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Good bye internet and friends

PokJat and Me at Nabawi Mosque, Madinah on a fine morning ;P


Assalammualaikum and good day everyone.
Alhamdulillah I just arrived from Makkah the day before yesterday. So far everything is doing great. Alhamdulillah I've recieved all the result and thank again to HIM for his blessing. Even though the result wasn't really great, but I'm glad that I made it. Nothing more to tell.

Well just to let you guys know that I won't be around the internet for awhile since I'm going to move to a new house. So thank you very much for reading this humble blog. To all friends who already in Malaysia, wishing you guys a happy holidays. Don't forget me when you guys having reunion or anything together. To all graduates, congratulations. Omedeto. I got nothing to give. But as a token of appreciation from me, I would like to dedicate to all of the again CONGRATULATION.

The following are the first Malaysian graduates of Jordan Unversity of Science and Technology (J.U.S.T):
1) Muhammad Ashraf
2) Wan Muhammad Ruzaimi
3) Hakimah
4) Julie Eilena
5) Puteri Wan Seri Bani
6) Shuhada
p/s: if there's any misspelling please forgive me.

And last but not least, to all my friends who are going to clinical year next year congratulations. Do your best. Never let anyone left behind again. Enough is enough. I pray that we all will be successful for the Ummah. And till then, wassalam....
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HolidayAssalammualaikum and good day everyone. Alhamdulillah I've finished my last examination for the semester. So far everything is going so well. Yet I still need to double my effort when it comes to studying. Even the result is good, but for me it still not so good. And right now I've started my mid semester holiday. With 21 days to lay around, I've decided to perform umrah. As this is my second time, I hope it'll be better than before. As Imam Ghazali used to say, "Tomorrow must be better than today, and today must be better than yesterday. If today still the same as yesterday, we all are losers". (I'm sorry for the translation, because I can't find the exact words that he used.)

Before I forgot, I want to congratulate all seniors that passed the final year exam and already on the road to a bigger journey. To them who didn't make it, never feel sad. If you want to feel, so take your time. But don't take it too long. There still a lot of other stuff to do. Just remember this moment. May it be something that will keep you working harder for the rest of your life.

For all of my friends, I would like to wish you all a Happy Holiday. Use them wisely. Plan your holiday. So you won't regret in the end. May all the best be with you. As for everyone, thank you for your support. InsyAllah we'll be better day by day. Never forget your worst moment of your life as it will be your motivation to keep walking toward. May Allah bless us all with His mercifulness and graciousness.

Till we meet again someday.
Alhamdulillah.........
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Respiratory System is shuting downAssalammualaikum.....

Hi everyone. Thank you for visiting my humble blog. Which has nothing related to my study ov even yours. There's nothing really interesting to read, or to see. Not like the others. I keep this blog for personal things. Insyallah I'll try to set up some informative blogs so that everyone can get benefit from. Maybe links or article that I can get my hand on about current technologies and infromation about medcine. Or even place that people can come and write their oppinion about it.

As for today, I've taken my mid paper for Respiratory System which is very disappointing. I guess I know what happen. So it's up to me now to repair them in two days time before the final which is on this Saturday. Insyallah I'll try my best.

There's nothing much to write about. Yet so many things happening around me. Insyallah when I found some free time I'll try to write some more. Here I'll share with all of you guys the new settings, for those who wanna use w.bloggar blog editor for their blog. (Just found it today after a few months of searching through the net since the blogger have change their settings).

getting w.Bloggar to work with Blogger Beta

Till then, ma3a salamah...
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Selamat Hari Guru....



Semoga segala jasa yang cikgu2 semua curahkan akan dibalas oleh-Nya.
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review on eMedicine site


Assalammualaikum....

Alhamdulillah and thank to AllAH for all of His bless and ni3mat to me and all of my friends. Today I'm not going to write anything about myself, my family even about my friends. I'm going to give you guys (especially to those who's reading medicine) a cool website where you can test your knowledge and diagnosing skills. Even though we didn't cover it yet in class, we still can use our previous knowledge and what we have learn in classes.

Here I give you eMedicine. It's a site where you can look almost all things about medicine. It's like a bible to a doctor to be. Hurm..... I've been the member of this site for quite sometimes. But recently fall in love with it. LOL.... It got a lot of useful information about almost everything. From the rare of the commonest to the commonest of the rare. Just like all-in-one bargain.

If you don't believe it, try it for yourself and then tell me all about it. I hope it'll help us in continuing our journey to become a great muslim scholar in medical field. Never fell ashamed to asked people and to talk to people. Cause sooner or later we have too. Be ready for anything that may come in the middle of our journey. May all of our efforts will be counted as good deeds, With AllAH's will....

And to all teachers and teacher-to-be Happy Teacher's Day. May Allah repays you with his blessing and wealth. I'll pray that you'll always in his eyes....
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Turning 21


Assalammualaikum.....

Alhamdulillah dah masuk 21 dah pun tahun nie. Alhamdulillah kerana masih dipinjamkan pelbagai nikmat daripada-Nya. Beberapa hari selepas birthday arituh kena plak amek exam ntuk CVS (cardio-vascular system). Sistem kedua ntuk semester nie. Result, hurm......... rasanya kurang menarik ler. Sepatutnya dapat lagi banyak. Alhamdulillah diberikan nikmat. Tapi sepatutnya dapat lebih. Tapi apa-apa pun bersyukur......

Tak tau nak citer aper sangat. Bukan reti sangat bercerita. Kalau dedulu time sekolah rendah boleh ah masuk pertandingan bercerita dan dapat johan. Sekarang nie rasanya mendengar dan membaca kisah orang lagi menarik kot daripada kisah sendiri. Biarlah kisah aku hanya aku, Dia dan "kamu" sahaja yang tahu.... (Amacam, mengancam x ayat? hir3)

Aper lagi ek nak bercerita... Owh arituh adik aku dapat masuk Matrik. Guess what? Hahahaha aku rasa dalam family aku nie cam ada tradisi kot. Pasal dier dapat masuk Matrik Gambang. Sama ngan aku. Sebenarnya sebelum dia masuk ke SHAH Pekan dlu pun dia masuk SMKA Pahang kat ngan umah aku. Sama cam aku dan adik aku yang bongsu. So kire cam dah jadi cam tradisi kot. Nges3.... Harap2 nyer dier dapat menjadi terus cemerlang dalam apa jua bidang yang dia nak masuk nanti. Insyallah berjaya nyer.....

Dan sekarang nie kat Irbid dah pun masuk musim panas. So bahang semakin dirasai. Mata pun makin kabur (akibat sinaran susuk badan manusia yang semakin jelas kelihatan. Walaupun cuba mengelak, tetapi tidak dapat dihalangi lagi. Inilah dugaan berada di tempat orang). So sekarang nie dah start ngan sistem terakhir ntuk semester nie iaitu RS (Respiratory System). So kena tinggkatkan lagi usaha untuk memperolehi kecermelangan demi AllAH, agama, bangsa dan negara. Dan tidak lupa juga untuk pulang ke Malaysia pada bulan 8 nanti untuk bertemu dengan kekasih hati..... (jeng jeng jeng....). Paperpun kepada semua, teruskan berusaha mencapai kecermelangan.....

p/s: bebudak final year dah abes kelas skang nie. dia orang tengah tunggu ntuk exam final. kepada semua, semoga berjaya dengan cemerlang... semoga mencapai cita2. dah balik Malaysia nanti jangan lupakan kita orang kat snih. Doakan kejayaan kami plak. Dan tunggu kepulangan kita orang nanti ek.....
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11 Rules of Life

RULE 1
Life is not fair - get used to it.

RULE 2
The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

RULE 3
You will NOT make 40 thousand dollars a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice president with car phone, until you earn both.

RULE 4
If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss. He doesn't have tenure.

RULE 5
Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your
grandparents had a different word for burger flipping
they called it Opportunity.

RULE 6
If you mess up,it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

RULE 7
Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills,cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you are. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

RULE 8
Your school may have done away with winners and losers,but life has not. In some schools they have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as many times as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

RULE 9
Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get
summers off and very few employers are interested in
helping you find yourself. Do that on your own time.

RULE 10
Television is NOT real life. In real life people
actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.


RULE 11
Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.

p/s: even if some of the rules are not applicable, still most of them are true. so get a grip and don't get drown by the current of this world. get back to reality. then you'll understand...
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Sanah Helwah Abah....

Abah and Mama......


Assalammualaikum....

Today, 28th March 2007 mark the 46th birthday of my beloved and the only father...
Born on 28th March 1961, in Kerdau which located in Termeloh's district, Pahang. Being a father wasn't really an easy job. Since your children will have different character and things. So as today, I'm really appreciate what he has done for me for the past 21 years. Thank dad, I never know how to pay back all your deeds. The only way that I know right now is to study hard and to make you proud of me. Insyallah I'll try my best to give the best out of me.

