A Malay view of 'Ketuanan Melayu'

Assalammualaikum...

In conjunction with the General Election this coming March, I would like to share something interesting with everyone. I didn't post this entry with intention to campaign for any party nor have I any favour in it. It is for the sake of knowledge. As for me, politic is something that really dirty. Even the good will turn bad with it. But to know the foundation of politic in Malaysia, I brought this article here. Hope it'll give you readers something to read about. Don't forget to do your right as a voter. Selamat mengundi everyone!!

A Malay view of 'Ketuanan Melayu'
Posted by Raja Petra

'O people! Your God is one and your forefather (Adam) is one. An Arab is not better than a non-Arab and a non-Arab is not better than an Arab, and a red (i.e. white tinged with red) person is not better than a black person and a black person is not better than a red person, except in piety. Indeed the noblest among you is the one who is deeply conscious of God.' - a saying of Prophet Muhammad (Peace be upon Him)

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Dr Azly Rahman
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'Malaysia - to whom does it belong? To Malaysians. But who are Malaysians? I hope I am, Mr Speaker, Sir. But sometimes, sitting in this chamber, I doubt whether I am allowed to be a Malaysian. This is the doubt that hangs over many minds, and ... [once] emotions are set in motion, and men pitted against men along these unspoken lines, you will have the kind of warfare that will split the nation from top to bottom and undo Malaysia.' - Lee Kuan Yew, now Senior Minister, Republic of Singapore

Instead of defining Ketuanan Melayu as 'Malay superiority' which is quite meaningless, philologically inaccurate, and philosophically arrogant, I think the word 'dictatorship' is closer in meaning. As you read this piece, please refrain from value judgment and from bring trapped in the prison-house of language pertaining to the word 'dictatorship'.

To dictate connotes to tell, which connotes to narrate. To narrate means to weave a story based on an ideology. To ideologise means to encapsulate. To encapsulate means to be trap. Dictatorship, here might also mean an entrapment. Instead of acknowledging one's freedom to rule, one is acknowledging being in an entrapment - and to rule out of that condition. This is a form of false consciousness.

Words, as a literary theorist Raymond Williams might say, must also be contextualised/situated within the economic condition they emerge in. Marx's famous dictum that human beings' existence is defined by the economic condition they are in and that this condition is already predetermined. This is a deterministic view of human history.

I first read heard the phrase Ketuanan Melayu in the mid-1980s from a book by one Malik Munip. I was reading his work, at the same time reading Lim Kit Siang's 'Malaysia in the dangerous 80s', to get a sense of the argument. I was an undergraduate reading Literature, Education and International Politics.

I also heard that Malay students were discouraged from reading Kit Siang's work and encouraged to read 'Ketuanan Melayu'. I love banned books and books that others tell me not to read. There is a sense of intellectual challenge to be able to read banned books.

I read Mahathir Mohamad's 'The Malay Dilemma' and Syed Husin Ali's 'Malays: Their Problems and their Future' and Syed Hussein Alatas' 'The Myth of the Lazy Native' at the same time. Again, to get a sense of balance.

I read Malaysian official publications on economic outlook, juxtaposing them with a close reading of analyses on the political-economy of the Malaysian capitalist state.

I read the work of Freud and Marx to see where some of the major authors of the Frankfurt School of Social Research are going with their arguments on totalitarianism. I read the Quran and the Bhagavad Gita, the Ramayana, and the Mahabharata to see where the arguments on race superiority lie and what the fate of humankind will be.

The idea of social dominance and racial superiority might all be primarily about economics, if we are to read the history of the development of ideologies of superiority. But my question is - who has the right to claim that this or that land belongs to this or that group of people. At what point does culture and citizenship meet and negotiate the issue of egalitarianism? When does 'the truth of one's culture' reach its limit and the question of 'the truth of citizenship' dominate?

This is a very complex question Malaysians must answer after 50 years of Independence. We must open up the dialogue on this issue.

Lyrical propaganda

Let us look at how the idea of ketuanan Melayu is disseminated to the young. One way is through indoctrination camps in which songs are used.

Over the decades, perhaps millions of Malay students like me were taught the dangerous propaganda song, 'WARISAN/Anak Kecil Main Api'(A Child Plays with Fire). One verse concerns the power of the Malays:

… kini kita cuma tinggal kuasa

yang akan menentukan bangsa

hasil mengalir, ke tangan yang lain

pribumi merintih sendiri…

My loose translation of this 1980s propaganda song by the Biro Tata Negara reads:

… political power is what we are only left with

one that will determine the fate of our nation

wealth of this nation flows into the hands of others

sons and daughters of the soil suffer in solace...

I do not think we have a clear understanding of what the lyrics mean. I doubt if the songwriter even understand what a 'people's history of Malaya' means. It is a song based on racist intents; its lyrics penned by one who does not have a good grasp of the political-economy of Malaysian history, let alone the latest advances in the field of psychology of consciousness.

The training programes that encapsulate the theme of this song are meant to instill fear of the Malays, not of others but of themselves, and to project hatred onto other ethnic groups without realising who the enemy of the Malays really are.

Using relaxation techniques to bring the brain waves in the alpha and state (conducive for suggestive and subliminal messages), trainees were put under 'half-asleep' conditions to get the ketuanan Melayu message to colonise the consciousness. The technique pioneered by Russian brain scientists Barzakov and Lozanov in the1970s, called 'suggestopedia', is used to instill the deep sense of fear for oneself and hatred of others.

History is a complex syntagmatic pattern of interplay between technology, ideology, culture, inscription and institutionalisation not easily reduced to simplistic lyrics as such sung to the tune of pre-war German-nationalistic-sounding compositions.

History is about the complex evolution of the ruling class which owns the technologies of control. As Marx would say, at every epoch it is the history of those who own the means of production that will be written and rewritten. The winners write history, the losers write poetry or study anthropology, some would lament.

Back to the lyrics. After 50 years of independence, who is suffering in Malaysia? Who has become wealthy? Who has evolved into robber barons? What has become of our judiciary system, our universities, our city streets, our sense of public safety and security, our schools, our youth, and our entire socio-economic arrangements at the eve of the 12th general election. How has the idea of ketuanan Melayu contributed to this state of affairs?

Language of power and ideology is at play in those lyrics. The definition of 'bumiputera' is at play. It has become a problematic word in this age of deconstructionism; an age wherein as the poet WB Yeats said, "the centre cannot hold".

Rock musicians will recall the Scorpions' famous song 'Winds of Change' to serenade the fall of the Berlin Wall and the beginning of the breakdown of the Soviet Empire. We have to face the 'wrath' of the word.

