Good bye internet and friends

PokJat and Me at Nabawi Mosque, Madinah on a fine morning ;P

Assalammualaikum and good day everyone.
Alhamdulillah I just arrived from Makkah the day before yesterday. So far everything is doing great. Alhamdulillah I've recieved all the result and thank again to HIM for his blessing. Even though the result wasn't really great, but I'm glad that I made it. Nothing more to tell.

Well just to let you guys know that I won't be around the internet for awhile since I'm going to move to a new house. So thank you very much for reading this humble blog. To all friends who already in Malaysia, wishing you guys a happy holidays. Don't forget me when you guys having reunion or anything together. To all graduates, congratulations. Omedeto. I got nothing to give. But as a token of appreciation from me, I would like to dedicate to all of the again CONGRATULATION.

The following are the first Malaysian graduates of Jordan Unversity of Science and Technology (J.U.S.T):
1) Muhammad Ashraf
2) Wan Muhammad Ruzaimi
3) Hakimah
4) Julie Eilena
5) Puteri Wan Seri Bani
6) Shuhada
p/s: if there's any misspelling please forgive me.

And last but not least, to all my friends who are going to clinical year next year congratulations. Do your best. Never let anyone left behind again. Enough is enough. I pray that we all will be successful for the Ummah. And till then, wassalam....

Assalammualaikum and good day everyone. Alhamdulillah I've finished my last examination for the semester. So far everything is going so well. Yet I still need to double my effort when it comes to studying. Even the result is good, but for me it still not so good. And right now I've started my mid semester holiday. With 21 days to lay around, I've decided to perform umrah. As this is my second time, I hope it'll be better than before. As Imam Ghazali used to say, "Tomorrow must be better than today, and today must be better than yesterday. If today still the same as yesterday, we all are losers". (I'm sorry for the translation, because I can't find the exact words that he used.)

Before I forgot, I want to congratulate all seniors that passed the final year exam and already on the road to a bigger journey. To them who didn't make it, never feel sad. If you want to feel, so take your time. But don't take it too long. There still a lot of other stuff to do. Just remember this moment. May it be something that will keep you working harder for the rest of your life.

For all of my friends, I would like to wish you all a Happy Holiday. Use them wisely. Plan your holiday. So you won't regret in the end. May all the best be with you. As for everyone, thank you for your support. InsyAllah we'll be better day by day. Never forget your worst moment of your life as it will be your motivation to keep walking toward. May Allah bless us all with His mercifulness and graciousness.

Till we meet again someday.
Alhamdulillah.........

Assalammualaikum.....

Hi everyone. Thank you for visiting my humble blog. Which has nothing related to my study ov even yours. There's nothing really interesting to read, or to see. Not like the others. I keep this blog for personal things. Insyallah I'll try to set up some informative blogs so that everyone can get benefit from. Maybe links or article that I can get my hand on about current technologies and infromation about medcine. Or even place that people can come and write their oppinion about it.

As for today, I've taken my mid paper for Respiratory System which is very disappointing. I guess I know what happen. So it's up to me now to repair them in two days time before the final which is on this Saturday. Insyallah I'll try my best.

There's nothing much to write about. Yet so many things happening around me. Insyallah when I found some free time I'll try to write some more. Here I'll share with all of you guys the new settings, for those who wanna use w.bloggar blog editor for their blog. (Just found it today after a few months of searching through the net since the blogger have change their settings).

getting w.Bloggar to work with Blogger Beta

Till then, ma3a salamah...

Selamat Hari Guru....

Semoga segala jasa yang cikgu2 semua curahkan akan dibalas oleh-Nya.

review on eMedicine site

Assalammualaikum....

Alhamdulillah and thank to AllAH for all of His bless and ni3mat to me and all of my friends. Today I'm not going to write anything about myself, my family even about my friends. I'm going to give you guys (especially to those who's reading medicine) a cool website where you can test your knowledge and diagnosing skills. Even though we didn't cover it yet in class, we still can use our previous knowledge and what we have learn in classes.

