under the same roof, eating on the same table and drinking from the same bottle of water. But in the end, it turn that he left us earlier. Actually, I don't really in the mood of writing an entry (sorry if this entry is a bit dull since I'm a little sad about this thing and no so in the mood of writing a good one). So I guess this all I can say for the time being.

Wali, if you read this blog please know that you'll always be in our heart. You're a wonderful guy and always been there for us. You're kind of special to all people around you. There will be no more "bulatan", no more gossiping, no more cursing people, no more weekend activities (geez. sure it will be a boring one) and the sad one is that, there is no more delicious things to eat (guess I'm gonna loss some weight afterwards). Anyway thank you for being such a good friend. Insyallah we'll meet again. Till then....



Me and Wali at Aqaba



Summer 2005 Memory


Till we meet again my friend.....
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"If it wasn't this.... it'd be something else"


Good old-day


Hah... don't really know what to tell. Just this pics. Showing my friends here in Jordan (read closetest friends). Well as this monday will be our last day in this second year of medical school. When we come back next september, insyallah we all will be in the third year. Except then we gonna have major changes. All of us won't be living under the same roof again. There will be no more loafing like the good old days. There will be no more laughter and jokes are gonna be less interesting. Many things will change. May be AllAH has his own plan for everyone of us. So we just gonna sit back and enjoy every last moment together. I hope that even if all of us do part, it will only be for awhile. Not for eternity.

Well today, I've seated my immonological paper which I found that really hurts my heart as the questions really hard to think off. Well, I've try my best. I've put my effort in this exam and now the only thing that I can do is pray to HIM. May HIM grant HIS mercy on me. Well if anything happen maybe there's something for me. I do remember a saying from film Elizabethtown, "If it wasn't this.... it'd be something else". It's actually have a very beautiful meaning. AllAH has HIS own ways for us. He didn't create us for nothing. He do has HIS purpose creating us on this world. But the most important thing is that we already tried everything.

Well much too much to say, yet too little space and time. Insyallah, as the time flies everything will be unveiled. There's nothing to worry about. As I've mention before (I think I have. Don't I?), that life itself is a happiness. We don't have to wait till we graduate to get happiness. Or we don't have to become a doctor to gain happiness. Because as the time goes on, there will be much more challange that we had to undertake. There will be much more competition that we had to be part of. There will be time that we will at the lowest point of our life and also time when we will be at the top of the world. Yet everything won't give us happiness. As we all already know that, a man won't feel enough of what he has. The urge for more will make him an unhappy person. So why do we have to wait to get happiness. As long as the happiness that we choose didn't oppose the syariah of Islam (laws of life in Islamon how to deal with everything).

So my friends, if you guys were reading this entry remember that every day in my life I will always cherish everything that we had done together. The moment we spent together will always be in my mind. As for today, we are brothers in Islam. Actually every moslem are brothers. A brother must do good things to his brother. But please forgive me if all these times I've done bad things to you guys (also to my sisters). I just want to tell you guys that how much I love you guys. You guys meant something to me. Well as I've said before, "If it wasn't this..... it'd be something else".


Learning to Fly by Tom Petty

Well I started out down a dirty r oad
Started out all alone
And the sun went down as I crossed the hill
The town lit up the world got still

Im learning to fly but I aint got wings
Comin down is the hardest thing

Well the good old days may not return
And the rocks might melt, and the sea may burn

Im learning to fly but I aint got wings
Comin down is the hardest thing

Well some say life will beat you down
Break your heart, steal your crown
So I started out for God kno ws where
But I guess Ill know when I get there

Im learning to fly around the clouds
But what goes up must come down

Im learning to fly but I aint got wings
Comin down is the hardest thing
Im learning to fly around the clouds
But what goes up must come down

Im learning to fly
Im learning to fly

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happy Birthday to.....

Birthday celebration is a once a year celebration for almost every people (except if they do celebate their friends', parents' or even their special friends). Well this month of every year, I'll be celebrating 3 most special people in my life.
They are:

         My mum   14th August
         Amirul Akram (my second brother)   20th August
         Hafizul Jamil (my youngest brother)   23rd August

Well they are the person I will always love in life. Anyway may you guys will have a great year and a great year to come. As I won't be able to go home at that time, I will call you guys on that day. May you guys have a great celebration. And please do remember that as our age increasing, our life will closing to it's end. So always pray to AllAH that if we die today, we will be put in the group of people that AllAH had promised to protect in the end.

So here again i would like to wish all of you a happy birthday. May AllAh bless you guys.

From,
kHer

post-script: and also happy birthday to who ever celebrate their birthday on this month. may happiness and prosperity will always be with you guys. sorry cause i can't get all of you presents. but may this dua will accompany you guys. thank you for being my friend.


Mom and dad at Alamanda, Putrajaya



From left: Hafiz, Amir
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Hayya bil Jihad (lets go for Jihad)

Jihad? What is that word really means. Does it means go out there and kill everyone? Who are these "everyone". I think most of people out there think that Jihad means killing people without sparing anyone in it's path. Well you guys got it wrong. And thats what the zionist want everyone to think. Even the moslems. It is sad to hear hear that even the moslems brother themself misunderstood this term. They should think back what had been done by the earlier moslems to gain what we had today (as for this moment, most of it had been taken away by AllAH due to our foolishness and greediness).

Well I don't really know the exact translation of Jihad. It is actually an Arabic word. From my oppinion, it means striving or doing the best one can do in any field. And this always been misinterpreted by the western as they were always being told that it means "holy war". Well here is the fun fact: "You guys are so wrong!!!!". The zionist always us this term to go war with the moslems. (And after they finished with moslems they will go war with everyone. Don't believe it, well you better believe it).

Islam always want everyone to live in peaceful. As you should know at the time of prophet Muhammad PBUH, that the Mecca citizen were built on few religions. There is no force for them to convert to Islam. Most of them convert to Islam because they understand what Islam really means. And they really treasure it as Islam had change their life from worst to the better. Islam had bring peace all over the world. It's concept of living as a living body, that if a part of the body is being hurt the others will feel it too. This concept which had brought Saladin (1138-1193) to lead the army of Islam to victory liberating Jerusalem. Why do he want to liberate Jerusalem? Does it possessed anything special to him?

Well the answer is that it possess a 'treasure' which everyone around the world even all religions want to hold their hadn on it. It is the holy place for Islam, Christian, and Jew. But what happen today that the Jews are so cruel and greed. They want all the place by themself (Owh actually they took it from the Moslems and claimed it theirs. As the truth is that there is nothing left for them over there). They were once the promised people. People who were given so many prophets that they kill most them. And that's why AllAH took their dignity and made them the worst people of all times.

They thought that they are the choosen people. As they only refer to their old and already being twisted 'book' by thier leader who love power and status. They actually know that they will be other religion that AllAH sent. And they knew that Islam is the last and the promised religion to succeed at the end. But still they try to deny it because if they admit it, there won't be any Jew anymore. They will loss their possessions. They will loss their status. And the most of all is that they had to admit that Muhammad PBUH were sent from another tribe, Hasyimiah (an Arabs tribe). Not the Jews. They will be no more Israel.