Put an end to Ketuanan Melayu

For Muslims in Malaysia, this saying by Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) is familiar: 'Your descent is nothing to be proud of. Nor does it bring you superiority. O people! All of you are the children of Adam. You are like equal wheat grains in a bowl ... No one has any superiority over anyone else, except in religion and heedfulness. In order to consider someone a wicked person, it suffices that he humiliates other people, is mean with money, bad-tempered and exceeds the limits…'

I would say that ketuanan Melayu is a dangerous concept that is threatening race relations. It is an arrogant interpretation of selective history; of a history that is largely benefiting those who profits from the ideology.

Those promoting this concept are not well-versed in the matters of philosophy of history. I do not think thinking Malays these days subscribe to the idea of 'Malay dominance and dictatorship'. If there is a ketuanan of one race, then the rest are 'slaves' and 'serfs' and 'sub-citizens', if we are to analyse it from the point of view of 'Master-Slave' narrative?

As a Malay wishing to see the withering of and an end to the concept of ketuanan Melayu and the birth of a new consciousness that will respect the dignity of all races and the humility of all ethnic groups, I call upon Malaysians to continue to be critical of any attempt by any race to project their own sense of false superiority that would only breed dangerous ethnocentrism bordering on xenophobia.

We should work together to deconstruct all forms of race-based political arrangement and work towards establishing a new order based on a more egalitarian economic design that takes into consideration the basic needs and dignity of all races.

We should teach our schoolchildren how to deconstruct such sense of racial superiority, through the teaching of not only tolerance but social egalitarianism - via peace education strategies. We will have a lot to gain for generations to come.

Taken from Malaysia Today

Cuti-cuti Jordan

Me, Iqra', Jafni and Mr. PERMAI. Hehehehehe

Assalammualaikum and good day eveyone.

Alhamdulillah thank goodness I'm able to write again after sometimes due to hetic schedule. Hehehehe. Not really. Actually I've been busy with the family day. Since I've been given task to conduct it. No sweat. Alhamdulillah everything went well from the 1st day till the last (which is the next day. LOL). But everything is ok. That's enough for me though.

Ok right now we've started the 2nd semester. Much to read, much to learn yet little time to finish eveything. Time is the main factor. It's so crucial that everyone seem out of time. But still we all still human which need to rest and have a free time once awhile. We just deserve it (maybe not!).

Last semester break me and few friends were touring Jordan. This is my second time doing so. It's not really a nice place to visit, but there's a lot to see. Joining us are friends from Russia. There were here for a few days visit. Since they don't really have time to visit all places, we brought them to visit main tourist attraction here in Jordan. We went to the Jerash, Umm Qais (a place outlook the Galilian Sea or Tobari Lake), theDead Sea, the Petra (new seven wonders of the world), Wadi Rum (national park which is a desert sanctuary), Aqaba, and down town Amman. We had such a wonderful time visit these places. Even tho time is limited but we managed to cramp eveything. If they have more time I would like to bring them few more places which have historical value dating back since the time of prophet.

But eveything is ok. And we are back again in Irbid. Here is a few pics Jordan Tour 2008. Till next entry, wassalam.

JUST entrance

Dead Sea at dusk

Wadi Musa where Prophet Musa said to sit for sometimes. And the water is where he got his water supply.

Petra. The Khazneh or Treasury in arabic.

Petra. Temple of what-I-don't-know. Hehehe.... But if you've seen Mortal Kombat Annihilation you'll know this Temple.

Wadi Rum. Jordan National Park.

Aqaba's landmark. The tallest flagpole in Jordan.

Nyai dalam kenangan

Assalammualaikum....

Hari ini, 3 Februari 2008 telah pergi seorang insan yang saya kenali sebagai nyai (atau lebih dikenali sebagai nenek ntuk korang). Beliau menghembuskan nafas yang terakhir jam 12 tengah malam (jam 6 petang waktu tempatan). Beliau pergi meninggalkan seorang teman hidup dan 11 orang anak. Cucu dah xingat dan cicit pun dah xpasti berapa ramai. Punca kematian belum saya dapat pastikan. Mungkin kerana diabetes atau mungkin kerana tua. Tapi yang pastinya, AllAH telah memanggil beliau kembali kehadrat-Nya. Semoga nyai digolongkan bersama dengan orang yang beriman.

Mungkin bagi sesetengah orang kematian dalam keluarga sudah biasa. Tetapi bagi diri ini, ini merupakan kali pertama. Tidak saya menyalahkan takdir. Cuma rasa agak terkilan dan sedih kerana tidak dapat melihat wajahnya buat kali terakhir. Kali terakhir saya berjumpa beliau adalah ketika pulang ke Malaysia pada bulan Ogos tahun lalu. Tika terkenang wajah beliau, sebak rasanya kerana saya rapat dengannya. Dulu saya selalu menyebut namanya ketika menangis kerana dirotan oleh ayah. Kini saya menangis kerana teringatkannya. Tetapi tuhan itu maha adil. Setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. Saya redha dengan pemergiannya. Saya harapkan pengakhirnya dalam penuh keimanan dan yakin kepada janji-Nya. Semoga kita semua memperolehinya.

Nyai, selamat tinggal.
Semoga Nyai bersama dengan golongan yang mendapat naungan-Nya.
Ameen....Al-Fatihah

Cuti oh Cuti....

Ya kawan-kawan, cuti sekolah kembali lagi. Satu saat dimana amat-amat dinantikan oleh setiap insan yang berlgelar pelajar. Tetapi dalam masa yang sama, ada juga yang kurang bernasib baik (mungkin??) terpaksa meneruskan persekolahan. Ehehehe.

Cuti semester kali ini adalah menarik. Menarik?? Mengapa? Kerana tiada program yang akan dilaksanakan oleh diri ini. So sebab itu, penulis akan menghabis masa-nya sebanyak mungkin untuk melakukan benda-benda yang susah untuk dilakukan sewaktu hari persekolahan (ye ke??) iaitu tido. Yeah!!!

Sewaktu entry ini sedang ditulis, penulis sebenarnya telah tidur. Tetapi jar-jemarinya pantas menaip setiap perkataan. (owh tidak benar sama sekali). Actually tulis entry nie pun sebab dah terlalu bosan dan tak tau apa aktiviti yang nak dilakukan untuk diri sendiri. Sepanjang hari hanya duduk dihadapan komputer menonton movies, makan, tido, bermain, kacau orang dan lain-lain lagi. Memang cuti kali ini agak membosankan sebenarnya. Irbid hampir kosong. Kawan-kawan yang lain masih lagi bersekolah. So tak tau nak buat apa dah. Baca buku? Hurm I'm not really into it. Nak pergi main bowling atau menonton wayang? Hurm.... No one to go with.