Let me tell all of guys why my dad is so special to me. Well first of all, he's my dad for sake. Lol ;p. Second, he's the best role model for me. FYI we never have any maid in our house. Since the day my dad married my mom, they both work hard and help each other in doing house chores (since both of my parents working). Up till now, he still do the chores, even he's now a public officer in the local municipality. He always do the laundry. Well maybe that's the only thing that he knows how to do ;P. But still he do it with all of his heart. That's one thing I do admire about him. And many other things that he had done. I don't think that I should write everything here. And even more, he's a cool dad!!!

And for you my dad, as we all getting older each day, each seconds we should increase our effort to be the best. We should never surrender to this world. Love yourself and love your family. Insyallah you'll be with the men who had been promised with heaven and everything inside it. With AllAH's will...
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In Memory of Abd Halim Amran (1986 - 2007)

Abd Halim Amran (1986-2007)


Assalammualaikum....

Just recieved a message today saying that one of my schoolmate, Abdul Halim Amran passed away yesterday drown in Perak. Then one of my friend send my the link to a local newspaper regarding the incident.

Well he's one of the bright student back in SMAP. Always full of enthusiasm of learning and getting know things. He's really good at chess. Yet he's very shy. Never ever let people get angry with him. All of my high school years, I seldom talk to him. Maybe a few times. Last year I meet him at a PUTRA station. I can't remember which station. But there I meet him and we exchange phone number and had a few talk. Since he's so busy as Malaysian Medical Student. So i don't bother about it. Well maybe AllAH loves him more. That's why he call him back. I don't have anything else to say. Just a word or two. And the only thing that I can help right now is to recite doa for him and this entry to honor him. May you'll be placed with the good people which HIM had promised heaven as their reward.

Halim in memory

2 Al-Battani 2000

Form 3 2001


the entry about the incident in local newspaper:

Bakal doktor mati lemas

TAIPING: Kegembiraan 11 penuntut Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM) mandi-manda di pusat perkelahan Sungai Sempeneh, Batu Kurau, dekat sini, berakhir tragedi apabila seorang daripada mereka mati lemas manakala seorang lagi cedera selepas dihanyutkan arus deras, petang semalam. Mereka adalah sebahagian daripada 45 pelajar institusi pengajian tinggi awam (IPTA) itu yang mengikuti projek anak angkat bersama keluarga di Kampung Repuh, Batu Kurau. Mangsa yang mati lemas adalah pelajar perubatan, Abd Halim Amran, 20, dari Seremban, Negeri Sembilan manakala Mohd Shahrol Suondah, 20, dari Kuala Lumpur cedera di tangan dan dihantar ke Hospital Taiping (HT) untuk rawatan. Seorang rakan mangsa berusia 20 tahun yang enggan namanya disiarkan, berkata sembilan pelajar lelaki dan dua perempuan berusia 20-an, pergi berkelah ke pusat perkelahan itu kira-kira jam 3.30 petang, semalam. Katanya, ketika mereka sedang mandi, arus deras menerpa kawasan mereka secara tiba-tiba dari kawasan tinggi berhampiran berikutan hujan lebat, kira-kira jam 5 petang. “Saya dan beberapa rakan mandi di tepi dan sempat menyelamatkan diri. Tapi, dua rakan kami yang masih di bahagian tengah sungai tidak sempat naik dan dihanyutkan. “Kami sempat menyelamatkan Mohd Shahrol tetapi Abd Halim hilang dibawa arus. “Kami segera melaporkan kejadian kepada keluarga angkat dan penduduk kampung yang kemudian menghubungi polis, pasukan bomba dan penyelamat serta Rela untuk usaha menyelamat,” katanya. Rakan mangsa yang masih terkejut dengan kejadian itu, berkata mereka tidak menduga kejadian buruk itu berlaku ke atas mereka. Katanya, projek anak angkat itu membabitkan 45 pelajar UKM, Bangi, Selangor, dari pelbagai kursus terdiri daripada 20 lelaki dan 25 perempuan bermula 23 Mac lalu dan dijangka berakhir pada Khamis ini. Menurutnya, semua pelajar menetap dengan keluarga angkat di Kampung Repuh dan menjalankan pelbagai kegiatan membabitkan masyarakat kampung. “Inilah kali pertama saya dan rakan berkelah di pusat perkelahan itu. Kami amat sedih dengan kejadian ini,” katanya ketika ditemui di tempat kejadian, petang kelmarin. Sementara itu, Ketua Operasi Kanan Balai Bomba dan Penyelamat Taiping, Ahmad Abd Wahab, berkata sebaik mendapat laporan pasukan, penyelamat mula menjalankan operasi mencari mangsa pada jam 5.20 petang bersama 10 anggota. Katanya, turut membantu ialah pasukan polis dan Rela. “Mayat mangsa ditemui pada jam 6.50 petang, kira-kira 300 meter dari tempat kejadian. Mayat mangsa kemudian dihantar ke Hospital Taiping (HT),” katanya.



"Setiap yang hidup pasti akan merasai mati"
"Kematian itu adalah pasti"
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Anyone perfect must be lying, anything easy has its cost.....

Assalammualaikum everyone. Alhamdulillah the SPM result is out last week. And as we all expect that there'll be some increase in the number of students who get straight As. Well As is not something that will give you a bright future. It's rather yourself than else. Congratulations to students who did well in their SPM. To those who's unfortunate, don't be sad with it. Get it over with. Pull yourself together. It's not the end of the world. The real test is just about to start. You guys now are embarking the real ship towards your dreams. What had passed leave it behind to remind you. And future is something that you have to seek for yourself. Remember once you fall it doesn't means that you'll be in the slump forever. It's all about how you getting up again and continue your journey. Insyallah in the future you'll become someone much more important than those who get straight As. Here I have an entry from my friend site, who's now studying in States. Well hope you guys will get something out of it.......

Some point to ponder for SPM graduate ..

Monday March 12 2007 was a day that every high school graduate has been waiting for. A day where the SPM result was announced.
As I expected the number of people getting straight A will increase. Congratulation to those who able to get that result. For those who were not, don't be too upset. This is not the end of your world. There will be more challenging task you will be facing when you study in the university.

My SPM result was not that good. I was not a straight A student in my high school. I was just a mediocre student who likes to spent most of my study time for my other school obligation. My class teacher once labeled me as part time student full time player as I always not around the school for extra co-curriculum activities. People might think I just want to brag myself here as I'm now study in US under MARA. But I would like to reinstate that I was not an excellent student. If you don't believe me, you can ask any of my schoolmate about how was I in high school. Some of my friends might tell you that I was lucky to get this scholarship which I'm not supposed to get it. Now back to my story, eventhough I was not in class, I will make sure that when I'm done with my activities I will go to my classmate to ask for note that I had missed. If I didn't understand, I will ask them to teach me. My friends always there for me to answer my question and they were so reliabale. I have to admit that I understand better when my friends teach me compared to the teacher.That was me when I was in high school.

But here in university I was alone. I don't have many friend whom I can always refer to. If I do have, they are not so reliable to give me a correct answer. They also are not sure whether what they are doing is right or wrong. Eventhough their SPM result was far away better that me, but still they are not sure with what they are doing.

You know why this thing happen? It is because of what you learn in lecture is not enough for you to understand the whole concept of the subject . The lecturer only teach you the main concept but to undertand profoundly of what you learn you need to do some extra work. You need to do some research, reading the whole chapter in the book or reading material that is outside the texbook. Study in the university is not a spoon fed concept, it is all about your eagerness to get knowledge. If you really want to understand the subject, you need to do some extra work to understand it.

This is where your life begin. Your true study skill will be tested. I don't know whether American grading concept is similar to Malaysia or not, but here you are not graded based on one exam, you are graded based on the homework,quiz, test, project and other assignment that is assigned by your lecturer. If you screw up on one of those school work, don't even dream to get an A. To get an A here is 90 above and you need to get almost perfect in all of those criteria that I have mentioned. For mediocre student like me, that is one hell of a goal.

Therefore for students who are not doing so good in their SPM, don't worry too much. You still have chance to amend your mistake. And for those who got straight A especially the one who got 17,18, or 19 As, your success come with a great responsibility. If in the future you want to be a doctor but just end up being a doctor in the same level as someone who got only 9 or 10 As,then shame on you. For your level, you should do better than that. For your level you should do something extraordinary to at least change our society. Be creative and use your brain at your full potential.

Friday Mach 16 2007

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Amir, Me, and Hafiz. Brothers, and more than that.....


Assalammualaikum.... There's many thing in this life that we never expect to happen yet they always happen. And we also expect many thing to happen yet they never happen. That's life. Life is so full of suprises. We can always pray to HIM that what we want will happen. And what we never want to not happening. This is the rule of this life. He's the master of everything. He's the one that we must bow to. None other than HIM, Himself.