While they denying the truth of Islam, they try to crush it. Into million pieces. Start by giving bribes to the moslems leader. Promising power for them. And supporting plans to demolish Islam by corrupted moslems leader. There are too many eamples to give. If you know the real Islam, you can distinguish the true moslems leader and the corrupt one. Thats what we see in middle east. Not to forget that this well organize crime are also spreading through out the world. Let say the South East Asia. Countries like Malaysia and Indonesia. This organization had long rooting in these countries. They had built their network through the goverment agencies. They manipulate the man-made laws to deny the truth that Quran brought. Recently they had surfacing their movement. They already using the "legal" ways to deny Islam. As for example the Article 11 in the constitution of Malaysia. It said that everyone had their right to choose and practice their religion. This is include the moslems (this is what happen when people use the man-made laws instead of laws of AllAH).

Back to our main point about Jihad. As i had mention ealier there are many ways to go for Jihad. War is the last resort that we have after the modest ways of Jihad are not efficacy anymore. And while we have choices, there are thousand of ways. Like studying, trading, being a leader, helping people, and more to be name. What I want to hilight here is studying. Studying is a way of Jihad. Because with studying we will gain knowledge that will brought us further than we are today. With knowledge we will be able to conquer the world. As for today, artillary, calvary are not the only means of war. Thinking, politics, influence and more are also included in today arsenal. Actually with these kind of weapon, it will bring more damage than the state of the art intercontinental balistic missile (ICBM).

So as a moslem student, we had to do what we had to do. Do our responsible. Get as much as we can information on anything. Even today simplest thing will be the greatest weapon of tomorrow. But remember, that we had to do all these things not for our own interest. Not for our nations. But it is for the ummah. Lets bring back what we had lost a long time ago ; Khilafah Islamiyah (khilafah means the leadership of a moslems leader which his action is based on al-Quran and as-Sunnah). Let the ummah rise once again on this land. We may and we may not be here to see it. But as long as our soul are bind to these body, we will strive to the last. May Islam rise again.


"Dan perangilah mereka itu, sehingga tidak ada fitnah lagi dan (sehingga) ketaatan itu hanya semata-mata untuk Allah. Jika mereka berhenti (dari memusuhi kamu), maka tidak ada permusuhan (lagi), kecuali terhadap orang-orang yang zalim." Surah al-Baqarah (193)
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Whose lives are more precious?

As you read this article, there's a thousand of innocent people get kill, being raped, being bullied, being tortured, and many other things that out of any ordinary persons. But in fact everything is happening around us. Look at the middle-east region. Thousand of people get kill just to liberate 3soldiers whose actually the one supposed to be kill (since there are soldiers. and soldier were to meant to be killed in action or otherwise rather than innocent people). The world has come to its end. It's also the end of mankind sanity. Everyone only think about their benefit rather than their community. I really don't know what these people want? Do they really want to liberate their comrades? Or they just useit as the 'cause' to go war with Moslems? I think it's the second one.

Well today, I'm going to write something that I've should write long ago. What really happen here in the middle-east-conflict? The story actually begins late in 1936 when the British (the conqueror at that time) had decide to give the Jews a piece of land (what will you do when a foreign people come to your land and claim it to be theirs'?). Well it doesn't go very well between the local and the 'authorities'. And the resistant started. Yet the local were denied their rights. Their lands were taken with force. They were killed so that the 'foreign' people can live in harmony. But that didn't stop the locals. They fight back. And most of the Arab countries 'help' them (well actually the did help the Palestinians. they did help them to lose their lands. they sent their soldiers to the battlefield. but they said that each bullet that were shoot, should be pay by the shooter. what that really means?).

And after a few series of war between the Jews and the Arab countries, the Jews win. They have gained their 'right' on the others land. And yet all the Arab kings didn't do anything to stop them (since everyone were enjoying wealth that were given to them as bribe to lost in the war. *damn*). The conflict between the Palestinian and Israelis didn't stop there. They were exchanging attack between those two sites. As time goes by, the conflict turns into war. And it is said that this will be the fourth world war (since the Iraq invasion were claimed to be the third world war). But what actually triggered the war? We heard from the 'trusted' source that the war is actually a campaign by the Zionist to free their soldiers captured. But why the Hezbollah and Hamas denied their wish? The truth is that these parties actually want them to release the innocent people that were captured and sent to the concentration camp. And who this people are? There are old women, young children, and weak people. Yet the Israel turned down their demand. And they started to kill everyone (by everyone I mean every single living body in that land).

So who's the one to be blame? Whose lives are more precious? And there are many more questions that we should answer in order to get the real insight of this conflict. And for your information, this war isn't just about land, isn't just about soldiers, or not even about the people, but it's actually between religion. You may say that I'm execrating about small matter. But it is about religion. Because since the day our prophet Muhammad PBUH was born, these Zionisthad sweared to kill every Moslem because they know that Muhammad PBUH is the last prophet. Muhammad PBUH didn't come from the Jews descended. But He comes from the Arab tribe's called Hasyimiah. This has added to their hate for Moslems. And yet the Moslems leader never does a right thing to defend these things from happen. So let us thing now about this. As a Moslemwe should be thinking and even contributing to the growth of Islam. We always pray to Allah to give victory to us. But do we actually working to get it? Do we do what He asked us to do? So as I've said before, answer all questions to get the insight. May Allah lead us to the right path. May we blessed with His bless. May the Khilafah raise again. Do what we have to do, even if it as simple as donating a ringgit to our brothers and sisters in need.

Remember, AllAH will help people who He wants. As He has the right to do so.........


A kid being captured trying to protect himself



Is there any hope left for this child?


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Who gonna fight for their death?


What say you?
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Vclip dari YouTube...

Ntah arituh dapat mail dari group bebudak sekolah aku. pastuh ada link ke clip nie. wah sedey nyer. teringkatkan zaman sekolah dulu. tulah orang cakap, selagi kita ada menda tuh kita takkan bersyukur. tapi once kita dah kehilangannya, kita akan merinduinya. selagi kita mampu untuk bersyukur dengan nikmat tersebut, maka lakukanlah. "ingatlah hidup ini terlalu singkat untuk diri kita sendiri". Semoga sentiasa dalam rahmat-Nya.

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What a life to live....

Well this the real world. Full of arrogant and selfish, stinky, and all other words that i shouldn't mention here (due to the type of my blog) to describe people. Why people always of themself. Why they only care their banefit rather than all other people around him/her? Even myself sometimes I think that i shouldn't do any good deeds to people because the way they act toward us. But after giving it a think, there always a cause (or even more type of excuses) to do it.

As we already read in the news, the Israelis already increasing their military activites at the Israel - Lebanon border. They already kill a lot of innocent civillian just to regain their so called "captured conscript". WTF? Who started to treat people badly? Who captured so many unarmed civillian. Who's the one that started to kidnap women, children and old people? And yet they still running free. While the other who really react after they been attack are the one who being accused of terrorism. What kind of world is this? Is this some kind of jokes?