Sebenarnya sebelum cuti arituh ada orang mintak tolong buatkan blog ntuk seseorang tuh. Hurm. Ntah ler. Tak pasti diri ini mampu atau tidak untuk melaksanakannya. Dan ada juga yang meminta untuk menjadi tenaga pengajar minggu IT. Aiseh, bro gua nie dah old-skol. Apa kata guna ajer tenaga-tenaga baru. Idea-idea fresh. Dan untuk pengetahuan, diri nie bukanlah hebat sangat. Cuma sekadar pandai menggunakan peluang dan keadaan. Untuk dimanipulasikan.

Sedikit tips untuk memajukan diri dalam bidang IT nie, kita kenalah rajin mencuba. Sebab sebenarnya bidang nie bukan sekadar teori semata-mata. Tetapi lebih kepada pengalaman. Kalau kita takut untuk mencuba suatu yang baru, macam mana kita nak bersaing. Sebab segala kejayaan hari ini telah melalui kegagalan di masa lalu. Cuma yang membezakan yang berjaya adalah mereka bangun dari kegagalan untuk terus berjaya.

Ok, berbalik kepada cerita pasal cuti. Insyallah hari Khamis nie 31/1 kengkawan dari Russia akan tiba dari Mesir untuk lawatan ke Jordan. Actully xberapa kenal pun mereka. Sekadar pernah bertegur sapa sekali dua. Tetapi atas dasar persaudaraan Islam (insyAllah), kita haruslah melayan mereka dengan sebaik mungkin. So far masih belum ada lagi planning ntuk bawak dia orang berjalan. Sebab nengok kat weather forecast yang tidak menentu. So segala perancangan haruslah dirancang dengan teliti agar masa tidak dibuang begitu sahaja.

So rasanya xder apa dah untuk diceritakan lagi. Cukuplah rapuan tadi. Kepada mereka yang sedang bercuti, selamat bercuti dan bergembira. Tapi jangan lupa kepada saya. Kalau pergi Turki ke Syria ke Mesir ke jangan lupa ole-ole ek. Kepada mereka yang masih bersekolah, jangan asyik ponteng ajer. Belajar wei. Ehehehehehe.....

Till then, wassalam.

*updated* Baby Rayyan Hanin

Assalammualaikum. Alahamdulillah yesterday I went to Amman to meet the new member of Sagol's family; baby Rayyan Hanin (well that is the last name that they call her (owh it's a baby girl)). They're going to change it maybe They already change it. We are so happy for Sagol and Marwah for having such a wonderful kid. Hehehehe. Good job guys.

Well that's all that I have to say. As for me, it still a long run. Maybe in next 7 years or more? Or maybe less. Who knows.
Anyway... best of luck to you guys. And for the rest, hehehehe don't you guys want one? What are you guys waiting for. Go and make your own today (of course through the HALAL way).
Ja-ne ;P

Ikhtilat Sifar



Assalammualaikum. Apa khabar semua? Diharap agar semua sentiasa dalam rahmat dan kasih sayang-Nya.
Alhamdulillah kita semua telah selesai menyambut Eid Adha. Setelah hampir setahun kita berada dalam tahun 1428H nie apakah kita mencapai semua cita-cita kita? Adakah semua resolusi kita telah berjaya? Saya harap agar semua telah mencapai. Kepada yang rasanya belum tercapai tu, masih belum terlewat untuk kita menjayakannya.

Rasanya tahun ini adalah merupakan tahun yang ke-4 saya beraya di perantauan. Setelah hampir 3 tahun lebih mengharungi pelbagai dugaan yang saya rasa mencabar tetapi pada hakikatnya hanya sedikit daripada ketetapan yang telah ditentukan oleh-Nya. Masih banyak lagi perkara yang perlu saya pelajari untuk berjaya. Pelajaran yang semakin bertambah membuatkan jiwa ini semakin tertekan. Tetapi siapalah kita untuk mempersoalkan ketentuannya. Apa yang boleh kita lakukan hanyalah berdoa agar dikuatkan semangat untuk mengharungi hari-hari mendatang. Dan tidak dilupakan juga usaha untuk mencapainya.

Bercerita tentang tajuk entry ini, ikhtilat. Semua pastinya tertanya-tanya apakah itu IKHTILAT? Ya suatu perkataan yang agak asing bagi kebanyakkan pengunjung. Ikhtilat itu adalah perkataan arab yang bermaksud pergaulan. Dalam Islam pergaulan yang dimaksudkan adalah pergaulan antara dua jantina yang berbeza. Bukan semua ikhtilat itu adalah haram. Tetapi masalahnya manusia ini memang hakikatnya akan suka melakukan apa yang dilarang. Istilah ikhtilat yang saya maksudkan di sini adalah pergaulan bebas antara lelaki dan perempuan tanpa batasan.

Semenjak kebelakangan ini kita lihat masalah ini semakin membiak. Bukan sekadar orang dewasa, bahkan kanak-kanak sudah pandai. Memang tidak dapat dinafikan terdapat pelbagai punca dan faktor yang menyumbang kepada perkara ini. Tetapi pada saya perkara yang benar-benar menyumbang kepada perkara ini adalah asas agama yang tidak kukuh di dalam diri. Mungkin ramai akan berkata saya ini hanya pandai berkata-kata. Dan mungkin saya ini terlalu idealistik. Tetapi inilah masalah masyarakat kita. Tidak berani untuk melakukan perubahan. Tidak berani untuk mengatakan tidak kepada perkara yang tidak baik. Semuanya hanya berdiam diri sahaja apabila berlaku sesuatu masalah. Untuk tidak mengelirukan, mari kita lihat situasi masyarakat Malaysia sekarang. Remaja semakin ramai yang suka berpeleseran. Semakin ramai yang terjebak dengan sindrom 'couple'. Semakin ramai yang terlibat dengan gejala sosial. Dimanakah peranan ibu bapa? Mereka hanya pandai menunding jari kepada pendidik. Inilah masalahnya apabila ibu bapa menswastakan pendidikan anak-anak kepada guru.

Dengan ibu bapa yang semakin sibuk, peranan mereka sebagai pendidik semakin kabur. Semuanya diserahkan bulat-bulat kepada guru. Tetapi apabila guru-guru merotan anak-anak, mereka akan melenting. Itulah antara sebab mengapa anak-anak semakin liar. Dengan ibu bapa yang sibuk dan kuasa guru untuk mendidik semakin berkurangan. APALAH HENDAK JADI DENGAN DUNIA YANG SEMAKIN MAJU. Mungkin pengunjung yang pernah membaca entry saya sebelum ini, ada saya mengatakan bahawa kemajuan dan gelaja sosial itu seiring. Ya, memang benar. Tetapi perkara ini hanya benar jikalau pendidikan asa iaitu cintakan AllAH tidak diterapkan ke dalam diri anak-anak seawal umur baligh. Bila itu berlaku maka akan jelaslah kelihatan apa yang saya maksudkan dengan ikhtilat itu. Istilah yang asing tetapi makna yang sudah sebati dengan masyarakat kita. Bila kebaikkan tidak lagi disanjung dan keburukkan itu menjadi kebanggaan.