Here I give you eMedicine. It's a site where you can look almost all things about medicine. It's like a bible to a doctor to be. Hurm..... I've been the member of this site for quite sometimes. But recently fall in love with it. LOL.... It got a lot of useful information about almost everything. From the rare of the commonest to the commonest of the rare. Just like all-in-one bargain.

If you don't believe it, try it for yourself and then tell me all about it. I hope it'll help us in continuing our journey to become a great muslim scholar in medical field. Never fell ashamed to asked people and to talk to people. Cause sooner or later we have too. Be ready for anything that may come in the middle of our journey. May all of our efforts will be counted as good deeds, With AllAH's will....

And to all teachers and teacher-to-be Happy Teacher's Day. May Allah repays you with his blessing and wealth. I'll pray that you'll always in his eyes....

Turning 21

Assalammualaikum.....

Alhamdulillah dah masuk 21 dah pun tahun nie. Alhamdulillah kerana masih dipinjamkan pelbagai nikmat daripada-Nya. Beberapa hari selepas birthday arituh kena plak amek exam ntuk CVS (cardio-vascular system). Sistem kedua ntuk semester nie. Result, hurm......... rasanya kurang menarik ler. Sepatutnya dapat lagi banyak. Alhamdulillah diberikan nikmat. Tapi sepatutnya dapat lebih. Tapi apa-apa pun bersyukur......

Tak tau nak citer aper sangat. Bukan reti sangat bercerita. Kalau dedulu time sekolah rendah boleh ah masuk pertandingan bercerita dan dapat johan. Sekarang nie rasanya mendengar dan membaca kisah orang lagi menarik kot daripada kisah sendiri. Biarlah kisah aku hanya aku, Dia dan "kamu" sahaja yang tahu.... (Amacam, mengancam x ayat? hir3)

Aper lagi ek nak bercerita... Owh arituh adik aku dapat masuk Matrik. Guess what? Hahahaha aku rasa dalam family aku nie cam ada tradisi kot. Pasal dier dapat masuk Matrik Gambang. Sama ngan aku. Sebenarnya sebelum dia masuk ke SHAH Pekan dlu pun dia masuk SMKA Pahang kat ngan umah aku. Sama cam aku dan adik aku yang bongsu. So kire cam dah jadi cam tradisi kot. Nges3.... Harap2 nyer dier dapat menjadi terus cemerlang dalam apa jua bidang yang dia nak masuk nanti. Insyallah berjaya nyer.....

Dan sekarang nie kat Irbid dah pun masuk musim panas. So bahang semakin dirasai. Mata pun makin kabur (akibat sinaran susuk badan manusia yang semakin jelas kelihatan. Walaupun cuba mengelak, tetapi tidak dapat dihalangi lagi. Inilah dugaan berada di tempat orang). So sekarang nie dah start ngan sistem terakhir ntuk semester nie iaitu RS (Respiratory System). So kena tinggkatkan lagi usaha untuk memperolehi kecermelangan demi AllAH, agama, bangsa dan negara. Dan tidak lupa juga untuk pulang ke Malaysia pada bulan 8 nanti untuk bertemu dengan kekasih hati..... (jeng jeng jeng....). Paperpun kepada semua, teruskan berusaha mencapai kecermelangan.....

p/s: bebudak final year dah abes kelas skang nie. dia orang tengah tunggu ntuk exam final. kepada semua, semoga berjaya dengan cemerlang... semoga mencapai cita2. dah balik Malaysia nanti jangan lupakan kita orang kat snih. Doakan kejayaan kami plak. Dan tunggu kepulangan kita orang nanti ek.....

11 Rules of Life

RULE 1
Life is not fair - get used to it.

RULE 2
The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

RULE 3
You will NOT make 40 thousand dollars a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice president with car phone, until you earn both.

RULE 4
If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss. He doesn't have tenure.

RULE 5
Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your
grandparents had a different word for burger flipping
they called it Opportunity.