Well, for whom didn't know what really happen you have come to the right place. Let me tell you something that will shocked you guys. The real terrorist is the Israel. They are the one who really behind everthing that happen recently and in the past. They already planned everything from the started which dated back to the birth of our prophet Muhammad PBUH. Yeah! It's true. And more shocking news that they didn't hate Islam. The truth is that they really hate who aren't Jews. For them, AllAH had given them a lot of prophets. And that makes them so BIG. Hahaha...

And apart from the war is about my life recently. Since the blog itself is about my life as a medical student, it's not fare to not tell you about it ha? Well my life recently wasn't as I expected. I flunk in the test and it really upset me. But what else can I do? The damage already done. So they only way that I can recover is to rebuild form the ashes of the damage. I don't why these things happen to me. But as I try to find the answer, I found something that really important that I always take it for granted; my religion ISLAM. ISLAM has answer to every questions. There's no single question in this world that cannot be answered.

There's being so many things happen lately. I've done a lot of terrible things. To myself, my parents, friends, my prophet and the saddest is to HIM. I've told lies. I've neglecting my studies. I've been doing bad things. And there's so many things that I cannot describe it. As for my study, I don't really revising and doing home work. I always spent most of my time doing nothing. Is this a life that I want to achieve? Is this a doctor-to-be attitude? I don't think it'll get me far. Sigh!

Back to the story, I really hope that I'll find peace. Peace from everthing that had made me far from HIM. What had made me backed HIM. And everything that lead me to the wrong path. "O AllAH, the one who created everything on this land, please help me find your light as it the brightest light in this life". I think that's all what I want to tell everyone out there. If you're in vein, don't ever turn your back from AllAH as HIM has every means to control this life. Praise HIM and don't ever let HIM down. Because the work done in HIS cause will be counted as a good deeds. All praise to AllAH, master of the universe.

p/s: I did this in english to welcome my friend from Iceland whose been reading my blog lately. Thank you for your support. next time I'll write you something interesting about Jordan. Sorry~
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Apakah peranan kita?


Apakah sebenarnya sedang berlaku?


Kita telah lama mendengar tentang perebutan kuasa dan kawasan di bumi Palestine. Setiap hari dan setiap ketika kita mendengarnya. Berbagai kejadian yang berlaku. Suami di bunuh, anak di tembak, isteri dirogol, warga tua di sepak dan bermacam-macam lagi. Tetapi dalam kita tidak sedar sebenarnya kita tidak langsung terasa kesengsaraan yang berlaku kepada saudara seIslam kita di sana. Adakah kita menyumbang kepada kebaikkan mereka? Atau adakah kita sebenarnya yang menyebabkan mereka ditimpa musibah sebegitu.

Mungkin selama ini kita selalu melaungkan kata-kata semangat, menulis pelbagai kutukan dan juga kata-kata cacian di dalam blog mahupun di dalam email. Kita juga mungkin pernah mengikuti pelbagai perarakan menentang keganasan rejim Israel laknatullah. Tetapi, adakah dengan melakukan perkara sebegitu kita telah berusaha untuk membebaskan Palestine secara khususnya dan ummat Islam sedunia am nya? Adakah kita menyumbang kepada pembangunan Islam?

Entahlah, beberapa hari kebelakangan nie asyik terfikir pasal perjuangan kita sebagai khalifah di bumi AllAH nie. Terfikir berapa banyakkah diri ini telah menyumbang ke arah kemajuan Islam. Adakah diri ini berjuang untuk agama AllAH. Adakah diri ini berjuang demi kecintaan terhadap AllAH dan rasul-Nya? Pelbagai soalan yang sering terbuku di dalam kepala. Tetapi dalam masa yang sama masih melakukan perkara yang sama ; tidak mengendahkannya.

Saya dengan artikel yang ditulis di dalam blog SaifulIslam. Suatu blog yang memang banyak manafaat nyer. Bukan niat untuk menyindir mana-mana pihak, tetapi sekadar meluahkan rasa yang terbuku di dalam hati. Sekadar untuk membawa rakan-rakan semua berfikir ; Apakah tujuan sebenar kita dijadikan di atas muka bumi nie? Kemanakah hala tuju kita? Sememangnya diri nie bila menulis akan berkata sebegini. Namun hakikatnya sebaliknya (Ya AllAH bantulah hamba-Mu ini mencapai tujuan sebenar dijadikan di atas muka bumi).

Bercerita pasal artikel yang ditulis di dalam blog SaifulIslam, ada banyak memberi pengajaran kepada diri. Sebenarnya hidup kita nie bukan sekadar di sini sahaja. Tetapi hidup kita ini adalah sebagai persinggahan untuk kehidupan selepas kematian. Di mana tiada yang akan mati selepas itu. Tentang hakikat diri kita ini yang memang tak pernah leka dengan dosa akibat kealpaan. Entahlah, inilah sebenarnya apa yang cuba dilakukan oleh musuh Islam ; merosakkan remaja Islam agar masa depan Islam akan mundur. Seperti apa yang pernah dikatakan oleh seorang sahabat (tak ingat plak nama dier), "Jikalau nak tengok masa depan sesuatu negara (termasuk juga agama dan keluarga), maka lihatlah pemuda dan pemudi mereka".

So sambung pulak pasal Palestine, kalau kita nengok kat paper semenjak kebelakangan nie macam-macam dah berlaku. Memang dia orang nie takkan selesa sampai ler kita semua ikut apa yang mereka nak. Cuba bayangkan apa yang telah mereka lakukan? Mereka boleh membunuh sewenang-wenangnya. Apabila orang Islam cuba melindungi diri mereka dan keluarga mereka, mereka dituduh sebagai pengganas. Dan bermacam-macam lagi. Tetapi ini bukanlah perkara yang cuba disampaikan. Persoalan sebenarnya, adakah kita yang mengakibatkan perkara nie? Jawapannya adalah ya. Cuba kita soroti kembali sejarah bagaimana palestine boleh jatuh ke tangan Yahudi. Ini kerana kita sebenar telah lari jauh daripada landasan sebenarnya. Al-Quran tidak lagi digunakan sebagai rujukan utama. Kita semakin cintakan dunia. Kita semakin jauh dengan pencipta kita.

Masih adakah peluang untuk kita berpaling semula? Masih adakah harapan untuk kita semua? Masih adakah cinta kita kepada-Nya? Cubalah tanya diri kita sendiri perkara ini. Semoga kita semua akan memperolehi jawapan sebenarnya. Lihatlah kedalam diri kita, adakah kita mempunyai kualiti seorang yang beriman. Semoga kita semua sentiasa dalam perlindungannya. Sesungguhnya imanku sungguh lemah kerana hanya mampu menulis. Tetapi belum tentu korang semua akan tunduk dengan permintaan mereka. Maka bangkitlah sahabatku sekalian. Kita kembalikan Khilafah Islamiyah di muka bumi ini. Betulkan diri kita dan insyallah yang lain akan mengikuti kita. Kerana sesungguhnya kitalah pewaris seterusnya.
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1 Litre of Tears


Aya-chan sedang mengetuai koir kelas nya.