Cuba kita renungi kembali. Jikalau kita tidak mahu generasi akan datang (anak-anak kita) semakin jauh terpinggir, maka kita haruslah memulakan langkah untuk melakukan kebaikkan dan memperbaiki diri dan masyarakat kita. Semoga usaha kita untuk memperbaiki diri ke arah kebaikkan dan diberkati-Nya. Marilah sama-sama kita berusaha kearah ikhtilat sifar.

SAY NO TO FREE IKHTILAT

Wikipedia anyone?

Assalammualaikum.

Alhamdulillah, once again I made it. I'm able to update this blog. LOL.
After awhile with nothing to write here I am once again to write something into this blog. I just finished my midterm exam on GIT (gastrointestinal tract system). And the result is out. And again, I failed to do my best (and this time I'm pretty sure of it).
No more excuses should be given. Time and space had been given. Yet I failed to utilize them to the fullest. I don't know what to say anymore. The only thing that I can do right now is study harder, pray and do my best in the coming system and the final. May Allah guide me through my way.

Recently, my friend had launched a portal for PERMAI (and you can visit them through this link). And he made me one of them admin. I don't know why but I really enjoy working them. It's really interesting. Because there's a lot of things that we can play around. Not to mention some of them really cool. I've been dreaming about this portal since I was in high school. But my laziness caused me to forget this thing since it needs you to really understand all the script running. Yet my friend made it. Cheers for Arep! Yeay!

As for this coming month, PERMAI will held Eid Adha celebration. And insyallah this year I'm going to join. Well there's nothing more to say. Just to all my friends who are on holidays right now, don't forget us. To those having exams coming, keep studying like there's no tomorrow. And for those who had graduated and now on training, hurm.... what should I say; we already choose this path. There's no turning back now. It's now or never.

Till next time. Wassalam....

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Assalammualaikum and good day everyone. Alhamdulillah thank to AllAH for all of His blessing and graciousness that I'm still here to write this thing that I had in my mind. I haven't been updating my blog for awhile now because of few occasions that I shouldn't mention here. But to put it simple just knew that I'm a busy person. With so many things going through my head recently, I really have no idea what I'm gonna do about it. Should I just let it be, or should I do something about it?
Well that just my loneliness talking. Hahahaha.....

But there's so many interesting event happening recently. I'll let you guys know some of them and the rest I guess better left in the shadow. First of all this year I didn't go anywhere except to be here in Irbid for my Eid holidays. Since I have an exam coming a week after the Eid. So I decided to stay. Plus there's like 350 Malaysian students this year at this very moment. So this just add to my list of 'Why senior should stay in Irbid during Eid'. Hahahaha funny.

Then the exam come. Alhamdulillah I passed with a slight of joy. Don't ask me why cause I'm telling no one why. Then have this one special guest from Malaysia cycling around 7 continents. He goes by Qobin or his real name is Muqorobin or something like that. We had a nice chat. And he's really something. I mean his really good at his stuff. And this made me wonder, what am I best at? The only thing that I knew is sleeping. Yeah. You can call master of that. If you guys didn't believe me, you should ask my friends. If I'm watching movies with them, after 5 minutes the movie start I'll be long doze off.

But then this one special ocation happening. One of my friend asked my to 'put on some intelligent on this girl I knew-and-must-not-speak-of-her-name-here', cause he think he's in love with her. I don't know what to say. Well I've asked around, and in the end I told him to get someone else to get it done. It's not that I don't want to help with. It just that I don't think that I'm qualified to do it for many reasons. Ok enough about that.

And afew days ago I've recieved two laptops that need to be reformat. But just today I got an opportunity to do it. But it turn put that I had problems with it. So I have to wait until later today to get the job done. Hope that I won't screw things up this time. Hahahaha... Always love to experiment things. Well curiousity kills the cat.

I guess that'a all for now. I'm gonna call it off for now. But let by gone be by gone. We cannot turn back the time. But one thing that we can change is our self. Always remember this one proverb that I kinda made it, 'what doesn't kill you make you suffer'. Till then, off.
Wassalam.

At PERMAI Eid Celebration Night

Me, Fird, Aizat with newly weded couple ; Aiman and Asma'

With boys of 2004. May we remain together forever

Eid Mubarak

Eid Mubarak everyone. Jordan will be celebrating Eid a day ealier than Malaysia.
To all my friends out there, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
May all that we had gain in Ramadhan will be always with us. May the Madrasah of Ramadhan had shape us into a good muslim and may the coming years will be as interesting as this one. Hoping to meet Ramadhan again.

Here I would like to take this opportunity to pass my forgiveness to all of my friends out there. And if I had ever done anything that is wrong, please forgive me for I'm just a small guy who had nothing in this world to repay every mistakes that I've done. And last but not least, Eid Mubarak Kullu 3am Wa Entum Bi Kheir ( Eid Mubarak, May health, wealth and all the good things will happen to you).

Is this the end?

28th of Ramadhan 1428H.

Is this end of Ramadhan?
Will it end like this? What have we done for the past 4 weeks?
Are we really doing things that we supposed to do? Or just laying around doing things that we shouldn't do?

All answer we can get it within ourself. To tell the truth is that I don't thing I really had embraced Ramadhan this year. Why? I just don't know why. Probably because there's deep in me there's something that really bother me. I don't know what. But one thing that I know, I just flunked my entire holy month like that.

Owh I know I had missed all the fun part of being in Ramadhan. I should just do everything that I supposed to do instead of everything that I wasn't supposed to do. Well that just so me. I don't really see where I'm heading these days. I really don't know why. Am I missing my family? I doubt that. Maybe missing my friend? Well I don't think so. Maybe I'm in love? Well you must be kidding right? Hahahahahahaha.....

Anyway I just don't feel like myself. I just feel that I'm just a person that's so out of this place. Out of this field. I don't think that I didn't entitled for all this luxury life and blissful situation. Or maybe I don't deserve anything that really nice. For me I really think I should start thinking of increasing my effort. Or should I just surrender? I don't know. I wish that someone could tell me what to do.

With the coming Eidul Fitr, I'm wondering will I be a good person? And the questions continue........

But only one thing that I hope will get me the answer, "I hope that this won't be the end of my life, for I haven't done what I supposed to do"

-Hoping for an answer-

Ramadhan Kembali lagi.

Assalammualaikum dan salam sejahtera semua. Alhamdulillah, dipertemukan kita sekali lagi dengan Ramadhan tahun. Setelah hampir setahun berlalu selepas Ramadhan yang lalu, kita masih diberi nikmat untuk bertemu dengannya sekali lagi. Tetapi adakah kita bersedia menghadapinya? Apakah persediaan yang telah kita lakukan untuk menghadapinya?