Today I recieved a text from my little brother. His SPM result (O-level) is out. He managed to get 4A1 3A2 2B2 1B3. Alhamdulillah. Even though it's not so good, it's still good. That's the game of this life. If you're working hard, you'll get the best. But if you don't work really hard enough, you don't deserve any. I've been thinking lately why we always taking this life too easy? Have we ever think about the life after? Are we gonna be in good shape or else?

This had opened my eyes. We should always pray and hope that we'll be prevail. Hope that we'll be saved from the torture of the Hell. Hope that we'll be the good servant. And the list goes on. But remember, even if the list is a mile away if it's not to be work on it'll never gonna to happen.

It's time to turn into a new page. Forget the past for a moment. Look into the new things. The present is something to be work on. The past, is something to be remembered and to be cherished. The future, is something that we had to plan. Always remember my friends luck is not everything. There's nothing as luck. The only thing that we had is our faith in HIM. Remember that he'll never easily give you anything if you're a muslim. Why? Because He loves to listen to the voices of a muslim. It's not that He hates us. But He loves us more. Never hate Him because of that. Yet we should love Him more. And more.

And this is a remembrance for me and to all of my friends. Where ever you are, what ever you do. Remember that He'll always be with us. Never turn away from Him. Even in the hardest or the easiest times. Always cherish Him. Cause the Jannatul-Firdaus surely will be yours. Bi-iznillah.....
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8th of March

Assalammualikum and good day everyone.... It's been awhile since my last entry. Well that doesn't mean that I don't have anything to write. The truth is that I didn't find any leisure to write an entry. Probably because we're (me and my friends) having discussion all night except for weekend which I spent most of them playing games (oh, I shouldn't do that).

Well this, entry is specially dedicated to my house mate, Abd Hadi Damanhuri who celebrates his birthday on the 8th of March. He'll turned 20 this year. Well Hadi, it's been 20 years since your first breath on this planet earth. Only one thing to ask ourselves, after all this times, things, life and all of it what have we done in his favors?

After thinking for awhile, the answer should bring up this question, Who am I? And the question will continues until we reach the last answer that surely will bring us closer to HIM. My friends, it's never too late to turn back to the right path. He never denied our right, yet we always deny His. If you were in His place, surely you'll turn your back don't you? Well He's no that kind of thing. Instead He's always been there and still will be for us. In times of fear and chaos. In times of our darkness, our lost.

Never turn your back on something that's love able. Which His love will never disappoint you. Not like others love. Always remember that. You'll never find anyone better than Him. Even your spouse or your love one cannot overcome His love to you...... Only if you love Him hardly. Remember..........
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Is love really in the air???

Assalammualaikum.... Alhamdulillah thank to AllAH for his blessing and for what ever I have or I'm now. It's been awhile since my last entry. So far I'm still in the best shape of myself. So what we all know about things that happen everyday? Are we really walking towards light or other way round? Well I'm sure that most of you'll be confused with what I'm about to write.

Do you know what 14 February means? Does it marks anything special? Does it leave anything to you? Hurm..... I'm sure that most of you guys know what is it. It's Valentine. And I'm sure that you guys had or will be receiving a lot messages about it. Either to celebrate it or to forget about it. Well everything depends on you, yourself. No one else have the power to make the choice for you. They only can show you they way. But they cannot help you walk through it.

It's something that really needs us to think about it. What is the main purpose of celebrating it? Does it gives any importance to us? The answer is within yourself. Go ask you iman. If it says no, than no is the answer. But if it says yes, then I think you might be right. I've been reading this one interesting book about how a muslim's teenager should do. It had stated there's 4 main point to be look over.

And one of it is to apply what we had understand about Islam into our daily life. So if you really understand what Islam is all about, I'm sure that you won't have anything to worry about. Because Islam is the most appropriate and the complete religion over all. It cover our daily life. From second to second. Not a single second of our life doesn't have anything to do with Islam. In fact, Islam is how we should live. Islam actually not a religion. It's actually way of life. How we should deal with everything in our life. From cradle to the grave.

So back to the point, is love really in the air? And as I've said, it's all depends on our iman. It's never been anyone or anything else. Only one thing that I want to stress here, Love is really for them who really understand it. It's not how people interpreting it. It's not how you express it. It's not how you make it wonderful. It's something that when you achieved the greatest love, you'll understand everything. So, instead of celebrating the Valentine why don't we seek for the greatest love. I'm sure you'll never regret it, for the rest of your life.


You're what you think. So think of yourself!
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Assalammualaikum and good day everyone. Today is the 9th of February. And there's only a few days left for me before starting back my daily life as a medical student. Talking about holiday, I wonder what I've been doing for the past few weeks? Did I used my holiday as it should be? Or did I really mess it with things that I shouldn't do? Hurm it seems that I cannot decide anything.

Since I cannot decide anything to write here. Yeah there's a few things happened recently in Irbid. A few of my friends from Egypt came to visit me and my friends here. I've given a talk about photoshop (hurm..... I wonder how come I'm the one who giving it??? LOL). A few girls' houses been robbed (it seems that we had to declare war with those thugs). And I'm being bored sitting on my ass idle at home....... Well I think that's all. Do I have anything else????

Owh why it must happened to me? Isn't there anyone else that deserved it? Life is so life. It's full of things but not everything are available for you. That's all..... bye XD
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iMAD: Islamic Modern Art Day

In conjunction with the semester break, JKK Kebajikan & Penerbitan will organizing iMAD: Islamic Modern Art Day. With the theme, "Tradisi Merentasi Teknologi" which read as Tradition Across Technology.

Date: 7 & 8 February 2007
Place: Ikhwah - Bayt Afif
Akhawat - Bayt Zinnirah

Programs:
Computer Crash Course
Traditional Games
Play
Poem Recitation
Wallpaper Designing
and many more....

For more information please contact
Ikhwah - Khairul Anwar Ibrahim (nuek)
Akhawat - Lina Farhana Ramli

this advertisement is not paid. If you have any idea for the programs please contact the person in charge. And may we all be blessed by HIM
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Newbie...

Assalammualaikum.....
How's everyone been doing lately? Hope everyone enjoying life as it is. Never more never less than we should. Alhamdulillah, it has been a week since I first start my semester break. In my previous entry I've said that I don't have anything to do for my holidays. Well it seems that everything will change. I've found something to do for the rest of my holidays. It seems that my day will be bright again. Thanks to my friend who had introduced me to the magical world of photo editing.

I'm sure that everyone have heard about Photoshop before? Well it's actually a program which is created to let us edit our own pictures. The sophisticated of the script let us create a simple yet very meaningful master piece. Here I'll show you guys a few of my first try result. Hope you guys will give me some feedback about them. And if you guys have any pictures that really interesting you guys can send them to me via YM or anything means of communication ; as long as it didn't involve anything that's forbidden.

As for the song, I think I'll let you guys listen to this instrumental by Kenny G, Theme From Dying Young. I really enjoy it. Hope you guys too. Till then....


My first try using my very own pic.




WT***???
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What should I do?

Alhamdulillah, Thank to AllAH for lending me this body, this life, and the ni3mah of Iman. Because of HIM I'm still here. Because of HIM I got everything I had and lose what I used to have. Still Alhamdulillah. It's been almost 24 hours since I've finished my 1st semester for the second time (look like it still a long journey I had to take). But right now I'm bored. Don't what to do, where to go or even what to eat. Hurm.... well I guest just let the time determined what I'm gonna do.

So as I'm writing this entry right now, I still don't know what to do. So I guess I'll just write this entry and then wait for Asar prayer then do something that I've been doing for the past few months ; play (yeah it's what I do the best). And after that I don't know what else to do. So if you guys are kind enough please suggest me anything that I can do to make my life more interesting. So until I figured out something to do, I'm gonna let you guys keep listening to my BNL's song : Everything Old is New Again.

p/s: to all my friends from Egypt, Ahla Wa Sahla ila Urdun. and have a nice stay. If you guys read this article and still interested in going for mansaf, do not hesitate to inform me. and do enjoy your stay here.


what does it say?
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Everything Old is New Again?

Tol Karam Street where I've been living for the past two years here in Irbid.

Assalammualaikum..... Alhamdulillah, we are here again. On this very earth which was created by HIM, The Almighty AllAH. After all these times, everything that we had done, things that we had in mind, and anything that's related to life we still being blessed with Iman and Islam. Thanks to HIM for everything. New Hijrah year had started. A new year resolution had been made. But after thinking about things that we supposed to do in the past, we should rethink again. About our new resolutions. We should include (the first thing that we should do) in the resolution is doing what should be done in the previous year.

Everything old is new again? What's the meaning of this phrase? Is it simply just a title of a song. Or it is something that have significance. Well the answer is even I don't know. I thought if we replace something old with new things, all of our problem will be solved. Guest I'm wrong. We shouldn't replace them with something new. Instead we only suppose to add the old one with the new stuff. Because we can have both the past and the future in the same time. The past will remind us how blessed we are to be born to this world. To think that we had done something wrong and to fix the mistakes. And the future is something that will make us think.