RULE 6
If you mess up,it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

RULE 7
Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills,cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you are. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

RULE 8
Your school may have done away with winners and losers,but life has not. In some schools they have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as many times as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

RULE 9
Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get
summers off and very few employers are interested in
helping you find yourself. Do that on your own time.

RULE 10
Television is NOT real life. In real life people
actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.


RULE 11
Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.

p/s: even if some of the rules are not applicable, still most of them are true. so get a grip and don't get drown by the current of this world. get back to reality. then you'll understand...

Sanah Helwah Abah....

Abah and Mama......

Assalammualaikum....

Today, 28th March 2007 mark the 46th birthday of my beloved and the only father...
Born on 28th March 1961, in Kerdau which located in Termeloh's district, Pahang. Being a father wasn't really an easy job. Since your children will have different character and things. So as today, I'm really appreciate what he has done for me for the past 21 years. Thank dad, I never know how to pay back all your deeds. The only way that I know right now is to study hard and to make you proud of me. Insyallah I'll try my best to give the best out of me.

Let me tell all of guys why my dad is so special to me. Well first of all, he's my dad for sake. Lol ;p. Second, he's the best role model for me. FYI we never have any maid in our house. Since the day my dad married my mom, they both work hard and help each other in doing house chores (since both of my parents working). Up till now, he still do the chores, even he's now a public officer in the local municipality. He always do the laundry. Well maybe that's the only thing that he knows how to do ;P. But still he do it with all of his heart. That's one thing I do admire about him. And many other things that he had done. I don't think that I should write everything here. And even more, he's a cool dad!!!

And for you my dad, as we all getting older each day, each seconds we should increase our effort to be the best. We should never surrender to this world. Love yourself and love your family. Insyallah you'll be with the men who had been promised with heaven and everything inside it. With AllAH's will...

In Memory of Abd Halim Amran (1986 - 2007)

Abd Halim Amran (1986-2007)

Assalammualaikum....

Just recieved a message today saying that one of my schoolmate, Abdul Halim Amran passed away yesterday drown in Perak. Then one of my friend send my the link to a local newspaper regarding the incident.

Well he's one of the bright student back in SMAP. Always full of enthusiasm of learning and getting know things. He's really good at chess. Yet he's very shy. Never ever let people get angry with him. All of my high school years, I seldom talk to him. Maybe a few times. Last year I meet him at a PUTRA station. I can't remember which station. But there I meet him and we exchange phone number and had a few talk. Since he's so busy as Malaysian Medical Student. So i don't bother about it. Well maybe AllAH loves him more. That's why he call him back. I don't have anything else to say. Just a word or two. And the only thing that I can help right now is to recite doa for him and this entry to honor him. May you'll be placed with the good people which HIM had promised heaven as their reward.

Halim in memory

2 Al-Battani 2000

Form 3 2001

the entry about the incident in local newspaper:

Bakal doktor mati lemas

TAIPING: Kegembiraan 11 penuntut Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM) mandi-manda di pusat perkelahan Sungai Sempeneh, Batu Kurau, dekat sini, berakhir tragedi apabila seorang daripada mereka mati lemas manakala seorang lagi cedera selepas dihanyutkan arus deras, petang semalam. Mereka adalah sebahagian daripada 45 pelajar institusi pengajian tinggi awam (IPTA) itu yang mengikuti projek anak angkat bersama keluarga di Kampung Repuh, Batu Kurau. Mangsa yang mati lemas adalah pelajar perubatan, Abd Halim Amran, 20, dari Seremban, Negeri Sembilan manakala Mohd Shahrol Suondah, 20, dari Kuala Lumpur cedera di tangan dan dihantar ke Hospital Taiping (HT) untuk rawatan. Seorang rakan mangsa berusia 20 tahun yang enggan namanya disiarkan, berkata sembilan pelajar lelaki dan dua perempuan berusia 20-an, pergi berkelah ke pusat perkelahan itu kira-kira jam 3.30 petang, semalam. Katanya, ketika mereka sedang mandi, arus deras menerpa kawasan mereka secara tiba-tiba dari kawasan tinggi berhampiran berikutan hujan lebat, kira-kira jam 5 petang. “Saya dan beberapa rakan mandi di tepi dan sempat menyelamatkan diri. Tapi, dua rakan kami yang masih di bahagian tengah sungai tidak sempat naik dan dihanyutkan. “Kami sempat menyelamatkan Mohd Shahrol tetapi Abd Halim hilang dibawa arus. “Kami segera melaporkan kejadian kepada keluarga angkat dan penduduk kampung yang kemudian menghubungi polis, pasukan bomba dan penyelamat serta Rela untuk usaha menyelamat,” katanya. Rakan mangsa yang masih terkejut dengan kejadian itu, berkata mereka tidak menduga kejadian buruk itu berlaku ke atas mereka. Katanya, projek anak angkat itu membabitkan 45 pelajar UKM, Bangi, Selangor, dari pelbagai kursus terdiri daripada 20 lelaki dan 25 perempuan bermula 23 Mac lalu dan dijangka berakhir pada Khamis ini. Menurutnya, semua pelajar menetap dengan keluarga angkat di Kampung Repuh dan menjalankan pelbagai kegiatan membabitkan masyarakat kampung. “Inilah kali pertama saya dan rakan berkelah di pusat perkelahan itu. Kami amat sedih dengan kejadian ini,” katanya ketika ditemui di tempat kejadian, petang kelmarin. Sementara itu, Ketua Operasi Kanan Balai Bomba dan Penyelamat Taiping, Ahmad Abd Wahab, berkata sebaik mendapat laporan pasukan, penyelamat mula menjalankan operasi mencari mangsa pada jam 5.20 petang bersama 10 anggota. Katanya, turut membantu ialah pasukan polis dan Rela. “Mayat mangsa ditemui pada jam 6.50 petang, kira-kira 300 meter dari tempat kejadian. Mayat mangsa kemudian dihantar ke Hospital Taiping (HT),” katanya.

"Setiap yang hidup pasti akan merasai mati"
"Kematian itu adalah pasti"

Anyone perfect must be lying, anything easy has its cost.....

Assalammualaikum everyone. Alhamdulillah the SPM result is out last week. And as we all expect that there'll be some increase in the number of students who get straight As. Well As is not something that will give you a bright future. It's rather yourself than else. Congratulations to students who did well in their SPM. To those who's unfortunate, don't be sad with it. Get it over with. Pull yourself together. It's not the end of the world. The real test is just about to start. You guys now are embarking the real ship towards your dreams. What had passed leave it behind to remind you. And future is something that you have to seek for yourself. Remember once you fall it doesn't means that you'll be in the slump forever. It's all about how you getting up again and continue your journey. Insyallah in the future you'll become someone much more important than those who get straight As. Here I have an entry from my friend site, who's now studying in States. Well hope you guys will get something out of it.......

Some point to ponder for SPM graduate ..

Monday March 12 2007 was a day that every high school graduate has been waiting for. A day where the SPM result was announced.
As I expected the number of people getting straight A will increase. Congratulation to those who able to get that result. For those who were not, don't be too upset. This is not the end of your world. There will be more challenging task you will be facing when you study in the university.

My SPM result was not that good. I was not a straight A student in my high school. I was just a mediocre student who likes to spent most of my study time for my other school obligation. My class teacher once labeled me as part time student full time player as I always not around the school for extra co-curriculum activities. People might think I just want to brag myself here as I'm now study in US under MARA. But I would like to reinstate that I was not an excellent student. If you don't believe me, you can ask any of my schoolmate about how was I in high school. Some of my friends might tell you that I was lucky to get this scholarship which I'm not supposed to get it. Now back to my story, eventhough I was not in class, I will make sure that when I'm done with my activities I will go to my classmate to ask for note that I had missed. If I didn't understand, I will ask them to teach me. My friends always there for me to answer my question and they were so reliabale. I have to admit that I understand better when my friends teach me compared to the teacher.That was me when I was in high school.