Inilah sepatutnya soalan yang perlu berada dalam fikiran kita. Bukannya apa yang nak dimasak untuk berbuka. Atau nak buat kuih apa untuk raya tahun nie? Perspektif kita tentang Ramadhan perlu diperbetulkan. Ramadhan itu adalah suatu bulan yang seharusnya kita jadikan masa untuk kita membersihkan diri dari dosa-dosa. Suatu masa untuk kita mengambil iktibar daripadanya. Untuk kita jadikan panduan sepanjang masa. Sebagai peringatan untuk diri yang sentiasa alpha dan leka.

Alhamdulillah, sehingaa hari nie, dah hampir dua minggu pulang dari tanah air. Terima kasih atas segalanya. Dikesempatan pulang ke Malaysia telah banyak membuka mata tentang kehidupan ini. Kehidupan ini tidaklah seindah yang kita harapkan. Tetapi adalah suatu kenyataan yang harus diterima oleh semua orang. Mereka yang tidak dapat menerima kenyataan inilah yang selalu hanyut dengan godaan duniawi. Memang benarlah dunia ini hanya sebagai suatu persinggahan buat sementara waktu sahaja.

Pelbagai isu dapat kita lihat dalam akhbar semenjak kebelakangan ini. Dan yang paling merunsingkan adalah kes penderaan seksual dan pembunuhan adik Nurin. Suatu keadaan dimana menggambar betapa kita telah kembali ke zaman jahiliyah. Cuba kita lihat kembali, siapakah yang harus dipersalahkan? Dimanakah silapnya? Inilah hakikat yang berlaku di Malaysia hari ini. Seperti kata pepatah inggeris It's like the tip of an iceberg. Kejadian ini hanyalah sebahagian hakikat masyarakat Malaysia.

Kemajuan dan keruntuhan akhlak diibaratkan berlaku secara seiring. Cuba kita lihat negara-negara maju seperti Jepun, US, England, Perancis. dan Jerman. Memang negara mereka maju. Itu adalah suatu yang tidak dapat kita nafikan. Tetapi kemajuan itu sendiri telah menyebabkan kita mengorbankan nilai-nilai kemanusiaan yang selama ini amat dititik beratkan oleh Islam. Inilah akibatnya apabila kemajuan yang kita perolehi tidak disandarkan dengan Islam. Kita telah menjadi semakin sekular; memisahkan kehidupan harian dengan agama. Sebenarnya Islam adalah suatu cara hidup. Bukan sekadar agama. Islam meliputi segalanya. Dari urusan dunia sehingga ke alam sana.

Cuba kita renungi kembali diri kita ini. Dalam kita mengejar kejayaan dunia adakah kita menyandarkannya dengan Islam? Adakah kita memahami Islam? Adakah kita telah melakukan amalan yang cukup untuk kita ditempatkan di tempat yang baik di alam sana? Semuanya kembali kepada kita sendiri. Jadi ambilah kesempatan dalam bulan Ramadhan ini untuk kita memperbaiki diri agar menjadi insan yang sempurna. Semoga apa yang kita kejar selari dengan kehendak Islam. Semoga selamanya kita berada dalam perlindungan-Nya.

Ramadhan Kareem....

Problems. You got a problem son?

Problems are something that everyone will be facing or have been or what ever. But here's the question, does it bother you? Well I guess I already know the answer, sure it does. Well guys face it; it's something that you cannot run away from. Even if you run away from it, it'll keep coming back to you. No matter what you do, where you are. So why run away from problems? Don run away, face it. Even if it takes time to resolve.
I'm writing here not as a counselor or motivator. I'm writing here as a person who happened to have a lot of problems. You hear that, a lot. Well I used to run away from all of my problems. Seeking other route to evade them. But in the end it keeps coming back. So we must solve it before getting to another level.
Let take study as an example. For most of the people think that study is a problem. Well it'll be a problem if you don't overcome it. There's a thousand of ways to make study interesting and not a problem. But the real problem is ourselves. We never choose to make it interesting. We rather choose to be bored by it. So is that your problem or someone else? There's a lot of other things out there that you'll face someday that gonna be more problematic than right now. Like whomdo you want to marry with. What you wanna do in the future. Where you gonna live afterwards. If you treat them as a life and death situation, I guess you'll be dead by now.
So why do we have to burden our self thinking about it. Live free (but not totally cause we still bounded by Quran and Sunnah). Always look on the bright side of life. Live your life to the fullest. Do what ever you want, and the most important thing is you have to face your problem. Not running away from it. Remember my friends, we are what we are. Allah had created all of us unique. So stop whining about your miserable life. Live it. Embrace it. Don't let anything come between you and your creator. For we are gonna come back to Him someday. As for Muslim, we do have Allah always by our side. Even if he didn't give what we want, that doesn't mean that He's not there. He's there. Maybe what we ask is something that wasn't meant for us. So why bother yourself about it. For He has planned everything for us. Even this entry had been planned even before I was born.
So to make it simple and clear, solve the problem before it consuming you and your entire life. Don't let anything haunting your life.

O ALLAH FORGIVE ME WHEN I WHINED

Assalammualaikum and good day everyone.
Alhamdulillah I just finished my 2nd exam yesterday which was satisfying. Thank Allah for HIS bless. Even though I still have like one week to the final. So many things to be done. So many people to talk to. So many events that I can even remember any of them until the day.
It has been a week since Acab n Che Mie left Jordan. Really feel something different around here especially to Sakan peeps. Well that's how the world work. Everything that come must go. Never be in the same place for a long period of time. Even when we enjoy it we have to move. But that's the beauty of this life. The dynamics that create a better us. Shaping us into something that we may never had thought before.
I still got like two weeks before going back to Malays. Being here for a long period of time really made me something that even myself can't imagine. Maybe fo others a year and half is like a short period of time, but for me it still something that I may say 'terrible'? LOL. Well alhamdulillah finally I'm going home after a year of frustration. That's why people always say "expect the unexpected". I never knew the real meaning. But now I know the concept. Never feel safe with what you have. Never ever proud with what you are. Always stay down to earth for one day we are going back to the earth.
It may seems a bit late. Still other people can benefit from what have I feel. Never have to do the same mistake again peeps. Remember "learn from other mistakes cause we don't have too much time to learn all by ourself". As long as we understand our religion, with Allah's will everything gonna be ok. Always practise virtue for it will make you somebody. Never judge people by their appearance (maybe sometime it's acceptible), cause people nowadays never act like themself.
Last but not least, to those who still confused why we are here just remember to look yourself in the mirror for that will answer the question.