I've heard a saying said that "We shouldn't think too much about the future cause we won't live our present the most". I think they got a point. We shouldn't think too much about it. Instead we should do our our best in the present to ensure that we wont regret it in the future. I've read an entry in ayub's xanga about where we would reside in the life after. How we would be. Yeah, it really move my mind. There's actually a lot of stuff that we should know. Yet we always think that we had know everything. The truth is, all of our knowledge is actually a drop of ocean of knowledge which belong to HIM, AllAH The Most Gracious and Most Merciful.

So let us all from this very moment, to renew our goal of this life which is to serve HIS cause. Yeah only HIM and no others. Let it be our guide to go through this life. So that in the end, we'll be blessed and being love by HIM. Whose love is the only love that'll last forever.


"Live in dignity, or die as a martyr"
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Me, myself, and not otherself

It's been 20 years (almost 21 years), since my first breath on this earth. Wow. It had been that long. But why I'm still the same? The old me? The year 1427H are going to pass. The new year 1428 is nearing. But why I didn't change? Or maybe I've changed. But to my worst. How could this happening to me?

Thank you AllAH for everything that you had given to me all this time. The breath that I take everyday, the foods, the brain, the hands, the legs, the feeling of being lonely, the feeling of joy, the feeling to be love by somebody or anybody, the feeling being appreciated, and all of those feelings. The knowledge that you had given me, the time that you had spent to hear my prays, the love of my family, and all that I have and what I'm today, it's all thank to you.

But do I really mean that word? Thank You? It's seems as simple as saying the word. But the truth is that, it's something that you don't just say it. It's something that you had to apply it, something that you had to make it true by enslaving yourself to HIM, to HIS religion, to HIS kingdom, and to HIM only HIM.

For me, after 20 years of being here, walking this path on this very moment on HIS earth, it never been a single second that I dedicate my life to HIM. I always said that I want to get HIS love. But it's never been a single action in my life that wanting to be love by HIM. I keep thinking, why I'm behaving like this? I always hoping for somebody to come over and guide me to the right path. But it seems to be impossible in this way. Whenever HE gave me some of HIS ni3mah, I keep forget HIM. When HE send HIS trial upon me, I'll be standing on my knee hoping HE will help me. But then when everything turn to normal again, I forgot about HIM again. I don't get it. Why I'm behaving like this.

I'm hoping that in the new year of Hijrah, I'll be someone new. Someone that no one had seen before. I'll be somebody stronger and more faithful to HIS promise, to HIS power and to everything that can be seen or not. O AllAH, lend my some strength to endure this. And may you won't turn me into something that none had wish for; a betrayal. For YOU, YOU are the only one who can do anything to everything. Please unburden me with my gloomy and dark past. Let me see a bright future. A future that will unite every muslim under one banner; banner of truth.

And to all my fellow friends even if I'm not somebody, I just wanna let you guys know that this is only a temporary stop of a longer journey. Never make it your shelter. Never bow to it. Unless you think you can be here forever. Never ever think that this life had nothing to do accept to bow to it. It's may sound harsh, but remember that in the after life you'll understand everything. Believe in HIM as all the Messenger and their companion had done in the past. And may what we had today, will be count as hassanah.
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What does it takes...




I'm assure that everyone (especially here in Jordan) are craving for a very good and nice foods. Since we're not where we use to be (Malaysia), no wonder why many of us getting thinner everyday (there's a few went to the opposite way. LOL~). I'm here today to tell you guys how to make a very good Chocolate Drink. Even if you can get MILO in your hand you'll never can out stand it. Hihihihihi...

Ok, first of all what we need is water. Yeah W.A.T.E.R. Since water is a bit problem up here, it's almost as precious as crude oil. Then we need a kettle, good chocolate, a mug, powdered milk, vanilla flavor (I can't find it any here. so i think we had to get from outside.). And not to forget some sugar (either in cube or grounds).

Heat the water till it boils. The put a spoonful of chocolate powder in it. Stir until dissolved. Then, get a bit of the vanilla flavor (it's used to give the nice smell and flavor. you can ignore it if you don't have any.). After that, put is some sugar and milk. Then stir it all. After everything are dissolved, reheat it again. Then you can serve it hot.

Hot chocolate drinks is best served in winter. Cause it can give you the sensation of good foods that you had craved and also the warmth that you need in the coldness of the day or even night. That's it. You already treat yourself with something special.

The main point here is that even our life needs good things in order to be wonderful. That's the purpose of every creation. To make others look wonderful. Embrace your life with something wonderful as Islam. And you'll never forget it forever. Even in the afterlife.

“Always do right - this will gratify some and astonish the rest.”
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The World Is Against Me

By Edgar A. Guest

"The world is against me," he said with a sigh.
"Somebody stops every scheme that I try.
The world has me down and it's keeping me there;
I don't get a chance. Oh, the world is unfair!
When a fellow is poor then he can't get a show;
The world is determined to keep him down low."

"What of Abe Lincoln?" I asked. "Would you say
That he was much richer than you are to-day?
He hadn't your chance of making his mark,
And his outlook was often exceedingly dark;
Yet he clung to his purpose with courage most grim
And he got to the top. Was the world against him?"

"What of Ben Franklin? I've oft heard it said
That many a time he went hungry to bed.
He started with nothing but courage to climb,
But patiently struggled and waited his time.
He dangled awhile from real poverty's limb,
Yet he got to the top. Was the world against him?

"I could name you a dozen, yes, hundreds, I guess,
Of poor boys who've patiently climbed to success;
All boys who were down and who struggled alone,
Who'd have thought themselves rich if your fortune they'd known;
Yet they rose in the world you're so quick to condemn,
And I'm asking you now, was the world against them?"

"Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly"
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Camel crossing....



Huh~

Examinations are coming like never ending wave towards the beach. one after another is like a chain reaction. Well that how things work here in medical school (esp. in Jordan). this is a life that I had choosed. So whether I like it or not, I have to endure it. Just a little bit. Not for along time. Back to my life. Nothing really important happening to me (at least not life threatening. Alhamdulillah). Right now, as I'm writting there's a thousand people out there still striving to do something for living. But for me, Alhamdulillah thank to HIM for all of these things HE had given me. Maybe it's a little, still it's something worth to be thank to HIM for (actually everything that we had we shoul thank HIM).

Right now, I'm listening to Barenaked Ladies an old and I don't think nowadays kids will remember or even know about them (well I'm really sorry cause I'm not really a songs lover not even nasyeed). But this band I've known only for a few weeks I think. First I've read about them in a portal called BoingBoing. It's a cool site where you can get something that you won't get on any ordinary search engine or any formal sites. It's actually almost something new (even if it has been there for like the last few years). Actually there's a lot of new things that I wanna to share with you guys. But I don't know if they'll fit for all ages and everyone. Cause probably somebody will say that I'm a bit too open. Well to tell you the truth, I just read anything or everything that they have in internet. And then I'll be judging either is it suitable for me or not.

So it won't hurt to read something about others. Actually it'll give you something new. New insight. New hope. And a brand new horizon on how you view things. Maybe before this, you always stick to the main stream. Well sometimes in order to success you have to try something new (as long as it's not against our religion). Insyallah you'll be someone new. Even a good preacher need to know something about the world. A good preacher is a person who knows many things. Because not everyone or eveything will fit into our conventional knowledge. Something that's out of our normality has to be tackled by something that is out of normality too.

I've read an interview of a Young Mufti in Sarawak I think in NST not a few days ago. Well he said that muslim nowadays didn't understang the power of our religion (well it's something to be expect from someone who didn't even now how they got into Islam). The only religion that'll be accepted by HIM. I'm not going to elaborate it. But insyallah I'll make an entry dedicated to that subject. Biiznillah.

About the last entry, one of my friends said to me that "the past is something to be appreciated, future is something that we're facing", what really count into choosing either future or past is what we're after. Maybe it's not too clear for most you guys, but my point here is that in our life we should know what we want. Before making a choice you should know what you want. Is it hard to know which one? Not it's not. You guys must be wandering why I'm saying that. Well you guys already had the answer (yeah you guys already had that). And what is that? The answer is two things that had been left for us by our prophet Muhammad, Quran and Hadith (his wisdom words from AllAH). There you are. The answer. Why we always trying so hard thinking about something that we shouldn't have to be thinking about (esp. me)?

Umph, I guess that's all for now. And I'm having general pharmacology test this Wednesday. Please pray for so I'll be the best. We are the best, still the best and will always be the best. And all thank to HIM for his graciousness and wisdom........