First time korang baca entry mesti pelik asal aku letak gambar budak jepun yang kawai nie kan. Hehehe.... Nie adalah gambar yang diambil daripada sebuah drama bersiri jepun bertajuk "1 Litre of Tears". Diadaptasi daripada sebuah buku yang mengisahkan kisah benar seorang budak perempuan yang telah disahkan mempunyai penyakit spinocerebellar atrophy. Budak tersebut bernama Kito Aya. Tapi dalam citer nama nyer lain.

Actually citer nie diintroduce pada aku oleh seorang kawan baik aku. Cerita nyer memang menyayat hati. Pasal cerita nie memang pasal kehidupan sebenar budak tuh. Disahkan menghidapi penyakit tuh time umur dier 15. Lepas tuh, dier nyer body cognition mula lemah. First takleh jalan, pastuh takleh cakap, pastuh hanya mampu terlantar di atas katil. Mesej sebenar yang cuba disampaikan dalam citer nie adalah supaya kita sentiasa bersyukur dengan nikmat yang telah dikurniakan oleh-Nya. Pasal tak semua orang ada selalunya sihat. Manalah tau satu hari nanti secara tiba-tiba kita disahkan ada penyakit yang takder cure (F.Y.I penyakit tersebut takder penawarnya. so Aya terpaksa meneruskan hidup. kire cam menunggu masa ajerlah).

Bercerita pasal drama nie teringat plak satu mail yang aku dapat daripada cikgu aku kat SMAP Labu, dalam mail tuh ada kata ; happiness is a voyage. kita takleh tunggu kita dapat sesuatu baru nak gembira. Kalau kita nak cakap secara islamicnya, beramal seperti kita akan mati esok dan bekerja cam kita akan hidup selamanya. Macam-macam dah kita semua dengar pasal menda nie. Tapi kekadang tuh kita ada terfikir ke semua nie? Bagi aku sendiri, rasanya macam kita nie dah terlalu jauh menyimpang daripada ajaran yang sebenar. Kita hari nie terlalu dimanjakan dan dimewahkan dengan macam-macam menda. Nak duit terus ajer parent kita hantar, nak itu ada orang tolong buatkan. Tapi kita lupa bahawa hidup nie tak selamnya begitu. Suatu hari nanti kita akan diuji (kalau orang tuh selalu diuji, itu tanda AllAH sentiasa sayang akan dirinya). dengan sebegitu hebatnya dan mungkin kita akan mengeluh. Tapi ingatlah sesungguhnya AllAH suka akan hambanya sentiasa berdoa kepadanya. Dan kita juga harus ingat, kejayaan yang dikecapi juga adalah ujian daripada-Nya. Dah macam-macam aku tulis nie, sekarang terpulang pada diri kita semua untuk menilainya. Semoga apa yang kita kecapi adalah dalam rahmat-Nya.

So kepada sesiapa yang nak tahu cerita nie secara keseluruhan boleh lah download nyer dari tenet. Atau boleh pau daripada aku nie. Huhuhu.....

“Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing.”
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Que sera sera

Que sera sera bermaksud what will be will be dan juga bermaksud aper yang akan berlaku, akan berlaku. Semenjak beberaoa hari kebelakangan nie rasa macam tak tenteram ajer. Macam-macam menda ada dalam kepala nie. Semua menda nak difikirkan. Kadang-kadang tuh sampai menda yang sepatutnya takyah fikir pergi fikir gak. Entahlah aper nak jadi ek. Tapi kelmarin ada gak ah berbincang skit ngan sorang kawan arab aku nie. Tengah-tengah bercerita tetiba kuar satu topik menarik ; APASAL AMEK MEDIC? So kepada kengkawan semua (terutama yang amek medic fikirkan sebabnya. kepada yang tidak, tiada salahnya jikalau ada menukarkan soalan tersebut kepada apa yang sedang anda lakukan sekarang). So memasing pun memberikan pandangan memasing dalam perkara nie.

Entahlah aper yang aku fikirkan sebenarnya. Aku sendiri pun tak tau kenapa aku amek medic in the first place. Kenapa tak amek kursus lain yang kritikal juga cam pharmacy ker, dentistry ker aper ker. Aku sendiri pun bertanya kepada diri sendiri. Adakah aku nie betul-betul nak belajar medic nie? Ataukah sekadar nak mencari populariti pekerjaan ini? Ataukah kerana mak bapak yang suruh? Tapi yang pastinya mesti ada hikmah disebalik kejadian ini. Hikmah yang kita sendiri mungkin tak nampak sekarang tetapi di masa akan datang pasti banyak membantu kita.

So itulah kekadang kalau kita asyik berfikir sesuatu nie, kita kena juga bercerita ngan orang lain. Yerlah. At least kita taklah rasa terbeban ngan sesuatu tuh. Kekadang dapat pandangan orang lain camne. Boleh ler kita menambah pengetahuan. Yang penting jangan sesekali kita takut ntuk buat silap (kalaud ah tau tuh melampaulah). Sebab kita sebagai insan yang lemah nie sentiasa belajar dari kesilapan. Cuma mungkin kekadang kita terlupa. Itulah juga fungsi seorang rakan. Untuk mengingatkan kita di masa susah dan senang (time susah ntuk mengingatkan kita masih ada lebih ramai yang lebih susah daripada kita kat luar sana dan masa senang ntuk mengingatkan kita bertapa luasnya kuasa-Nya). Itulah sebenarnya kawan yang sejati.

Ish dah jadi lain plak citer aku nie. Tapi itulah hakikat kehidupan sebenarnya. Sentiasa perlukan bantuan yang lain. Dan juga kehidupan kita ini adalah ketentuan-Nya. So mulai sekarang marilah kita semua bersama-sama untuk mencapai tujuan kehidupan sebebarnya ; keredhaan AllAH. Kepada kengkawan di luar sana, kalau nampak ada kesalahan pada diri nie janganlah takut untuk tegur. Kalau ada yang tegur itu lebih indah sebenarnya. Semoga kita semua akan diredhai-Nya. Insyallah........


Kengkawan time kat sekolah dulu dari kiri: Firdaus Rahim a.k.a kaytee(KT), aku, ngan Hafiz Amran a.k.a apes. gambar kat KL Central.


*kaytee (KT) bermkasud ketua tingkatan. dulu dier dari Form 1 dan Form 2 jadi KT. pastuh Form 3 dan Form 5 jadi pengawas.
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Kehidupan ku....

Setelah seminggu memulakan kelas, arinie dan semalam adalah cuti hujung minggu (Jordan bercuti hari Jumaat dan Sabtu). So arinie tak ke mana-mana. Bangun pagi tadi, bukak pc pastuh main game baru bawak dari Malaysia ; Dungeon Seige. Boleh tahan juga ah game nie. Hehehe....

Pastuh lepas semayang Zohor tadi pergi ke McDonalds ngan Muhtadiin ngan Yaser. Hari nie birthday Tadiin. So pergi celebrate kat saner. Tak sempat nak beli hadiah lagi ntuk Tadiin. Insyallah esok nak gi beli kot. Mmmmm.... Bercerita pasal kelas nie, skang nie aku tengah amek summer course. Kena amek paper Immunology, Public Health, ngan Enviromental Protection (additional subject). Boleh tahan juga ah dier nyer bahan ntuk di baca. Actually arituh (hari khamis yang lalu), tidak menghadirkan diri ke kelas kerana demam. Actually skang nie pun tak berapa sihat lagi. Tp insyallah lah boleh pergi ke kelas.