WE ARE WHAT WE ARE

Assalammualaikum.... dan salam sejahtera kepada semua. Semoga semua sentiasa dalam rahmat dan kasih-sayang-Nya. Semoga kita semua sentiasa berada dalam perlindungan-Nya. Apa khabar iman kita hari nie? Adakah lebih baik dari semalam? Ataukah lebih teruk dari semalam? Semua itu adalah suatu soalan yang seharusnya kita sentiasa tanyakan pada diri kita sendiri. Sedarkah kita setiap detik usia kita bertambah, kita sebenarnya semakin menghampiri mati?

Mungkin sekadar peringatan untuk rakan-rakan sekalian tentang hakikat kehidupan kita nie. Apakah sebenarnya tujuan kita dijadikan di muka bumi nie? Adakah untuk bersuka ria? Untuk berkasih-kasihan? Adakah untuk mencari apa-apa yang dapat memuaskan keperluan diri? Ataukah untuk memenuhi tugasan sebagai seorang hamba? Ini adalaha suatu soalan yang sepatutnya kita tanyakan pada diri. Adakah kita telah memenuhi segala keperluan untuk mencapai tujuan kejadian kita...

Mungkin diri ini tidak sesempurna untuk bercerita tentang perkara sebigini. Tetapi diri nie sentiasa berpegang kepada suatu perinsip yang mungkin bagi orang lain agak pelik, " Tidak salah kita berusaha untuk menjadi sempurna. Tetapi adalah amat tidak sesuai jikalau kita tidak berusaha untuk menjadi sempurna".

Pernah pada suatu hari sewaktu dalam perjalanan pulang ke Malaysia saya bertemu dengan seorang doktor yang baru pulang dari menziarahi Eropah. Kami berkenalan ketika sedang menunggu pesawat yang akan membawa kami pulang ke tanah air yang tercinta. Sewaktu itu saya sedang membaca buku The Ideal Muslim yang saya beli sewaktu pergi melawat ke Mesir pada awal tahun 2005. Dia bertanyakan apa yang sedang saya baca. Jadi saya tunjukkan kepada dia buku yang sedang saya pegang. Kemudian keluar dari mulut seorang doktor yang saya rasa kurang sesuai. Iaitu dia berkata buat apa membaca buku sedemikian. Kalau baca pun tak akan sempurna. Agak terkejut juga saya kerana perkataan sebegitu keluar dari mulut seorang professional. Hurm.... mungkinkah beliau telah kecewa? Ataukah ada sesuatu yang membuatkan dia merasa begitu?

Tapi apa yang saya cuba sampaikan adalah, apa salahnya jikalau kita cuba berusaha untuk menjadi sempurna? Ya memang saya yakin dan percaya takkan ada orang yang sempurna dalam hidup nie. Tapi apa salahnya kalau kita mencuba. Bukannya kita menyakiti orang lain. Mungkin inilah salahnya masyarakat kita hari nie. Sekadar merasa cukup dengan apa yang ada. Sebagai contoh dalam mengejar ilmu, tidak salah untuk kita menjadi seorang yang tamak. Tamak untuk mencari ilmu. Tetapi pastikan apa yang kita lakukan itu kita fikirkan. Itulah mengapa kita sewaktu kecil dihantar untuk belajar ilmu agama di masa akan datang kita mampu untuk menilai sesuatu itu dengan ilmu dan agama. Di dalam dunia ada pelbagai benda. Jikalau diri kita tidak bersedia untuk menghadapinya, kita akan tenggelam di dalamnya.

Oleh itu pesanan saya kepada rakan-rakan semua agar kita sentiasa berfikir apa yang kita lakukan........ Kerana ingatlah setiap apa yang kita lakukan akan memberi impak kepada kita. Tidak kira positif atau negatif. Semakin hari diri kita ini menghampiri mati. Adakah kita telah bersedia untuk menghadapinya? Tepuk dada, tanyalah iman sendiri.....

Renungan bersama untuk semua dan diri nie......

Assalammualaikum... Alahmdulillah thank to AllAH The All Mighty that had given me yet another day to go through. Yesterday was history. Tomorrow is something that we still don't know. But today, today is something that surely full of suprises and events. Still it's something unique. Something that neither we nor other people will know what'll happen to us. So what a Malay wisdom words used to say, "Sediakan payung sebelum hujan" which means always be prepared with anything that may come. There's nothing much happened for the last few weeks. The only major things is PERMAI Annual General Meeting in which I had been selected (or voted by the members to become Secretary General). And I think that's all.

And to Ninah, I'm really sorry for not being able to complete the Tag u sent to me. Maybe I'll try to do it after I've finished my Immunology test which will be held on this Tuesday. Well this is one subject that I have 'thing' about it. Since I cannot afford another failure, I'll try my best to beat it. May AllAH help me in this journey. To everyone else, who had started their summer holidays enjoy your holiday. And to those who had to attend summer classes, be patient cause eveything happen with a reason. And the reason is something that we had to figure out ourself.

Last but not least, to those who read this blog I really appreciated your visit and thak you very much for all the support you guys had given. Maybe I cannot return the favour now, but InsyAllah someday if I were give the opportunity I'll do my best.

And a special note to the Pengantin-to-be, may your marriage is something that will make you guys a better person. And do show people here and in Malaysia that marriage is not something that will ruin your life. Instead, it's something that will make people stronger and better. But remember, you can achieved all the fore mentioned things if you do it through Islamic ways. Islam is not just a religion, actually it's something that had to do with our everyday life.

Till then, wassalam...