But here in university I was alone. I don't have many friend whom I can always refer to. If I do have, they are not so reliable to give me a correct answer. They also are not sure whether what they are doing is right or wrong. Eventhough their SPM result was far away better that me, but still they are not sure with what they are doing.

You know why this thing happen? It is because of what you learn in lecture is not enough for you to understand the whole concept of the subject . The lecturer only teach you the main concept but to undertand profoundly of what you learn you need to do some extra work. You need to do some research, reading the whole chapter in the book or reading material that is outside the texbook. Study in the university is not a spoon fed concept, it is all about your eagerness to get knowledge. If you really want to understand the subject, you need to do some extra work to understand it.

This is where your life begin. Your true study skill will be tested. I don't know whether American grading concept is similar to Malaysia or not, but here you are not graded based on one exam, you are graded based on the homework,quiz, test, project and other assignment that is assigned by your lecturer. If you screw up on one of those school work, don't even dream to get an A. To get an A here is 90 above and you need to get almost perfect in all of those criteria that I have mentioned. For mediocre student like me, that is one hell of a goal.

Therefore for students who are not doing so good in their SPM, don't worry too much. You still have chance to amend your mistake. And for those who got straight A especially the one who got 17,18, or 19 As, your success come with a great responsibility. If in the future you want to be a doctor but just end up being a doctor in the same level as someone who got only 9 or 10 As,then shame on you. For your level, you should do better than that. For your level you should do something extraordinary to at least change our society. Be creative and use your brain at your full potential.

Friday Mach 16 2007

Amir, Me, and Hafiz. Brothers, and more than that.....

Assalammualaikum.... There's many thing in this life that we never expect to happen yet they always happen. And we also expect many thing to happen yet they never happen. That's life. Life is so full of suprises. We can always pray to HIM that what we want will happen. And what we never want to not happening. This is the rule of this life. He's the master of everything. He's the one that we must bow to. None other than HIM, Himself.

Today I recieved a text from my little brother. His SPM result (O-level) is out. He managed to get 4A1 3A2 2B2 1B3. Alhamdulillah. Even though it's not so good, it's still good. That's the game of this life. If you're working hard, you'll get the best. But if you don't work really hard enough, you don't deserve any. I've been thinking lately why we always taking this life too easy? Have we ever think about the life after? Are we gonna be in good shape or else?

This had opened my eyes. We should always pray and hope that we'll be prevail. Hope that we'll be saved from the torture of the Hell. Hope that we'll be the good servant. And the list goes on. But remember, even if the list is a mile away if it's not to be work on it'll never gonna to happen.

It's time to turn into a new page. Forget the past for a moment. Look into the new things. The present is something to be work on. The past, is something to be remembered and to be cherished. The future, is something that we had to plan. Always remember my friends luck is not everything. There's nothing as luck. The only thing that we had is our faith in HIM. Remember that he'll never easily give you anything if you're a muslim. Why? Because He loves to listen to the voices of a muslim. It's not that He hates us. But He loves us more. Never hate Him because of that. Yet we should love Him more. And more.

And this is a remembrance for me and to all of my friends. Where ever you are, what ever you do. Remember that He'll always be with us. Never turn away from Him. Even in the hardest or the easiest times. Always cherish Him. Cause the Jannatul-Firdaus surely will be yours. Bi-iznillah.....

8th of March

Assalammualikum and good day everyone.... It's been awhile since my last entry. Well that doesn't mean that I don't have anything to write. The truth is that I didn't find any leisure to write an entry. Probably because we're (me and my friends) having discussion all night except for weekend which I spent most of them playing games (oh, I shouldn't do that).

Well this, entry is specially dedicated to my house mate, Abd Hadi Damanhuri who celebrates his birthday on the 8th of March. He'll turned 20 this year. Well Hadi, it's been 20 years since your first breath on this planet earth. Only one thing to ask ourselves, after all this times, things, life and all of it what have we done in his favors?