Dah tak tau nak citer aper lagi ek. Mmmmm... Owh arituh time balik ke Malaysia telah bertemu dengan ramai kengkawan dan juga orang ramai. So skang nie telah bertambah lagi satu sebab kenapa aku nak belajar medic (tul ker?), sebab patient zaman skang nie dah semakin concious pasal dier orang nyer health status. Dan mereka juga dah semakin banyak bahan bacaan pasal kesihatan. Cabaran baru ntuk doktor zaman skang: Patients semakin banyak tahu pasal perubatan. Tidak hairan juga satu hari nanti ada doktor kena gelak ajer ngan patients.

So skang nie tgh fikir, adakah aku nie dah bersedia? Nak berubah atau tidak? Kalau terus camnie boleh ker berhadapan dengan masyarakat nanti? Adakah apa yang kita dapat dalam kelas itu mencukupi? So soalan nie juga bukan ntuk aku sorang, tetapi juga kepada kengkawan lain. ADAKAH KITA SEMUA SUDAH BERSEDIA? So tepuk dada, tanyalah iman kita.

Dalam pada itu aku juga tidak ketinggalan ntuk menonton file baru; Shinobi, High School Musical, Fast and Furious: Tokyo Drift, Pink Panther, Ultraviolet, Ice Age 2, Date Movie, dan juga sekali lagi X-men 3:The Last Stand. Wah banyak giler citer aku nengok. Nie datang Jordan nak study ker nak negok movie ajer? Ntah kenapa aku jadi camnie ek. Kepada kengkawan di luar sana, kalau nengok aku cam dah terlupa kepada hadaf sebenarnya silalah tegur ek. Really need it. Rasanya dah takder aper kot nak citer. Lain ajerlah ek. Dah lewat giler. Dan juga arinie kecewa pasal Brazil ngan England kalah. Anyway teruskan perjuangan. Kepada warga Irbid, Jumaat nie adalah hari membuang undi. So jangan lupa menjalankan tanggungjawab anda. Semoga sentiasa dalam rahmat-Nya......
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Hurm.....

~it's start with something like this.......

Selamat kepada semua. Semoga sentiasa dalam rahmat-Nya. So macam mana dengan anda semua arinih. Hehe... dah lama x menulis entry dalam blog nie. setelah pulang ke Malaysia lebih kurang 3 minggu. so there's too much stories yet too ittle and time. ceh cam best ajer ek.

alhamdulillah aku telah selamat sampai kembali ke Jordan ntuk meneruskan sesi pengajian aku kat snih. skang nie dah start summer sem. so ada pelbagai perkara yang menarik akan berlaku, sedang berlaku, atau telah berlalu. okies kiter citer daripada aktiviti aku time kat Malaysia. Actually tak banyak sangat menda yang aku buat. Sesampai ajer aku kat tanah air tercinta, aku terus bergegas ke Kuala Lumpur. Sepatutnya kita orang abeskan masa 3 hari kat KL, tp sebab bapak aku ada urusan rasmi terpaksalah keesokkan harinya aku balik ke kampung. alhamdulillah, aku pulang ke kampung aku kat Pontian, Johor. Bertemu dengan nenek aku yang actually baru ajer discharge dari hospital. Ntah dia ada cam eating disorder. Almaklumlah, orang dah tua. Anyway, she's fine. Insyallah she'll always be blessed.

keesokkan harinya plak kita orang balik ke rumah kat Rompin for like 5 hours. Then off to Kuantan. Actually my father got some kind of meeting to rebuild DARA (Developement Authority of Pahang Tenggara) don't get the wrong idea guys. uhuks~. so we were there for like 2 days. i had a lot of fun there. i went to see movie at cinema. i only manage to watch Omen and Xmen 3. i was hoping to see Da Vinci Code. probably it's not my luck to see it (anyway you still can download it from the net don't you? hahahaha).

after that, we went to my brothers' school in Pekan. school break is over guys. got to leave them there. insyallah i'll see you guys again. the day after i'm suppose to follow my parent to Tioman Island. and something not going on very well, then i got an interesting option ; went to Muadzam all by myself and then off to Kuantan again. Wow! what a wonderful world.. hahahaha.. both of them were invited to the launching of the new Immagration complex over there. so me, with a car and a passport to where ever i wanna go. hehehe.... the net day, me and few of my friends went to Kuantan. to settle my passport and to take care of few business.

the next day had to go home since the main reason why my parent paid my trip home is to see me. so got to stay home . on the weekend, the whole family went to Bera for a family day. Bera ; not so interesting place. got to taste few genuie chinese cuisine. muhahahahaha.... really like them very much. feeling like being on a cloud 9. hehe.... on Moday, my friend from Perak came. we were doing stuffs together. went to Muadzam again to play futsal and tennis. really enjoy the time. as the time flies, i got to go to Kuala Lumpur again since it's my last week in Malaysia. went to KL by bus. went to Low Yat to get few items. then off to Times Square to spend the time foolishly. and then to Mid Valley ; for dinner with few old friends. reminisence good old days.

that night lodging at one of my friend's house at sepang. since his parent wasn't around (they were working in Bahrain), got the whole house. not really doing anything foolish. just got a good Xbox games then off to sleep. the next morning off to school. see feew teachers. were sent to do some talks to jr on how important of english (hahaha.. LMAO. who am I to talk about this. anyway things already happen). speending some times with friends. later that evening, went back to Ampang to get my laguage. then off to Alamanda, Putrajaya. speeding that night at Palm Garden, Putrajaya. both my parent got meeting at Parcel D. went to see around Putrajaya that day. first time went to the Souq, under the Putrajaya mosque. went to see PICC (Putrajaya International Convention Centre), and a few buildings.

later that night, around 11 p.m arrived at KLIA. it's time to say goodbye to everyone. and hello to Jordan. sadly i cannot make to the uniteenz's reunion. well i wish that everyone enjoy the gathering. please say salam to everyone ok. then here i am again. the same old me. just a few new things ; .......... as right now, it's 2.59 in the morning (local time). still lurking in the darkness of my room just to have this entry done. Owh AllAH the almighty, help me to overcame anything that may come. may i survive this harsh world with blessings from you. i think thats all for now. see you again. ja ne~
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Balik dan Balik dan Balik~

Arinie, 5 Jun 2006, maka tamatlah sudah semester dua aku di tahun dua kuliyah perubatan di JUST nie. Mmmmm so bersempena dengan tamatnya semester nie, aku telah bersetuju untuk pulang ke Malaysia (Ceh, walhal memang dah nak balik dah pun). So aku telah memilih untuk menyertai penerbangan Qatar Airways untuk pulang ke Malaysia.