“Success is not to be measured by the position someone has reached in life, but the obstacles he has overcome while trying to succeed.”
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Life is so unpredictable~


Why we always longing for something that we like. And we always forget everything about what we had. And then when we meet something new, we forget about the previous? Is this life? Is this somekind of test or what? Well that's what happening to me right now. I'm not saying anything about what I'm longing just I wanna express this thing inside me. I already had something. Then suddenly I found something new. Something that I thought it might be more interesting and enjoyable than the previous one, so I chase after the new and let the old drifted away. Am I some kind of j**k or what?

Then suddenly when the thing that I' after is like far away, I'm thinking about the old one. Where it had been. How is it. Is it still good or what. Then I realize that I missed it. And I also wish that I don't the thing that I'm after. After a few seconds, the new thing just there at my door. Then I'll forget about the old. And that thing happening to me almost every minute and everyday of my life. Yet I realize that nothing will last forever. Not even the strongest thing in the universe.

I've been praying every days and nights for AllAH to guide me through this. And I believe that HE'll answer my pray. Maybe he didn't feel like giving right now. I don't know. Maybe it's somekind of how HE answer my pray. And probably I'm the only one who didn't realize it. I'm not whining about it. Just it gives me a creep. Or what can I say that it gives me this feeling. Somekind of feeling that I should do something about. And here I'm don't know what to do. i don't even know if I'm writing this a good thing. All I can say that people probably always like this. When they found something new and interest them, they will leave what he had and go for the new thing. I just hope that I can really choose the right one.

Like what always happening in the medical field. When the scientist found a new drug, the doctors they always turn their head to the new drug. Even sometimes, the old one is more potent than the new. Like someone who had a PS2 and then come PS3. He would chase after PS3 and left the PS2 behind. And not to forget about guys chasing after girls. When they already had one, then they saw a new one they will chase after them. And yet, nothing last forever. Yeah nothing last forever. Still people are doing it. Are we lost?

Are we lost in this world? Or it just a glitch of life? Well it's never a glitch. Nothing in HIS doing is a glitch. Not a single thing. I've heard people saying that beautiful things are actually the accident of creation. For example like dimple. People say it is nice to have dimple on our face. It makes our face look radiant and shining. Yet, it is actually a lost of some muscle which are use to move your skin. Then what is this? What are we doing here? Please enlighten me through this dark phase.

"Many of us spend half our time wishing for things we could have if we didn't spend half our time wishing."
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Apa khabar iman anda??

Keindahan ciptaan-Nya lambang kekuasaan~

Tajdid Iman: Keimanan rapuh punca hati resah
Bersama Dr Juanda Jaya

Manusia perlu elak dikuasai nafsu

PUNCA-PUNCA kesedihan - jika ada satu alat yang sesuai
untuk mengukur kekuatan iman, tentulah alat itu adalah
'hati'. Allah SWT menjadikan hati itu hidup dan
berfungsi sebagai pusat kawalan bagi anggota badan
manusia. Seseorang yang suka menyentuh hatinya dan
merawat dengan baik akan semakin mengenali dirinya
sendiri.

Jika gelisah, sedih dan putus asa menguasai diri, dia
akan bertanya kepada hati apakah sebabnya? Kemudian
ilmu diperlukan untuk menjawab soalan, akal diguna
sambil hati memandu cuba merungkai penyebab kesedihan
itu. Akhirnya ditemukan jawapan punca kesedihan,
kemurungan, gelisah dan tekanan pada diri manusia
iaitu;

Suka membuang masa. Hiburan dan permainan boleh
merehatkan hati dan menjadikannya lebih bertenaga,
tetapi apabila terlalu berlebihan ia boleh membunuh.
Orang mukmin membahagikan masanya kepada tiga
bahagian, iaitu;

Pertama untuk Allah SWT; kedua untuk dirinya sendiri
yang meliputi fikiran, perasaan dan tubuh badannya dan
ketiga untuk keluarga dan umatnya. Sikap membuang masa
biasanya dipengaruhi oleh persekitaran. Manusia akan
mudah terpengaruh dengan apa yang dilihat dan didengar
daripada pergaulan. Berkawan rapat dengan orang yang
suka membaca boleh mempengaruhi minat kita kepada
buku, begitu juga bila suka iktikaf di masjid
mendengarkan syarahan agama akan menjadikan kita dekat
dengan ilmu.

Kita sentiasa berhadapan dengan dua pilihan dalam
hidup ini, jalan baik atau yang buruk. Kawan yang
jahil atau soleh, situasi mengingatkan kita pada Allah
atau melupakannya. Membuang masa menyebabkan kemalasan
yang berakhir dengan kegagalan, sedih dan tertekan.
Seorang mukmin yang benar imannya sentiasa berada
dalam situasi jihad iaitu bersungguh-sungguh mengisi
masanya dengan perjuangan dan pengorbanan untuk
memenangi pertarungan melawan iblis dan syaitan.

Kesedihan juga berpunca daripada sifat dengki dan
mengikut nafsu. Ada orang berasa sedih menyaksikan
orang lain yang mengatasi kehebatannya. Lebih berjaya,
kaya, berpangkat, cantik dan bergaya. Risau dan
tertekan bersarang di hati, ditambah dengan sifat
dengki dan dendam yang pasti akan memalapkan cahaya
iman.

Ubat bagi kesedihan sebegini adalah dengan melihat
siapa yang berada di bawah anda. Bukankah ramai
manusia yang tiada apa-apa untuk dimakan pada hari
ini? Rumah mereka musnah oleh banjir dan badai, anak
dan isteri mereka mati di hadapan mata kerana tembusan
peluru, kehancuran bangsa dan negara oleh kekejaman
perang. Mengapa perlu bersedih jika kita masih
memiliki orang yang tersayang, mengapa risau jika
harta kita dilindungi Allah SWT, jika ia berkurangan
bukankah selama ini Allah memberi jumlah yang banyak
tak terhitung? Semenjak dari rahim ibu lagi rezeki
sudah dikurniakan kepada kita. Sudikah kita jika
seseorang mahu menukar kedua mata, kaki dan tangan
kita dengan wang berjuta? Tentu ia lebih berharga
daripada wang. Kenikmatan yang Allah kurniakan itu
terlalu banyak, tetapi hanya sedikit manusia yang mahu
bersyukur.

Kesedihan kerana melupakan Allah. Bagaimanakah keadaan
orang yang melupakan Allah? Dalam surah Al-Hasyr ayat
19 Allah SWT berfirman yang maksudnya: “Dan janganlah
kamu menjadi seperti orang-orang yang melupakan Allah.
Lalu Allah menjadikan mereka melupakan diri mereka.
Mereka itulah orang-orang yang fasiq.”

Makna melupakan diri mereka sendiri adalah mereka
meninggalkan amal soleh yang boleh menyelamatkan diri
mereka di dunia dan akhirat. Orang yang melupakan
Allah SWT mempunyai ciri-ciri seperti berikut;

Hari dilalui tanpa ibadat, lupa berzikir, mengabaikan
sembahyang, tidak membaca ayat al-Quran, menjauhi ilmu
dan meninggalkan amal soleh. Kehidupan dunia
menjadikan mereka buta, tidak dapat menjejaki jalan ke
akhirat. Keadaan mereka seperti binatang kerana mereka
hidup semata-mata untuk makan, minum, tidur, berkahwin
dan memuaskan nafsu saja.

Ini sesuai dengan firman-Nya yang bermaksud: “Dan
sesungguhnya kami jadikan untuk isi neraka jahanam
kebanyakan jin dan manusia, mereka memiliki hati tapi
tidak dipergunakan untuk memahami ayat-ayat Allah, dan
mereka memiliki mata tetapi tidak dipergunakan untuk
melihat tanda-tanda kebesaran Allah dan mereka
memiliki telinga tetapi tidak dipergunakan untuk
mendengar ayat-ayat Allah. Mereka itu seperti binatang
ternak, bahkan mereka lebih sesat lagi. Mereka itulah
orang-orang yang lalai.” (Surah Al-A'raf: 179).

Benarkah orang yang kaya tidak berasa sedih, putus asa
dan tertekan? Sebenarnya, ia bergantung kepada sumber
hartanya dan untuk apa ia dibelanjakan. Kekayaan yang
sebenar adalah kaya hati. Iaitu hati yang sentiasa
bergembira kerana iman kepada Allah dan bersyukur
serta reda dengan qada dan qadar-Nya.

INFO: Hati sebagai alat kawalan manusia

Allah SWT menjadikan hati itu hidup dan berfungsi
sebagai pusat kawalan bagi anggota badan manusia.

Orang yang merawat hatinya dengan pelbagai amalan
dituntut syariah pasti akan mengenali diri.

Hiburan berlebihan, sifat dengki, mengikut nafsu dan
lupa kepada kebesaran Allah SWT penyebab kepada
‘kesedihan’ hati.

Mukmin yang hatinya sentiasa menekankan tuntutan
syariah akan membahagikan masa untuk Allah SWT, diri
sendiri dan untuk keluarga serta umat

tribute to setsuko.
nice article~
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Why these things happen to me....