After thinking for awhile, the answer should bring up this question, Who am I? And the question will continues until we reach the last answer that surely will bring us closer to HIM. My friends, it's never too late to turn back to the right path. He never denied our right, yet we always deny His. If you were in His place, surely you'll turn your back don't you? Well He's no that kind of thing. Instead He's always been there and still will be for us. In times of fear and chaos. In times of our darkness, our lost.

Never turn your back on something that's love able. Which His love will never disappoint you. Not like others love. Always remember that. You'll never find anyone better than Him. Even your spouse or your love one cannot overcome His love to you...... Only if you love Him hardly. Remember..........

Is love really in the air???

Assalammualaikum.... Alhamdulillah thank to AllAH for his blessing and for what ever I have or I'm now. It's been awhile since my last entry. So far I'm still in the best shape of myself. So what we all know about things that happen everyday? Are we really walking towards light or other way round? Well I'm sure that most of you'll be confused with what I'm about to write.

Do you know what 14 February means? Does it marks anything special? Does it leave anything to you? Hurm..... I'm sure that most of you guys know what is it. It's Valentine. And I'm sure that you guys had or will be receiving a lot messages about it. Either to celebrate it or to forget about it. Well everything depends on you, yourself. No one else have the power to make the choice for you. They only can show you they way. But they cannot help you walk through it.

It's something that really needs us to think about it. What is the main purpose of celebrating it? Does it gives any importance to us? The answer is within yourself. Go ask you iman. If it says no, than no is the answer. But if it says yes, then I think you might be right. I've been reading this one interesting book about how a muslim's teenager should do. It had stated there's 4 main point to be look over.

And one of it is to apply what we had understand about Islam into our daily life. So if you really understand what Islam is all about, I'm sure that you won't have anything to worry about. Because Islam is the most appropriate and the complete religion over all. It cover our daily life. From second to second. Not a single second of our life doesn't have anything to do with Islam. In fact, Islam is how we should live. Islam actually not a religion. It's actually way of life. How we should deal with everything in our life. From cradle to the grave.

So back to the point, is love really in the air? And as I've said, it's all depends on our iman. It's never been anyone or anything else. Only one thing that I want to stress here, Love is really for them who really understand it. It's not how people interpreting it. It's not how you express it. It's not how you make it wonderful. It's something that when you achieved the greatest love, you'll understand everything. So, instead of celebrating the Valentine why don't we seek for the greatest love. I'm sure you'll never regret it, for the rest of your life.

You're what you think. So think of yourself!

Assalammualaikum and good day everyone. Today is the 9th of February. And there's only a few days left for me before starting back my daily life as a medical student. Talking about holiday, I wonder what I've been doing for the past few weeks? Did I used my holiday as it should be? Or did I really mess it with things that I shouldn't do? Hurm it seems that I cannot decide anything.

Since I cannot decide anything to write here. Yeah there's a few things happened recently in Irbid. A few of my friends from Egypt came to visit me and my friends here. I've given a talk about photoshop (hurm..... I wonder how come I'm the one who giving it??? LOL). A few girls' houses been robbed (it seems that we had to declare war with those thugs). And I'm being bored sitting on my ass idle at home....... Well I think that's all. Do I have anything else????

Owh why it must happened to me? Isn't there anyone else that deserved it? Life is so life. It's full of things but not everything are available for you. That's all..... bye XD

iMAD: Islamic Modern Art Day

In conjunction with the semester break, JKK Kebajikan & Penerbitan will organizing iMAD: Islamic Modern Art Day. With the theme, "Tradisi Merentasi Teknologi" which read as Tradition Across Technology.

Date: 7 & 8 February 2007
Place: Ikhwah - Bayt Afif
Akhawat - Bayt Zinnirah

Programs:
Computer Crash Course
Traditional Games
Play
Poem Recitation
Wallpaper Designing
and many more....