Bercerita pasal exam, mmmm..... Entahlah tak tau nak citer aper. Rata-rata semuanya ok pasal aku study (biasanya memang kurang rajin). So Alhamdulillah dapat menjawab dengan tenang. Segala puji dan syukur kepada-Nya. Entah dah tak tau nak citer aper. Pasal aktiviti sewaktu balik nie dah rancang macam-macam. Harapnya semua akan terlaksana (terutama bab berjumpa dengan ...............*. Eih, tak sabar rasanya~). So kepada rakan-rakan yang tinggal di Irbid nie, semoga anda semua akan melakukan aktiviti yang berfaedah time tinggal kat snih. Kepada mereka yang masih tidak menghabiskan koleksi cerita-cerita yang dikumpul, Pesanan penaja: Sila habeskan. Kalau tak cukup boleh download sendrik. Kepada mereka yang selalu main tuh, teruskan bermain. Tapi jangan sampai tak ingat dunia plaks. Kepada mereka yang sibuk berblogging, selamat berblogging. Dan tidak lupa juga kepada mereka yang masih tidak abes lagi, perjuangan mesti diteruskan. Walau apapun yang terjadi.

So rasanya dah tak reti dah nak tulis aper. Lagipun nie tgh sibuk mengemas barang ntuk dibawa balik. So buat akhirnya kepada semua, selamat bermujahadah. Semoga semua akan sentiasa dirahmati AllAH.

* aper korang ingat awek ker? Aperlah korang nie..... Nak jumpa kengkawan sekolah ler. Dier orang nak buat gath. So dah terlajak aku balik nie, terus gi jumpa. Takut nanti dah tak jumpa yang gi ke UK tuh. yelah dah dapat permission xyah balik.

Terimalah lagu daripada kumpulan nasyid SMAP Labu, Soutul Jihad, Sumbangsih.....


Sekolahku suatu masa dahulu....
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Exam Oh! Exam

Semalam aku dah amek exam Respiratory System (RS). Boleh tahan juga kepayahan soalan *sigh*. Bila result keluar, wah aku nie tak study ker aper? Nak kata tak baca, dah baca. Nak kata tak berbincang, dah berbincang. Mungkin ada sesuatu yang tak kena. Mungkin sebelum exam tak baca doa kot. Atau mungkin ada kesalahan yang aku buat kepada DIA yang menyebabkan berlaku kepayahan tersebut. Atau mungkin jua ini adalah suatu ujian daripada-Nya. Aku pasrah. Takperlah, menda yang berlalu. Buat apa dikenang. Sedangkan di depan kita masih ada lagi pelbagai ujian yang bakal kita lalui tanpa kita sedar atau tidak. Bahkan hidup ini sendiri adalah suatu ujian daripada-Nya untuk hamba-Nya. Semoga kita semua berjaya menempuhinya dengan tabah. Yang penting setiap apa yang kita lakukan semuanya mestilah diniatkan untuk kebahagiaan ummat, untuk-Nya, dan juga untuk agama-Nya.

Seperti apa yang telah dikatakan oleh junjungan besar ; "Sesungguhnya setiap sesuatu bermula dengan, dan setiap orang mempunyai niat. Barang siapa yang berhijrah kerana AllAH dan Rasul-Nya, hijrahnya kerana AllAH dan Rasul-Nya. Barang siapa berhijrah kerana dunia dan juga perempuan untuk dikhawininya, hijrahnya kerana apa yang diingininya"

So setelah tamat exam RS semalam maka berakhirlah mid term exam. So start sabtu nie akan bermulalah pertarungan untuk peperiksaan final bagi semua sistem. Berikut adalah senarai jadual waktu peperiksaan akhir aku:

            Respiratory System                              27th May 2006 (1.15 p.m. - 5.15 p.m.)
            Hematopoietic & Lymphoid System      31th June 2006 (12.30 p.m. - 4.30 p.m.)
            Cardiovascular System                        5th June 2006 (12.30 p.m. - 4.30 p.m.)


So, sekarang nie aku pun dah tak tau nak tulis aper. hehe~ Pasal nyer sedang boring. Rasa macam nak buka buku, tp taktaulah kalau berjaya ker tak. Dan satu lagi, insyallah lepas abes ajer exam 5th June tuh (baca esok nyer), aku akan berangkat balik ke Malaysia. Yeah~ Alhamdulillah, tiket semua dah dapat. So sekarang nie tinggal nak pergi carik barangan nak bawak balik. Tapi satu ajer masalah aku nie, tak tau nak bawak balik aper. So sekarang nie tgh pening juga pasal mendalah aper nak bawak balik. Nengok ah nanti, kalau ada menda-menda yang terlintas kat kepala nie nak bawak balik, mmm aku angkut ajerlah. Muahahahaha.....

Rasanya dah takder aper dah nak citer lagi. Mmmmm.... Tapi satu ajer aku sedar semenjak akhir-akhir nie, semakin ramai plak student kat Irbid nie yang dah buat blog (hehe, satu perkembangan yang menarik). Tapi cuma satu ajerlah pesanan penaja : "Don't get to addicted with it!". But me myself, I don't know how people could get addicted to blogging. As for me, if I feel like doing an entry I'll just open my pc and do it. And the rest of day just do my daily business. Hahaha~ Ok there's no harm in blogging as long as it make no harm to you. If yes, I think you should reconsider of blogging. Well everyone of us already matured enough to make decision, so think wisely, act nicely (cam pelik ajer bunyi nyer. Hehe~). And the point here, don't mess up your life with something yourself doesn't want it. May He guides us through the right path toward the light.

And here is the lyrics for my new favourite song by Ronan Keating and Yusof Islam ; Father and Son. Enjoy it!

Father
Its not time to make a change,
Just relax, take it easy.
Youre still young, thats your fault,
Theres so much you have to know.
Find a girl, settle down,
If you want you can marry.
Look at me, I am old, but Im happy.

I was once like you are now, and I know that its not easy,
To be calm when youve found something going on.
But take your time, think a lot,
Think of everything youve got.
For you will still be here tomorrow, but your dreams may not.

Son
How can I try to explain, when I do he turns away again,
Its always been the same, same old story,
From the moment I could talk I was ordered to listen,
Now theres a way and I know that I have to go away,
I know I have to go.

Father
I was once like you are now, and I know that its not easy,
To be calm when youve found something going on.
But take your time, think a lot,
Think of everything youve got.
For you will still be here tomorrow, but your dreams may not.

Son
All the times that I cried, keeping all the things I knew inside,
Its hard, but its harder to ignore it.
If they were right, Id agree, but its them you know not me.
Now theres a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.


I think thats all for now. May all the best be ours. As for the last word, keep on moving......
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Tagged by Hata @ Irbid

Been tagged by other is not something that easy. Yet it still interesting to do coz it really challenge your skills and also your thinking. Mmmm, I've been tagged by Hata about weird things of me. Mmmmm what should I say, maybe I'm a weird person. As far as I've been thinking, I only got two things that are weird about me compare to others.

1) Love something that hard to get to

Well I don't really know how to say this. But as the tittle say, I love something hard. Do you think so? Well as for me, I really like somethiing hard to get to. Like people, stuffs and so on. About people, well I think I like to know people who are not so social-type. What I mean is that someone that doesn't really good at social skills. Always they are hard to get to. I just like doing that. I don't know why. And also I also looking for someone who is so hard to get close to be my friends. The harder the challange, I'll be more interested in that person. Huhu~ About stuffs? Hard to get means that they need me to do extra effort to got it.