Tidak adakah rasa kesal dalam hatimu??!!
Astaghfirullahalazim..aku beristighfar panjang..Suara itu sungguh jelas, cukup jelas untuk membangunkanku dari tidur yang kian hari kurang lena.. Ku kesat peluh didahi.. Panas.. Malam yang panas,sepanas siang dengan terik sinar matahari.. Tambah panas dengan suara-suara bisikan yang kerap hadir di minda.. Membangunkan ku ketika lena, menyentakku ketika jaga..
Aku bingkas bangun.. segelas air dituang, niatnya mahu menghilangkan dahaga.. Tapi, dahagakah aku? Atau sengaja ingin menafikan apa yang sebenarnya terbuku dihatiku.. Sekian lama peristiwa tersebut.. kini genap setahun sudah berlalu.. Aku melabuhkan punggung di kerusi.. Entah apa yang bermain di fikiran ku, hanya Tuhan yang tahu.. Kepalaku ligat berfikir,mengingati kembali fasa-fasa hidupku yang berlaku pada hari-hari yang sama dengan waktu kini.. Cuma bezanya, tahun..
Mataku tajam merenung sekeping kertas kecil terselit di bawah tafsir al-Quran diatas meja.. Ia sekeping tiket.. tiket yang akan membawaku ke sebuah majlis makan malam tahunan.. Entah mengapa, acara tahunan yang begitu dinantikan oleh kebanyakan pelajar, bagai tidak menarik seleraku.. bukan sahaja tidak menarik selera, bahkan menimbulkan pula rasa yang bercampur-baur.. risau, takut, gementar, cuak.. Mataku masih merenung tepat tiket itu.. ingin ku capai.. tapi bagai dihalang naskhah tafsir al-Quran.. Lantas minda ku mula mengingati dgn terperinci peristiwa yang berlaku hampir setahun lepas..
Dani..oi Mat Dani..Meh sini jap..Ko join kitorg arrange bahagian performance mase dinner nanti ok x? Alaa.. kerja simple je.. kita pilih orang untuk perform, lepastu bagi briefing sikit.. haa lebih kurang macam tula .berfikir sejenak.. Ooo..Layan ajela.. aku orait jepersetujuan ku beri tanpa berfikir panjang.. bukan tidak mahu berfikir tentang baik buruknya.. Cuma memang hatiku tidak terbuka untuk memikirkannya.. bagi ku ia hanyalah satu tugas.....
Kau bertugas untuk siapa??!!
Ahhh.. keluhku sendirian.. kalau bukan kerana tugastersebut.. pasti tidak wujud perasaan yang ku alami kini.. Majlis tersebut memang penting, kerana bermula dari majlis itulah telah bercambah pula majlis-majlis yang seumpama dengannya.. Timbul rasa bangga dihatiku, dapat menjadi pioneeratau pembentuk acuan untuk persembahan pada satu majlis yang besar. Memang benar, tugas sebagai ajk persembahan untuk sesuatu majlis memang mudah.. Mudah dalam erti kata membuat pilihan untuk mereka yang berminat membuat persembahan.. Asalkan menarik dan cukup latihannya,maka terpilihlah.. Mana yang hanya bagai melepaskan batuk ditangga, jangan haraplah.. Terlintas di kepala senarai peserta-peserta yang dipilih untuk membuat persembahan pada majlis tersebut.. ada yang mempersembahkan kugiran, sajak, pentomin.. dan tidak ketinggalan juga tarian.. Saat itu, hatiku bergetar semula, panas dirasakan..
Tika itu, pada fikiranku, tiada yang tidak kena pada pemilihan peserta untuk tarian.. kerana matlamat asalnya untuk mengumpul segala jenis tarian masyarakat Malaysia yang berbilang kaum, Melayu, Cina dan India..Jadi, dipilihlah sebuah kumpulan tarian dari bangsaku sendiri, iaitu dari saudara-saudari seagamaku sendiri.. Niat asalnya hanyalah mahukan sebuah persembahan yang mempersembahkan tarian asli Melayu.. hanya itu matlamat asalku..
Tapi matlamat tidak pernah menghalalkan cara!!!!
tersentak.. suara itulah yang kerap kali mematikan lamunanku.. menyedarkanku dari angan kosongku, menggetarkan seluruh tubuhku.. Ku teguk air yang kian kontang.. Fikiran ku melayang mengingati peristiwa yang berlaku hanya beberapa hari sebelum majlis itu berlangsung..
Danial, boleh tak kami nak berjumpa dengan awak dan rakan-rakan yang terlibat menguruskan persembahan untuk dinner nanti.. Di surau ya?.
"Ada hal penting ke? soalku.. Iya,sangat pentinglantas berlalu meninggalkanku. Dialah Ummu, salah seorang penggerak usrah di tempat belajarku.. Memang sudahku duga tujuan dia ingin menemui kami, pasti tentang persembahan pada dinner tersebut.. Isy, adela tu yang tak kena pasal persembahan.. aku dah agak dah.. diorang ni, ade je yang tak boleh.. bisik hati jahilku.. Sesungguhnya, tiada yang kurisau tentang pertemuan itu.. Iyalah, masakan tidak.. Aku tidak mempunyai masalah untuk berdialog, mahupun berbahas.. mungkin mewarisi darah seorang pensyarah dan motivator.. mulutku cukup lancar berbicara, apatah lagi jika bertikam lidah.....
Alangkah baiknya jika kelancaran lidahku bertutur disulami ilmu pengetahuan agama yang tinggi dan kukuh.. pasti membuahkan hujah-hujah yang cukup ilmiah.. Malangnya.. demi menegakkan pendapat dan pengetahuan yang serba-serbi jahil..
Kalau boleh.. korang cubela stop atau tukar tarian dari sahabat-sahabat kita tu.. Paling kurang pon, terhadkan pesertanya dari kalangan lelaki sahaja pinta Ummu dgn harapan tiada rakan-rakan perempuan yang mengambil bahagian dalam tarian..
Bukannya tak boleh, tapi nanti hambarla persembahan tu.. sebab penyerinya memang perempuan pantas sahaja lidahku menjawab.
"Ini bukan soal berseri atau tidak Danial.. ini soal halal, haram & maruah agama..Lagi yang paling penting,maruah & kehormatan wanita tu sendiri.. Awak pun tau, sudah terang dinyatakan oleh agama, wanita tak boleh menari di khalayak ramai, membuat gerakan-gerakan yang boleh menimbulkan syahwat dan keinginan buruk orang terhadapnya . Sedang sesama perempuan pun ada batasnya, apatah lagi dihadapan bukan mahram dan kaum yang bukan seagama dengan kita.. di mana maruah Islam ?? semakin keras mempertahankan hujahnya..
"Alaa..kitorang dah cakap kat mereka, pakaila pakaian yang bersopan.. No dedah2.. kitorang pon dah fikir pasal benda-benda macam tu sekali lagi kejahilanku terserlah..
Maaf, bukan nak rosakkan plan, tapi semua tu pun sahabat-sahabat kita kan..kami takkan minta bende ni kalau bukan atas dasar sayangnya kami pada mereka, tak sanggup mereka di azab Allah kelak dek sikap tutup mata kami..Dia tidak putus asa memujuk.
Camnila, kitorang susah nak cancel atau tukar tarian diorang, ramai yang demand nak tengok sebab diorang tu bagus.. kitorang akan try cakap supaya dilimitkanla segala benda yang agak-agak tak sesuaipantas ku membuat kesimpulan, tidak memberi peluang nur Ilahi singgah dihatiku..wajah Ummu merah, muram penuh kekecewaan..
Tidak malukah kau dengan Tuhan yang Agung??
Astaghfirullah! aku tersentak.. panas makin kurasakan, kesal makin menebal. Kalau ku bentuk acuan untuk persembahan pada majlis yang pertama tersebut tanpa disertai tarian, pasti tidakkan ada lagi saudara seagamaku yang meneruskannya pada tahun ini.. Tapi, dek kejahilanku pada masa lalu, dek kerana ingin mencapai matlamat duniawi yang serba lagha, kini kemestian adanya tarian dalam majlis seumpama itu bagaikan wajib..(Dan apabila dibacakan kepadanya ayat-ayat Kami, dia berpaling dengan menyombongkan diri seolah-olah dia belum mendengarnya, seakan-akan ada sumbatan di kedua telinganya, maka gembirakanlah dia dengan azab yang pedih 31:7..) Ya Allah, terasa sungguh berat beban yang ku pikul.. Adakah bisa Kau mengampuniku?? Aku terduduk kaku..
Perbualan singkatku dengan Rahim pagi tadi ku rasakan menambah lagi beban dosa seberat gunung di bahuku... Wei Dani..ko ade dengar citer tak.. dengarnye, diorg nak buat belly dancing untuk dinner tahun ni.. pergh.. gile betul ar, dah nak jadi ape aku pon tak tau..... kelu..... lidahku yang begitu lancar berbahas dengan Ummu lebih setahun yang lalu kini kelu.. jadi bisu.. Ey Dani, ko ok x ni? asal semacam je aku tengok.. rilek ar.. diorg nk buat tu diorg punye pasalla.. asalkan xde budak-budak kite tengok ujar Rahim bagaikan mengerti isi hatiku..
Persoalannya.. benarkah nanti tiada rakan-rakan seagamaku yang akan melihat acara maksiat itu? Atau adakah mereka akan terpaku dan terhibur, dan meminta pula untuk diadakan semula untuk tahun berikutnya?.........
Tidak terasa beratkah dosa yang kau pikul??!!
Aku pasrah.. tunduk dan mengakui kerdilnya diri ini berbanding Allah yang Maha Esa.. Sesekali timbul rasa kesal, kepada Ummu dan rakan-rakannya.. Hati ini kerap ingin menghulur kemaafan.. kalau diri ini tidak sejahil aku yang dulu, pasti tidak ku bahas nasihatdan niat murni mereka.. tapi seringkali niat untuk memohon maaf terhenti.. bukan kerana ego seorang lelaki.. tetapi kerana terlalu tebalnya muka, malu untuk berkata-kata.. Di saat ini hanya Allah yang bisa mendengar bisikan hati rapuh ini.. Dialah juga tempat ku pohon keampunan, semoga diringankan beban yang kupikul ini.. Semoga..
Kakiku mengatur langkah ke bilik air.. Seluruh anggota wudu ku siram dengan air dingin malam.. menyapu wajah yang penuh malu.. menyuci anggota tubuh yang terasa sangat kotor..Jika ku sedar hakikat kejadian diri ini dari seketul tanah yang kotor,pasti tidakkan ku biar lidahku berbicara lebih laju dari ayat-ayat Yang Maha Esa..namun itu semua sudah berlaku..dan aku bernafas dalam jiwa yang sudah tercemar..Semoga Allah mengampunkan kesalahanku.. Semoga Allah membuka hati mereka yang masih tertutup.. Semoga Allah membantu Ummu dan rakan-rakan yang sentiasa memperjuangkan peraturan Allah.. dan.. Semoga Allah meletakkan hati ini tanpa dapat digoncang lagi oleh angan dunia.. agar bisa ku menjadi tenteraMu.. Amin......
Pada hari engkau akan melihat orang-orang yang beriman lelaki dan perempuan, betapa cahaya mereka bersinar di depan dan di samping kanan mereka, (dikatakan kepada mereka) Pada hari ini ada berita gembira untukmu, (iaitu) syurga-syurga yang mengalir dibawahnya sungai-sungai, mereka kekal di dalamnya. Demikian itulah kemenangan yang agung
Pada hari orang-orang munafik laki-laki dan perempuan berkata kepada orang-orang yang beriman, Tunggulah kami! Kami ingin mengambil cahayamu. (Kepada mereka) dikatakan, Kembalilah kamu kebelakang dan carilah sendiri cahaya(untukmu). Lalu di antara mereka dipasang dinding (pemisah) yang berpintu. Di sebelah dalam ada rahmat dan diluarnya hanya ada azab
Orang-orang munafik memanggil orang-orang mukmin, Bukankah kami dahulu bersama kamu? mereka(org2 mukmin) menjawab, Benar,tetapi kamu mencelakakan dirimu sendiri, dan kamu hanya menunggu, meragukan (janji Allah) dan ditipu oleh angan-angan kosong sampai datang ketetapan Allah, dan penipu(syaitan) datang memperdaya kamu tentang Allah..... 57:12-13