For more information please contact
Ikhwah - Khairul Anwar Ibrahim (nuek)
Akhawat - Lina Farhana Ramli

this advertisement is not paid. If you have any idea for the programs please contact the person in charge. And may we all be blessed by HIM

Newbie...

Assalammualaikum.....
How's everyone been doing lately? Hope everyone enjoying life as it is. Never more never less than we should. Alhamdulillah, it has been a week since I first start my semester break. In my previous entry I've said that I don't have anything to do for my holidays. Well it seems that everything will change. I've found something to do for the rest of my holidays. It seems that my day will be bright again. Thanks to my friend who had introduced me to the magical world of photo editing.

I'm sure that everyone have heard about Photoshop before? Well it's actually a program which is created to let us edit our own pictures. The sophisticated of the script let us create a simple yet very meaningful master piece. Here I'll show you guys a few of my first try result. Hope you guys will give me some feedback about them. And if you guys have any pictures that really interesting you guys can send them to me via YM or anything means of communication ; as long as it didn't involve anything that's forbidden.

As for the song, I think I'll let you guys listen to this instrumental by Kenny G, Theme From Dying Young. I really enjoy it. Hope you guys too. Till then....

My first try using my very own pic.

WT***???

What should I do?

Alhamdulillah, Thank to AllAH for lending me this body, this life, and the ni3mah of Iman. Because of HIM I'm still here. Because of HIM I got everything I had and lose what I used to have. Still Alhamdulillah. It's been almost 24 hours since I've finished my 1st semester for the second time (look like it still a long journey I had to take). But right now I'm bored. Don't what to do, where to go or even what to eat. Hurm.... well I guest just let the time determined what I'm gonna do.

So as I'm writing this entry right now, I still don't know what to do. So I guess I'll just write this entry and then wait for Asar prayer then do something that I've been doing for the past few months ; play (yeah it's what I do the best). And after that I don't know what else to do. So if you guys are kind enough please suggest me anything that I can do to make my life more interesting. So until I figured out something to do, I'm gonna let you guys keep listening to my BNL's song : Everything Old is New Again.

p/s: to all my friends from Egypt, Ahla Wa Sahla ila Urdun. and have a nice stay. If you guys read this article and still interested in going for mansaf, do not hesitate to inform me. and do enjoy your stay here.

what does it say?

Everything Old is New Again?

Tol Karam Street where I've been living for the past two years here in Irbid.

Assalammualaikum..... Alhamdulillah, we are here again. On this very earth which was created by HIM, The Almighty AllAH. After all these times, everything that we had done, things that we had in mind, and anything that's related to life we still being blessed with Iman and Islam. Thanks to HIM for everything. New Hijrah year had started. A new year resolution had been made. But after thinking about things that we supposed to do in the past, we should rethink again. About our new resolutions. We should include (the first thing that we should do) in the resolution is doing what should be done in the previous year.

Everything old is new again? What's the meaning of this phrase? Is it simply just a title of a song. Or it is something that have significance. Well the answer is even I don't know. I thought if we replace something old with new things, all of our problem will be solved. Guest I'm wrong. We shouldn't replace them with something new. Instead we only suppose to add the old one with the new stuff. Because we can have both the past and the future in the same time. The past will remind us how blessed we are to be born to this world. To think that we had done something wrong and to fix the mistakes. And the future is something that will make us think.

I've heard a saying said that "We shouldn't think too much about the future cause we won't live our present the most". I think they got a point. We shouldn't think too much about it. Instead we should do our our best in the present to ensure that we wont regret it in the future. I've read an entry in ayub's xanga about where we would reside in the life after. How we would be. Yeah, it really move my mind. There's actually a lot of stuff that we should know. Yet we always think that we had know everything. The truth is, all of our knowledge is actually a drop of ocean of knowledge which belong to HIM, AllAH The Most Gracious and Most Merciful.

So let us all from this very moment, to renew our goal of this life which is to serve HIS cause. Yeah only HIM and no others. Let it be our guide to go through this life. So that in the end, we'll be blessed and being love by HIM. Whose love is the only love that'll last forever.