2) Always do something on the very last minute

I do think this is a weird part of me. Well, most of my friends they like to do things as early as they can for me last minutes is really something. I don't know why but it really gives me a satisfaction when it's done. As for example when I'm preparing myself for the final, I don't usually read early not because I don't have time. But it's actually because I just like to do it. (Actually it's not something that everyone really want to do since examination is everything?). As for other things, like functions or anything I really do things at the very last moment. Hehe~

3) I don't know what I'm talking about

Sometimes it really come to me that I don't really know what I'm talking about. It happens almost everytime I was chatting with friends. And always they are complaining about this thing. I cannot be helped Sorry guys ;P (And sometimes I don't really understand what I'm trying to tell when I'm writting entries in this blog).

Well that's all that I can think of for now. If there's anything that make me weird around you guys, do tell me. Just wanna know about myself. As there is a saying (and again I forgot who said it), "If you really want to know about yourself, don't ask your friends as they will always tell things that wasn't real. But your enemy will tell you every weakness in you. So with that you can improve yourself". So to all my "enemies" out there, please help me in knowing myself.

And lately I'm very fond to arts. I really don't know why. Especially when it comes to photograph. There got to be some explaination on this. Why its happening to me!!!!

So despite of all of these weird things, it doesn't make me a weird person don't they? Hehe~ Okies, I think thats all for now. Got to get back to my notes since tomorrow I got discussion (and I haven't done anything yet. hehe~). May everything that I do, it will always lead me to HIM. As for HIM, I hope that all my doings are dedicated.

"What doesn't kill you, it will makes you stronger"



This is something that I enjoy doing recently. Don't know why and don't want to be ask why.



My university. The entrance.
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Mama a.k.a Ibu


Me with mum when I was 6th month old.


14 Mei setiap tahun adalah suatu hari yang begitu bermakna bagi seorang insan yang bernama ibu. Mmmmm, kalau kat belah negara di barat, hari tersebut dikenali sebagai Mothers' Day. Kalau melayu nyer sebut Hari Ibu. Pada hari nie, semua ibu akan diraikan dengan penuh keceriaan. Kalau kita nengok kat Malaysia, macam2 aktiviti akan dilakukan sempena menyambut hari tersebut. Tetapi adakah hanya pada hari tersebut seseorang ibu harus diraikan dengan begitu? Cuba tanya kepada diri anda semua, selama nie camne anda menghargai ibu @ mama @ mummy @ ummi @ apa sahaja gelaran yang anda berikan kepada insan yang telah melahirkan anda di muka bumi nie. Adakah kita menjaga hatinya? Adakah kita telah membuat dia bahagia? Ataukah kita hanya sekadar pandai berkata-kata sedangkan anda sendiri tidak melakukanya (eh, terasa plak aku nie. mmm aper nak jadi ngan aku nie.).

So bersempena ngan Hari Ibu nie, aku nak wat entry pasal mama @ ibu aku. Mmmm. Mungkin korang yang membaca nie kenal, atau tidak itu bukan persoalan nyer. So, hari nie aku nak citer sedikit banyak pasal mama aku nie. Mmmmm nak start dari mana ek? Owh, ok. Mak aku nie bernama Siti Jumiah bte Senawi. Well berdasarkan nama aku rasa korang boleh teka dia nie keturunan aper kan? Obviously, Jawa (malangnya aku nie kekurangan ciri Jawa. Huhu~). Berasal daripada Parit Hj Ariff, Pontian, Johor. Membesar kat sana. Biasa ah berasal daripada keluarga biasa. So aku pun biasa ajer.

Tapi still bagi aku dia nielah insan yang penting dalam hidup aku (termasuk gak abah, amir, hafiz, dan ... ehh terlajak plak. huhu~). Kalau takder dier nie, agak2 nyer ada ker aku ek? (nie hanya sekadar nak sedapkan ayat. Memang DIA yang menciptakan segalanya. So insaflah). So berbalik semula kepada citer pasal mama nie. Well, seorang yang sentiasa ceria dan menceriakan suasana. Juga seorang yang memang best ler. Pasala dier sorang ajer pompuan dalam family aku. Dalam erti kata lain jadi cam orang penting ler ek. Dan juga tempat semua orang bermanja (betul apa yang dikatakan, perempuan nie memang diciptakan lembut. tapi dengan kelembutanya tuh dapat menampung dunia nie. mmmm well gurls, you guys don't have to worry about getting oppressed by the others). Lagi aper ek. Owh, kalau pasal kerja, mak aku nie jadi cam lain skit ler. Dier kerja sebagai Pembantu Teknikal di JKR Rompin. Cam second-in-command ler kat situh (pasal dulu dier belajar sampai diploma ajer. so kalau dier amek ijazah dulu mesti dah jadi engineer ek). Seorang yang memang tegas. Kalau korang pernah nengok dier wat kerjka (esp. time dier marah kontraktor, pergh tobat korang tak nak ader kat stuh). Still, she's my mom.

Seorang yang memang hebat memasak. Bukan setakat makanan jawa ajer reti, makanan pahang pun power gaks. So memang sedap ler makan selalu (pasal tuh aku camnie, huhu~ no offence mom). Seorang yang rajin gak. Memang rajin, pasal seorang wanita. Kalau seorang wanita tuh x rajin, nesecaya akan dikutuk oleh semua orang (hehe~ jagalah saper yang malas sangat tuh. huhu~). Well, dulu masa aku sekolah rendah mamalah yang selalu memberikan perhatian kepada pelajaran aku (maklumlah anak sulung. Eh bukan pak cik Sulong. Huhu~ so kena jagalah ek). So setiap hari selepas balik sekolah mak aku akan memastikan aku buat homework yg diberikan. Tak lupa juga untuk membuat segala urusan barangan sekolah cam kasut, baju sekolah dan macam2 lg lah. Tapi aku rasa cam sampai sekarang nie pun dia still jaga lagi kot. Pasal nyer aku bukan reti nak membeli baju, seluar, kasut dan lain-lain lagi barangan. Sebab semuanya mama yang buatkan. Aku cam ikut ajer. Pasal aku rasa lebih selesa camtuh. Dan aku juga percaya dengan apa yang dilakukan adalah yang terbaik ntuk aku (takper lepas aku dah khawin nanti, ha siaplah bini aku plak jadi mangsa. huhu~).

Lagi, mama aku nie seorang yang best. Pasal aper best, pasal aku senang nak bercerita ngan dier. Kalau ada masalah ker aper ker senang nak berborak. Dier nie juga seorang yang amat concern. Esp. ntuk family dier. So memang kalau kat rumah tuh takder mama, alamat nyer macam kekosongan ajer. Ntah ler, memang rindu giler ngan mama nie. Takper mama, sat lagi kita balik. Mungkin semua orang akan cakap aku nie anak mak ker aper ker. Aku tak kisah pun. Pasal dia tulah satu-satunya mama aku. Dan juga satu-satunya perempuan yang ada dalam hati aku (dah ada bini nanti tambah plak lagi satu slot. yet, she stills my mum is number one. uhuks~). So dah tak tau nak citer aper lagi. Pasal kalau buat entry memang tak pernah rangka. Main tulis ajer. So itulah serba sedikit tentang mama.