Good bye internet and friends

PokJat and Me at Nabawi Mosque, Madinah on a fine morning ;P

Assalammualaikum and good day everyone.
Alhamdulillah I just arrived from Makkah the day before yesterday. So far everything is doing great. Alhamdulillah I've recieved all the result and thank again to HIM for his blessing. Even though the result wasn't really great, but I'm glad that I made it. Nothing more to tell.

Well just to let you guys know that I won't be around the internet for awhile since I'm going to move to a new house. So thank you very much for reading this humble blog. To all friends who already in Malaysia, wishing you guys a happy holidays. Don't forget me when you guys having reunion or anything together. To all graduates, congratulations. Omedeto. I got nothing to give. But as a token of appreciation from me, I would like to dedicate to all of the again CONGRATULATION.

The following are the first Malaysian graduates of Jordan Unversity of Science and Technology (J.U.S.T):
1) Muhammad Ashraf
2) Wan Muhammad Ruzaimi
3) Hakimah
4) Julie Eilena
5) Puteri Wan Seri Bani
6) Shuhada
p/s: if there's any misspelling please forgive me.

And last but not least, to all my friends who are going to clinical year next year congratulations. Do your best. Never let anyone left behind again. Enough is enough. I pray that we all will be successful for the Ummah. And till then, wassalam....

Assalammualaikum and good day everyone. Alhamdulillah I've finished my last examination for the semester. So far everything is going so well. Yet I still need to double my effort when it comes to studying. Even the result is good, but for me it still not so good. And right now I've started my mid semester holiday. With 21 days to lay around, I've decided to perform umrah. As this is my second time, I hope it'll be better than before. As Imam Ghazali used to say, "Tomorrow must be better than today, and today must be better than yesterday. If today still the same as yesterday, we all are losers". (I'm sorry for the translation, because I can't find the exact words that he used.)

Before I forgot, I want to congratulate all seniors that passed the final year exam and already on the road to a bigger journey. To them who didn't make it, never feel sad. If you want to feel, so take your time. But don't take it too long. There still a lot of other stuff to do. Just remember this moment. May it be something that will keep you working harder for the rest of your life.

For all of my friends, I would like to wish you all a Happy Holiday. Use them wisely. Plan your holiday. So you won't regret in the end. May all the best be with you. As for everyone, thank you for your support. InsyAllah we'll be better day by day. Never forget your worst moment of your life as it will be your motivation to keep walking toward. May Allah bless us all with His mercifulness and graciousness.

Till we meet again someday.
Alhamdulillah.........