"Live in dignity, or die as a martyr"

Me, myself, and not otherself

It's been 20 years (almost 21 years), since my first breath on this earth. Wow. It had been that long. But why I'm still the same? The old me? The year 1427H are going to pass. The new year 1428 is nearing. But why I didn't change? Or maybe I've changed. But to my worst. How could this happening to me?

Thank you AllAH for everything that you had given to me all this time. The breath that I take everyday, the foods, the brain, the hands, the legs, the feeling of being lonely, the feeling of joy, the feeling to be love by somebody or anybody, the feeling being appreciated, and all of those feelings. The knowledge that you had given me, the time that you had spent to hear my prays, the love of my family, and all that I have and what I'm today, it's all thank to you.

But do I really mean that word? Thank You? It's seems as simple as saying the word. But the truth is that, it's something that you don't just say it. It's something that you had to apply it, something that you had to make it true by enslaving yourself to HIM, to HIS religion, to HIS kingdom, and to HIM only HIM.

For me, after 20 years of being here, walking this path on this very moment on HIS earth, it never been a single second that I dedicate my life to HIM. I always said that I want to get HIS love. But it's never been a single action in my life that wanting to be love by HIM. I keep thinking, why I'm behaving like this? I always hoping for somebody to come over and guide me to the right path. But it seems to be impossible in this way. Whenever HE gave me some of HIS ni3mah, I keep forget HIM. When HE send HIS trial upon me, I'll be standing on my knee hoping HE will help me. But then when everything turn to normal again, I forgot about HIM again. I don't get it. Why I'm behaving like this.

I'm hoping that in the new year of Hijrah, I'll be someone new. Someone that no one had seen before. I'll be somebody stronger and more faithful to HIS promise, to HIS power and to everything that can be seen or not. O AllAH, lend my some strength to endure this. And may you won't turn me into something that none had wish for; a betrayal. For YOU, YOU are the only one who can do anything to everything. Please unburden me with my gloomy and dark past. Let me see a bright future. A future that will unite every muslim under one banner; banner of truth.

And to all my fellow friends even if I'm not somebody, I just wanna let you guys know that this is only a temporary stop of a longer journey. Never make it your shelter. Never bow to it. Unless you think you can be here forever. Never ever think that this life had nothing to do accept to bow to it. It's may sound harsh, but remember that in the after life you'll understand everything. Believe in HIM as all the Messenger and their companion had done in the past. And may what we had today, will be count as hassanah.

What does it takes...

I'm assure that everyone (especially here in Jordan) are craving for a very good and nice foods. Since we're not where we use to be (Malaysia), no wonder why many of us getting thinner everyday (there's a few went to the opposite way. LOL~). I'm here today to tell you guys how to make a very good Chocolate Drink. Even if you can get MILO in your hand you'll never can out stand it. Hihihihihi...

Ok, first of all what we need is water. Yeah W.A.T.E.R. Since water is a bit problem up here, it's almost as precious as crude oil. Then we need a kettle, good chocolate, a mug, powdered milk, vanilla flavor (I can't find it any here. so i think we had to get from outside.). And not to forget some sugar (either in cube or grounds).

Heat the water till it boils. The put a spoonful of chocolate powder in it. Stir until dissolved. Then, get a bit of the vanilla flavor (it's used to give the nice smell and flavor. you can ignore it if you don't have any.). After that, put is some sugar and milk. Then stir it all. After everything are dissolved, reheat it again. Then you can serve it hot.

Hot chocolate drinks is best served in winter. Cause it can give you the sensation of good foods that you had craved and also the warmth that you need in the coldness of the day or even night. That's it. You already treat yourself with something special.

The main point here is that even our life needs good things in order to be wonderful. That's the purpose of every creation. To make others look wonderful. Embrace your life with something wonderful as Islam. And you'll never forget it forever. Even in the afterlife.

“Always do right - this will gratify some and astonish the rest.”