So, on this very special day i would like to dedicate to you this special song. From Boyz to Men, entitled A Song For Mama. Happy Mother's Day. May AllAH will always bless you and our family. May we be strong and stand together till the end of time. Insyallah.


With my mum before leaving Malaysia for Jordan



My mum rocks. Yeah!



A happy couple. Wish i could be like them.....


"Mum, your the greatest mother of all time to me. What ever you are, still you are my mum. No one can replace you!"
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Mengarut *%&^%#*@^&$&

Dah beberapa lama semenjak last entry. Ntah ler skang nie rasa malas ajer nak update blog nie. Kind of busy with other stuffs. Dan juga tak tau nak citer aper.....

Mmmmmm..... insyallah lepas abes exam final 5/6 nie akan balik ke Malaysia buat kali kedua nyer. Wah seronoknya sebab dapat jumpa family, kengkawan, dan lain-lain lagi. Ntah ah, kekadang rasa cam balik nie cam rugi ajer. Bukan aper, pasal cuti pendek sangat. Tapi pasal arituh dah janji ngan bebudak nie nak sambut jr bulan 9 nie. So terpaksalah melaksanakan janji yang telah dilakukan. So bulan 9 nie terpaksalah meramahkan diri dengan adik2 baru, since hampir semua senior akan sibuk, esp tahun 6 sebab dah masuk final year. So a little bit busier than before.

Citer pasal balik nie teringat lah pulak pasal tiket flight. Wah, harganya dah melambung tinggi giler. Kalau sebelum bulan April arituh tiket hanya mencecah JOD380.000, tadi bila confirm balik dah naik sampaik JOD470.000. Hampir JOD100.000 gak naik tuh. Mmmmm... takperlah, asal boleh balik. Huhu~ best nyer dapat balik....

Lagi nak citer aper ek, tak tau ler nak citer. Aku tak cam ornag lain tuh, macam2 ha nak citer dalam blog. Maple ler, visit ler, kutuk orang ler, ntah ah macam2 lagi. Aku pun cam dah bosan ajer mendalah nie. Tapi best gak pasal boleh luahkan menda kat dalam hati aku nie kat semua orang. Biar tak kenal aku pun ek. Huhu~ Skang nie plak dah nak dekat ngan exam. Cuma tinggal lagi 2 minggu ajer. Still banyak menda tak cover lagi (bukan takder masa, ntah ler malas nie ler sebab nyer nie. Bukan mak bapak ek.)

Mmmmm.... lagi citer pasal cinta. Mmmm, aku bukan nyer reti sangat pasal mendalah nie. Maklumlah, belum ada pengalaman. Tapi arituh ada terbaca satu mail yang aku terima daripada group aku. Citer pasal Nikah Khitbah (atau dalam melayu nya nikah gantung). Aku sendiri pun tak faham pasal nikah gantung nie. Nie just sekadar nak berkongsi realiti dengan semua orang. Dewasa nie, kita nengok memang masalah cinta nie semakin meruncing di IPT sama ada local mahupun abroad. So nak tak nak, kena jugalah bagi komen ek.

Remaja skang nie semakin lupa akan hadaf sebenar kita diciptakan di dunia nie. Memang akan ramai kata ini semua adalah naluri atau keperluan setiap manusia untuk bercinta. Ini memang tidak dinafikan. Tetapi masalah nyer di sini adalah cara bagaimana kita bercinta. Sedarkah kita akan kesalahan yang selalu kita lakukan? Iaitu kenapa kita bercinta? Aku selalu juga bertanya kepada diri sendiri. Kenapa aku minat seseorang (aku hanya sekadar berminat. tidak pernah mencuba kerana takut salah caranya dan menyebabkan terpesong)? Adakah kerana nafsu semata-mata? Ataukah kerana hendak mencari keredhaan-Nya?

Sekarang cuba korang plak tanya diri korang (soalan nie ditujukan kepada mereka yang sedang asyik dilamun cinta tuh), adakah korang semua bercinta kerana hendak mendapatkan keredhaan-Nya? (mungkin ada yang membaca nie dah berkata aku poyo. tetapi dalam hal nie janganlah korang buat kesimpulan dengan cepat. baca abeskan dulu. pastuh baru komen). Ataukah sedakar kerana trend terkini, ataupun dizaman remaja nie nak ada awek pasal semua kawan ada awek? Cuba nilai balik semua nie. Kalau betullah korang semua bercinta sebab nak dapat keredhaan-Nya, apa tunggu lagi kawen ajer. Bukan susah pun. Kan itu adalah cara yang paling selamat dan insyallah akan mencapai keredhaan-Nya. Dan soalan nie mesti timbul nyer, "Nak bagi anak orang makan aper?". Aperlah korang nie. Kalau dah tau takleh nak tanggung anak orang lagi, yang sibuk2 gi bercinta tuh saper suruh. Ader mak bapak korang suruh ker? Setahu aku ler kan, mak bapak akan suruh anak mereka belajar sampai abes dulu. Bila dah abes belajar nanti, bukan macam takder orang yang nak. Silap2 lagi ramai.

So aku rasa aku dah takleh nak citer panjang2 dah nie. Kan lagi panjang, lagi merapu aku tulis kang. (dah ler ramai orang yang dekat ngan aku baca menda nie. abeslah aku. huhu~). Ok ah, sekarang nie terpulang pada korang apa korang nak kata. Fikirkan balik menda nie. Sebab menda nie bukan main-main. Dan kita semua bukan lagi budak kecil ntuk berbicara tentang nie (sedangkan budak sekolah rendah pun dah sibuk bercinta nie). Dan kalau korang dah jumpa jawapannya, aku harapkan jawapan itu akan membawa kita lebih dekat kepada pencipta kita.

Ok ah, aku pun dah tak reti nak citer aper lagi. Lain kali ler aku wat citer pasal kedai2 makan kat Irbid nie ek Mek Mah. Dan citer pasal Mukhayam tuh ek Akira(Tapi sebenarnya aku cam tak faham aper ko cuba cakap dalam shoutbox tuh. Huhu~). Dah takder bahan ler nak citer. Kalau ada, insyallah aku buat nyer. Aku tau korang perlukan maklumat tuh ek (pasal selalu makan kat luar dan dah bosan ngan Abu Mahmoud ek. Huhuhu~).

So skang nie dah kena stop dulu. Kang melalut citer pasal ntah menda dah. Dah ler tak abes study lg. Sibuk ajer citer pasal cinta ler, makanan ler, blogging ler. Isk isk isk rosak tul ler remaja zaman skang nie. Ok ah, semoga kita semua sentiasa dalam rahmat dan kasih sayang Nya. Jadikanlah keredhaan-Nya sebagai main goal dalam hidup kita.

"Sesungguh setiap apa yang aku lakukan, semuanya adalah kerana-Mu, Ya AllAH"
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"Welcome To My Life"


Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
 
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