A new week, new entry. For the past few weeks I've been fooling around after the 1st exams. Since the 2nd exam is like 3 weeks away, I've decided to lay back for awhile. Breathing, talking, watching movies and series, and getting together with friends. And all of the 1st exam marks are out. Alhamdulillah I've passed. But still I didn't really understand why I got marks like that. It supposed to be higher (after all I'm repeating the 2nd year which I've go through last year). Guess something is missing. Some touches. Something that really dear to me (or is it someone?). Well I don't really know about,

To tell the truth, I'm really feeling lonely right now. Even with a lot friends around me, I still feel lonely. Did I miss my family back in Malaysia? I don't know. I always feel like that. So I don't think it'll count. I think I'm longing for someone to share my problems. But I don't really ready for as I'm not into that kind of friendship (for the time being). So what is it I'm longing for. Something that really makes me feel like this.

Maybe from outside people may say that I'm kinda 'tough' emotionally. But deep down inside I'm just a mere human being. Nothing about me is so special. I'm not comparing myself with others. Hey, why I'm always writing about something that I feel. Or maybe because what it has to say about this blog, THE UNTOLD STORIES??? Hah. Anyway I'm just a human.

Sometimes (but I think almost all the times), we keep asking why is something that we hoped that it'll never happened to us happened? It's something that had to do with what we had done? Or is it something that had to do with our surrounding? Well, I wish I had the answer. Yeah, I wish and I pray!! Umph. Really not in the mood. But life must go on. Either we like it or not, it's something that had been written for us since the day we were created inside our mom's womb.

Oh AllAH lend me some strength to keep me walk my destiny. Even if I'll be hurt along the way, I hope that I won't whining about it. But please guide me to right path. After all these times I've been neglecting your orders. I hope and I pray that you won't quit on me. On my family, my friends, and all of my brothers and sisters. I know something will be there for us if we follow you, still people make mistakes. Sometimes it's something that unforgiveable on people eyes yet YOU always be there. I just hope that I'll be good. And things that happened to me, In your willing I'll take it as something to remind me of who am I, peacefully~

good old days


Me and my friends in Bujairami 1999





Sending my friend off to Russia





Our first trip to J.U.S.T. So naive~





Having dinner with some Malaysian delegates
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If tomorrow never comes



Today, we should be thankful to HIM for lending us this life, this body, this time, and this iman. Thank you for creating us and letting us walk this world. We would never be here today if you didn't create us in the first place. Even you had done a lot for us, we always forget what we had done for you. We never obey your oders. We never please you. We never do the things that we all supposed to do ; pray to you. Even we had done it, I don't think it'll be enough. Even we all had pray and devoting our life all these years, it would never be enough.

Yet you are so kind letting us stay here. Walk this earth. Eating, drinking, sleeping, reading, studying and many more. Countless more things that we all had done. You didn't want anything else except for devoting ourselves to you. But that was something that we all been neglecting all these times. We all to pround to say Alhamdulillah for even once after every breath that we had. We all never pray to you at the fixed time. We seldom read quran yet have a lot of times to read comics and manga. We never learn from the surah that we had read but we always crying after watching movies. We never practice zikr but we always singing till morning.

What had happen to us? What are we? Are we someone or something that rule this world? Or just someone who just passing this world to another world? If you are the latest, act like one. Stop everything that is wrong and do the right things. Think like one. Always remember that our existance on this world is only a temporary. It's never gonna be forever. The destination that we are heading is Over There. After all, we are created only to collect things that is necessary in order to be living happily over there. The life after this is the life of eternity. How we are going to survive in that place if we didn't had what it takes to excel over there. Think again, and act. Cause the day of doom is nearing. We never knew when it'll be coming.

"Who are the learned? Those who practice what they know." (Bukhari)
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Live ur Life~

Life is so full of unexpected things. I think that's why they call life. Because there won't be life without supprises. Supprises are like the spices of our life. It's somehting that I think The Creator made to make our life more interesting. Can you imagine, that you wake up everyday doing all the same stuff? It'll be lame isn't it? But imagine that you wakeup everyday full of supprises. You would like your life. Cause everyday are not the same. It has it's own pattern. So why we always keep bugging ourself thinking something that we had done. If it's something that benefit us, it's ok. But most of us (including me) sometimes bother to think about something that we had done.

Well, the supprises of life are so wonderful. But it sometimes can be so mean. So we had to think our every move. But we must remember, we always should learn from others mistakes. As there's a saying said, "Learn from others mistakes, cause we are too busy to do by ourself". Learning from mistakes is something that we should treasure. Because without mistakes we won't know the right way to do something. From mistakes we can learn a lot of things. Such as, "No one is perfect". Even the most perfect man on the earth had done some mistakes. Even the prophet Himself had done some mistakes. But remember, always take a lesson everytime we fall. Because we should never fall twice in the same place.

Life is so wonderful. But most of us too busy thinking about something that had not happen. We too busy thinking about our future and we didn't enjoy the moment that we have right now. The air that we breath. The beautiful sceneries that we had. And wonderful friendship that we had built. Well, if you feel like that stop it. Take sometimes to enjoy your life. Don't bother about others. Just think of your happiness. Be happy. Always be happy. As this comes from my personal experience. I would say that I had such a wonderful life. But I never enjoy it. I always busy, bothering myself with other stuff that I would say "rubbish". I never feel great to be myself. I never thank HIM for what I'm today. All I do is keep hoping for something better to happen to me.

Hopping for something to turn up according to our expectation is not something that good. We should happy, and enjoy our life to the fullest. Cause we never know what life had for us in the future. Maybe something very nice (as we hope), or maybe things turn out to be something that we hate the most. Well, life's too short to think about that. To worry about it. Move on. Live your life as you like (as long as the things that we do are not contradict to our syaria). The rest, live. LIVE! LIVE!!!!!


"If you can solve your problem, then what is the need of worrying? If you cannot solve it, then what is the use of worrying?"
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September + Oktober = Ramadhan + Syawal

Berlalulah sudah ramadan, sebulan berpuasa. Dualah bulan kita, beraya. Ahaks~

Kali nie nak tunjuk banyak skit gambar ntuk korang semua nengok. Hahahaha. Ucapan kepada semua yang akan menduduki exam: Silalah belajar dengan bersungguh-sungguh. Kerana peluang hanya datang sekali sahaja. Buat yang terbaik dan kita akan menerima yang terbaik. Tetapi semua adalah ciptaan-Nya....


Urm, gambar nie menunjukkan kipas yang berlatar belakangkan bulan penuh. Rasanya gambar nie amek sebelum Ramadan kot. Mengenangkan saat romantik bersama......... ahaks~



yang nie plak, gambar time kita orang dengar ceramah yang disampaikan oleh sorang Sheikh nie time kita orang gi Iftar kat kg bilal Masjid Jamiah (JUST). Sheikh nie bg ceramah dalam English tuh. Salute ah~ Menu: Maklubah + Kambing



NIe plak time Iftar Pahang kat rumah aper ntah aku pun dah tak ingat. Tapi apa yang aku pasti itu adalah rumah budak pompuan. Pasal tuh first time aku gi ke sana. Lagi pasal iftar tuh, pergh makan memang mantap giler. Aper bleh buat, depa pi masak ayam masak hitam? Ntah menda per ntah nama dier,,,, Menu: Nasi Putih + Ayam Hitam + Sayur Campur



This one, as you guys can see aku sedang makan. So disebabkan aku sedang makan kire gambar nie paling seksi. Uwek!!!!! (choking! not breathing!!!). Nie gambar time kita orang buat iftar ntuk bebudak laki batch kita orang. Umphh, semua berjalan dengan lancar. Kita orang juga menjemput bebudak US ntuk join kita orang. Menu: Nasi Ayam + Ayam Goreng Kicap + Ayam Hainan. Ahaks~ Cool!



Hok nie plok adalah time Iftar Jami3i PERMAI yang diadakan kat Dewan Farabi, Yarmouk University. Sekali ngan mendalah tuh ada Majlis Khatam Al-Quran. Alhamdulillah bertambah ilmu aku. Memang diri nie terlalu jahil sangat dengan ilmu agama....... sob sob. Menu: Nasi Ayam + cili yang sangat pedas~



First time ever. Bebudak Melayu dijemput ntuk bertakbir di Masjid Jami3ah. Ramai gak yang turun. Arab2 yang nak dgr pun ramai gak dtg. Siap buat rakaman lagi. Rasanya ada kot bebudak nie letak takbir tuh dalam YouTube! kot. Lepas tuh kita orang berpecah gi ke rumah bebudak yang nak kita orang takbirkan~



Open House rumah bebudak nie. Rasanya nie raya kedua kot. Pasal nyer takder tempat ntuk mencari makan, so terpaksa ler gi beraya ke rumah bebudak nie...... Thanks Sophee, Syafiq, Amin, Anhar, n Sipuk. Menu: Nasi Impit + Kuah Kacang pedas giler (Sophee, ko orang mana sebenarnyer???) + Puding + Soto + Sup Tulang~



Gambar nie sepatut nyer xleh disiarkan kerana nie adalah disebalik tabir majlis raya PERMAI. Tapi takper. Best gak ah. Tahun nie agak ramai orang masuk nengok (due to bertambah nyer bebudak JUST nie). Majlsi berjalan dengan lancar. Mungkin terdapat a few glitch yang x best. But over all mmg ok ler. Menu: Satay (yeay!) + Kuah kacang(nasib baik x pedas. aper depa ingat kita orang nie orang nogori ko po???) + Dessert buah-buahan kot + Nasi Impit + Nasi Minyak + Ayam Pedas~



Owh aku dah citer ker pasal aku berlakon time Majlis Raya PERMAI? Umphh.... xper ah. takyah citer lg bagus. Hahahaha..... Nie adalah gambar ketika sedang "cuba" ntuk berlatih ntuk lakonan. Last2, malam tuh nak berlakon, petang tuh baru nak amek pelakon dan juga menyiapkan prop. Akibatnya, semua berlakon pakai skrip ciptaan sendiri. Kepada sesiapa yang ada terasa tuh, kami meminta maaf atas keceluparan mulut nie.........



Nie plak gambar budak kecik aku jumpa time semayang jumaat. Pompuan!! Kalau camnie ah kan, bab kata kawan aku, nak dapat yang dah besar punyalah susahkan, apa kata kita hajiz yang kecik lagi. Lagi senang. Bagi gula2 ajer. Dahlah xyah kuar2. Hahahahaha~ No heart feeling..... Budak nie mmg cute kalau nengok live. Kawai~~


Begitulah adanya kehidupan nie. Memang penuh dengan pelbagai ragam. Dan kebelakangan nie aku ada install satu program menarik yang dikenali sebagai StumbleUpon. Memang menarik. Dia akan membawa anda ke laman web secara random. Dan macam2 menda pelik dan menarik yang selama nie kita x pernah tau. So kepada sesiapa yang nak mencuba tuh, silalah ek.....

Dan akhir kata, kepada semua ahli PERMAI, silalah membaca post terbaru dari DeanSama. Citer pasal cinta. Terharu plak aku membaca nyer. Just nak bagitau, kita skang nie rasanya dah lari terlalu jauh daripada fitrah sebenarnya. So berusahalah ntuk kembali ke arah Islam yang cermelang. Juga kalau anda rasa mambazir masa membaca blog nie, seeloknya aku nasihatkan agar anda meninggalkannya. Kerana tiada apa yang boleh dimanafaatkan pon........

“Never let yesterday's disappointments overshadow tomorrow's dreams.”
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Selamat Hari Raye~

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir dan Batin ntuk semua... Alhamdulillah telah dipanjangkan umur ntuk kali nie. Setelah ramadan berlalu, kurasakan diri ini terlalu rugi. Kerana sepanjang ramadan yang lalu, semakin jahil pula diri nie. Sebab tuh raya tahun tak terasa kemenangan. Terasa diri ini terlalu jauh dari pencipta sebenar. Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan bertemu kembali dengan ramadan yang akan datang. Dan semoga aku akan dikuatkan semangat ntuk menghadapi hari yang mendatang.....

Semalam alhamdulillah sempat bertakbir raya kat masjid. 1st time plak duduk kat Jordan nie dapat bertakbir di masjid dan juga sembahyang raya. Ahaks~ Actually malam sebelum nyer tuh, semua dak Malaysia telah dijemput oleh Sheikh Ma'mum ntuk bertakbir di masjid. Pergh, ramai gak pak arab cam kagum ngan cara kita semua bertakbir. Pasal depa kat snih mana ler takbir dengan berlagu. So kira cam jadi famous jap ah. Hahahahaha..... Tapi pas kita orang abes takbir kat masjid, kami telah dipecahkan kepada beberapa kumpulan ntuk gi takbir kat rumah dak pompuan. Ok ah. Seronok sebab dapat makan kuih raye~

Berbalik kepada cerita di pagi raya. Selepas ajer selesai sembahyang raya, kita orang pun bergambar. Lepas ajer selesai bergambar, acara yang ditunggu2. Iaitu senaman pagi a.k.a open house = ton of foods. LOL! Pergh memang tak larat makan la orang cakap. Sampai nak pecah perut aku (bayangkan ah kalau perut korang semua. Muahahahahaha). Banyak giler jemputan open house di pagi raya yang hening nie...... sob sob sob ko balik Malaysia ek sob...

Lepas abes semua rumah bebudak nie aku pusing (hyperbola ajer tuh), kita orang pun berlepas ke Kedutaan Besar Malaysia ke Jordan di Amman. Aktiviti makan secara tak ingat dunia pun bermula..... Start ajer bas jalan, mata terus tutup. Dan hanya terbuka (baca: hanya boleh dibuka) setelah sampai di hadapan kedutaan. Hehehe (kena rehatkan diri sebelum aktiviti yang lebih dasyat. Muahahahaha). Turun ajer dari bas, nampak segerombolan manusia yang memakai baju yang bewarna dan berwani. Pergh cam aper ajer. Tp takper 3ashan raye~ Lepak depan pintu jap. Dok layan kengkawan sambil meng.......... (xleh bgtau. nanti ada orang jelous. har har harun salim bachik).

Maka sesi fotografi pun dilaksankan dengan penuh jayanya. Dengan pelbagai aksi yang telah ditonjolkan (sorry xsemua gambar sesuai ntuk tontonan umum). Setelah itu barulah masuk ke dalam (lambat masuk akibat pergerakan trafik yang begitu perlahan. akibat daripada ahli Irbid yang terlalu ramai....). Bila dah masuk tuh terus ajer merembat segala jenis makanan yang ada dihidangkang. Burp! Opss sorry. Alhamdulillah.... Kenyang gak aku nie ek. Ingat kot dah tak reti kenyang. Dah abes makan, masa ntuk balik.....

Naik bas dan terus jer terlelap.... Tetiba bas aku berenti. Alamak, kena tahan ngan polis depan American Embassy plaks. Pehal la plak pakcik nie. Tak puas hati baik cakap kat PM ker duta ker... nie sibuk ajer tahan bas kita orang(depa dengki ngan baju raya kita orang kot??) Rupa2nya mamat nie ingat ada budak dalam bas nie amek gambar Embassy US tuh (eh ingat bangunan ko tuh cantik sangat ker ha?). Tetapi sebenarnya hanyalah misunderstanding (aku dah cakap dah, maner ader orang nak amek gambar korang tuh...). Pas ajer bas tuh masuk jalan besar, mata nie pun terus ajer kuyu dan jalan pun dah xknal. Dan terus terlelap...... Sedar2 ajer dah ada kat depan simsimah.... hahahahaha giler dasyat aku tido ek....

Begitulah adanya kisah aku di kala pagi raya yang hening di Irbid nie...... Xde menda yang menarik sgt pun. Itulah rutin yang telah aku jalankan selama 2 tahun lalu and for the next 5 years in Irbid nie.... (pergh giler lama lg nak balik nie.... alahai omak kawenkan aku (adeh aper lirik nie salah)). Dah takder aper citer dah nie, next week dah start kelas n 1st exam are coming and just around the corner (dey, saper cakap just dekat... huh? aku cakap "around the corner" ler bukan dekat corner tuh. *mangkuk ayun berterbangan*).

Till we meat again (dey pale otak ko "meat". Tu daging ah. cuba ler bawak study skit.). Owh ok. Sorry. Till we meet again.... da~

p/s: masih menunggu kehadiran bahulu gulung yang dipesan~


yaser da Buaya Mafraq (B.M.), aku, ngan tadin



kengkawan~



aku yang kelihatan bongkok akibat terlalu tawaduk ketika lalu depan orang ramai...
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Eid Mubarak~

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Wah, dah lama gak tak bercerita panjang ek. Hahahaha.... Setelah sebulan berpuasa, kini tibalah Syawal. Rasa macam cepat sahaja masa berlalu. Kalau dulu2 time kecik2 mesti rasa lama giler time puasa. Isk isk isk. Sampai rasa cam xlarat nak puasa. Tapi bile diberikan "ganjaran" ntuk berpuasa sure tak tinggal nyer. Hahahah.....

Memang seronok ah kalau fikir2 balik berpuasa time kecik2 dulu. Macam boleh dapat. Kalau pergi ke bazaar ramadan tuh, pergh tak cukup tangan membeli (hehehe.... biasa nyer juada pilihan adalah ayam percik). Pastuh kalau dah berbuka tuh, pergh makanan memang masyuk. Dapat berbuka ngan family. Alamak, tangkap leleh lah plak. Pastuh gi semayang terawikh semayang lapan ajer (ahaks~). Sedangkan orang lain semua semayang 20. Pastuh orang tak bagi pun lg salam lepas semayang witir, kita dah duduk menghadap moreh (makanan yang disediakan selepas semayang terawikh).

Memang seronok ah bila teringat balik kenangan berpuasa dan beraya time kecik2 dulu. Tapi skang nie macam dah takder semangat dah. Hahahah... Tak tau apasal. Maybe ntuk kebaikkan kot. Huhuhuhu Kalau dulu2 time beraya ajer mesti nak pergi beraya kat semua rumah orang. Walaupun tak knal. Semua nyer sebab nak dapat duit raya. Pastuh dapat banyak duit raya, pergi beli mercun ngan bunga api (aku main bunga api ajerlah. tak berani nak main mercun. tp adik2 aku ajer yg main. hehehehe).

Kenangan beraya dulu2 mmg dah tak sama ngan skang dah. Kalau dulu, kita sibuk menziarahi saudara-mara. Jumpa kengkawan. Skang nie, memasing duduk melepak depan tv ajer. Sebab dah macam2 program ada kat tv. Memang sedih ler nengok generasi skang nie. Agak2 nyer nanti anak2 kita camne ek? Silap2 sembahyang raya pun dah tak gi ek......

Bila bercerita bab baju raya plak, pergh memang kalau kat Malaysia tuh silau2 ha. Kalau yang perempuan tuh, pergh mekap tebal seinchi. Huhuhuhu..... Gelang emas sampai ke siku ha. Nie yang ori ker tak tak tau. Hahahaha. Yang penting raya mesti raya ek..... Kalau pakcik2 mesti akan tukar kereta baru. Hahahah raya kenalah tukar baru semua. Tapi nasib baik yang menambah bini baru skit ajer. (Heheheheh *grin*).

Tp senang citer memang semua baru ah. Serba-serbi baru. Tapi sekarang suasana tuh dah berubah. Kita semua dah berubah. So dah takder dah keseronokan macam dulu. Isk isk isk. Bila teringat tuh sedih gak ek.

Dalam kita bergembira, jangan kita lupakan yang sedang berduka. Ramai kawan2 kita skang nie yang sedang berduka. Ada yang berada dalam kesusahan. Ada yang berduka kerana kesalahan sendiri. So marilah sama2 kita mendoakan agar kita semua sentiasa hidup dalam keimanan dan ketakwaan kepada-Nya.

So dikesempatan nie, aku KHAIRUL ANWAR IBRAHIM, ingin mengucapkan SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN. Semoga kita akan bertemu kembali dengan ramadhan yang akan datang.






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Will we be like them?




People used to say that, in the old day a mom could raise like 10 children. But when they grew up, not even one of her child could look after her. Is that how we should be? Well my friend, we are lucky cause we still have our parent. Think about others how they are longing for a family love. Cherish them. Take care of them like or even better then they take care of you. Because they are the only parent that we had in our life......
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In The End...

Assalammualaikum... and good day everyone. It's been almost a week or probably more since the last entry. So many things to tell yet a little time to write it all. This is what we call life. It just happen. You can't always know what's there for you. Because if you know it, probably we won't be a very good servent. We'll never gain anything with knowing everything. Something are better not to be know . Because it's means to be secret. There's always something about it. It just a matter of time to reveal.

Takziah, to one of my friend whose father just passed away on Wednesday Morning (probably, Malaysian time), who died in a car crash. There's nothing else I could do, accept for pray for him. May AllAH bless him and put him with the people who HE loves and blessed. I don't know what else to say, because I don't know how that I'm going to help her. Insyallah if she needs any help, I'll will always be there (bi iznillah). Actually anyone who need help, just tell me and I'll try my best to help you guys. Insyallah.

Well that's how life going on. That's how life works. It's a miracle. It's so unique that AllAH had told us everything about it in Quran except for life, death, and few others. Well, only HE knows about it. About life, it's actually a very beautiful moment of your journey before the 'real destination'. You can do anything that you want. You can do anything that you feel like doing. You can eat, drink, sleep, play and do gazillion of things as you like. Even though a musulman can do anything that he/she likes, yet they still stick to the syaria'. It's a beautiful plan that AllAH had planned for them. It's beautiful if you really understand what it is.

It's everything about giving rather than recieving. We give our free and freedom for awhile on this world for something better in the life after. It's about giving. If we didn't give what we should give, we will regret about it. Maybe today we didn't realize about it, but someday we'll regret about it. It's just a matter of time. As a saying say "Do what we had to do, an let the time take care of the rest". Maybe today our friends need help, we should do anything that we could do to help them. Because we never know what tomorrow have for us. Maybe it's good or maybe the other way round. Who knows?

Anyway, in the end we all gonna be the same, rotten body within a very cold and dark place six feet under. In the end we cannot bring everything that we had gathered here on this world to the under world. In the end everything will be useless unless we did share it with the others. we shouldn't forget the quest that had sent us here, TO BE A LOYAL SERVANT. Always remember who we are and we come from. Because it's much more useful than anything else.

Last words from me, "treasure something that you love while it still in your possession, before it's too late to do so".




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You can't always get what you want



That's how life works. That's how AllAH created this world. That's how we should live on with. That's how my life works. Alhamdulillah, thank HIM for this give cause I don't know if anything that I want really good for me or not. As people always say that what we get is what we deserve. But what we didn't get is something that doesn't meant for us. Even though sometimes I just feel really down cause what I want, I didn't got it.

There's been a few things in my life that I want but I cannot get my hand on them. This is probably because they wasn't meant for to get them. It wasn't destined for me to hold them. At that time I think that HE already abandoned me (nauzubilllah min zalik). But I know I really know what happened back then. It wasn't the fact that HE had abandoned me. But it's actually something for me to ponder upon. Something to tell me that not everything that I want will be mine.

I don't why lately I'm so into the blues. Probably this is what the psychiatrist call compasation. Because I had lost a few things that I really fell the lost. Then it turn me into something that what I'm not. That's what people called LIFE. Ever since the first time I meet people, I had this kind of feeling. A feeling that I cannot explain. Something that is beyond my knowledge. It's something that keeps this body running. Something that keeps my blood flowing trough the arteries and veins all over my bodies which functioning to oxygenate my cells.

Enough of those stories. Now lets talk about something else. About the person I like the most. Till this moment, I don't really know who is the person that I like the most (after my father and mother la). Well probablu because it's not time yet. I don't why every time I meet new people I kind of forgot about the people I used to know. Sometimes I feel really bad about it. But most of the times I enjoy. I keep telling my self to stop from what I'm doing. I do thing about how others feel. Because I feel it too. I just wish that I had something inside me to prevent my self from destroying them. If I can't, I hope that someone will be able to stop it.

I really hope so. Before it's too chronic or even worsen. I really hope. I do pray to HIM. Maybe it's not time yet. Probably this feeling just because I see other people they had it and I want it too. It's just a common thing for an ordinary people like me to have this feeling. After all, I'm not a perfect person. There's not perfect person in this world. But we still can try to be perfect even it it mean that we had to look weird in front of others.

After all I've wrote, I still don't understand about life. It's just too complicated. Is it just me, or it really is. So the question is, AM I MYSELF? Still looking for the answers............
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It's that time of the year again....

It's back. It's the time of the year again. Thank goodness that we made it again this year. After the long and tiring moment of our life we finally arrived to that time again. This is the time when love will blooms again. This is the time when all people try to be nice with each other. No matter how you angry with people. It doesn't matter right now. Everyone is too busy searching for the right one. For the right moment, for the right path. And in a simple word, "The Right".

People who really sought after all the goodness at that time are the only person who will get it. Sometimes we forgot about that time. We are too busy with something else which is not last for a life time. For a moment like this, some people wait for a life time. For something like this, if it can be bought by money it think a lot of blood will spill. For something that as special as this time, we should never forget about it. Yet we still too ignorant and too self-centered to think about it.

My friends, life is too short to think about something that won't last long. Why wasting your time thinking about it. You still got a lot of other things that you need to think about. And I think everyone know what I've been mumbling ; it's Ramadhan my friend. It's that month of the year again. It's the month full with forgiveness and blessing. It's the month of the people who sought after it. It's the time for us to increase our worship, to decrease our "kharban" thingy, and to ask for forgiveness. It's the time that people had been waiting for a long time.

It's the love to HIM that had bloom which will lead us to HIM. It's the longing to meet HIM will lead us to the right path. It's everything about HIM. It's nothing about her or anyone else. It's only about HIM. No matter what you do for life (as long as it's followed syaria'), no matter how much you make a month, no matter what brand of cloth you wear, no matter how beautiful your wife (or how handsome your husband is), and everything else, it doesn't matter. What really matter is your heart that had devoted to HIM. Willing to endure everything that you'll encountered along the path to HIM.


Ramadhan Kareem. Kullu 3am wa antum bi alf kher.


 
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