Sanah Helwah Abah....

Abah and Mama......

Assalammualaikum....

Today, 28th March 2007 mark the 46th birthday of my beloved and the only father...
Born on 28th March 1961, in Kerdau which located in Termeloh's district, Pahang. Being a father wasn't really an easy job. Since your children will have different character and things. So as today, I'm really appreciate what he has done for me for the past 21 years. Thank dad, I never know how to pay back all your deeds. The only way that I know right now is to study hard and to make you proud of me. Insyallah I'll try my best to give the best out of me.

Let me tell all of guys why my dad is so special to me. Well first of all, he's my dad for sake. Lol ;p. Second, he's the best role model for me. FYI we never have any maid in our house. Since the day my dad married my mom, they both work hard and help each other in doing house chores (since both of my parents working). Up till now, he still do the chores, even he's now a public officer in the local municipality. He always do the laundry. Well maybe that's the only thing that he knows how to do ;P. But still he do it with all of his heart. That's one thing I do admire about him. And many other things that he had done. I don't think that I should write everything here. And even more, he's a cool dad!!!

And for you my dad, as we all getting older each day, each seconds we should increase our effort to be the best. We should never surrender to this world. Love yourself and love your family. Insyallah you'll be with the men who had been promised with heaven and everything inside it. With AllAH's will...

In Memory of Abd Halim Amran (1986 - 2007)

Abd Halim Amran (1986-2007)

Assalammualaikum....

Just recieved a message today saying that one of my schoolmate, Abdul Halim Amran passed away yesterday drown in Perak. Then one of my friend send my the link to a local newspaper regarding the incident.

Well he's one of the bright student back in SMAP. Always full of enthusiasm of learning and getting know things. He's really good at chess. Yet he's very shy. Never ever let people get angry with him. All of my high school years, I seldom talk to him. Maybe a few times. Last year I meet him at a PUTRA station. I can't remember which station. But there I meet him and we exchange phone number and had a few talk. Since he's so busy as Malaysian Medical Student. So i don't bother about it. Well maybe AllAH loves him more. That's why he call him back. I don't have anything else to say. Just a word or two. And the only thing that I can help right now is to recite doa for him and this entry to honor him. May you'll be placed with the good people which HIM had promised heaven as their reward.

Halim in memory

2 Al-Battani 2000

Form 3 2001

the entry about the incident in local newspaper:

Bakal doktor mati lemas

TAIPING: Kegembiraan 11 penuntut Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM) mandi-manda di pusat perkelahan Sungai Sempeneh, Batu Kurau, dekat sini, berakhir tragedi apabila seorang daripada mereka mati lemas manakala seorang lagi cedera selepas dihanyutkan arus deras, petang semalam. Mereka adalah sebahagian daripada 45 pelajar institusi pengajian tinggi awam (IPTA) itu yang mengikuti projek anak angkat bersama keluarga di Kampung Repuh, Batu Kurau. Mangsa yang mati lemas adalah pelajar perubatan, Abd Halim Amran, 20, dari Seremban, Negeri Sembilan manakala Mohd Shahrol Suondah, 20, dari Kuala Lumpur cedera di tangan dan dihantar ke Hospital Taiping (HT) untuk rawatan. Seorang rakan mangsa berusia 20 tahun yang enggan namanya disiarkan, berkata sembilan pelajar lelaki dan dua perempuan berusia 20-an, pergi berkelah ke pusat perkelahan itu kira-kira jam 3.30 petang, semalam. Katanya, ketika mereka sedang mandi, arus deras menerpa kawasan mereka secara tiba-tiba dari kawasan tinggi berhampiran berikutan hujan lebat, kira-kira jam 5 petang. “Saya dan beberapa rakan mandi di tepi dan sempat menyelamatkan diri. Tapi, dua rakan kami yang masih di bahagian tengah sungai tidak sempat naik dan dihanyutkan. “Kami sempat menyelamatkan Mohd Shahrol tetapi Abd Halim hilang dibawa arus. “Kami segera melaporkan kejadian kepada keluarga angkat dan penduduk kampung yang kemudian menghubungi polis, pasukan bomba dan penyelamat serta Rela untuk usaha menyelamat,” katanya. Rakan mangsa yang masih terkejut dengan kejadian itu, berkata mereka tidak menduga kejadian buruk itu berlaku ke atas mereka. Katanya, projek anak angkat itu membabitkan 45 pelajar UKM, Bangi, Selangor, dari pelbagai kursus terdiri daripada 20 lelaki dan 25 perempuan bermula 23 Mac lalu dan dijangka berakhir pada Khamis ini. Menurutnya, semua pelajar menetap dengan keluarga angkat di Kampung Repuh dan menjalankan pelbagai kegiatan membabitkan masyarakat kampung. “Inilah kali pertama saya dan rakan berkelah di pusat perkelahan itu. Kami amat sedih dengan kejadian ini,” katanya ketika ditemui di tempat kejadian, petang kelmarin. Sementara itu, Ketua Operasi Kanan Balai Bomba dan Penyelamat Taiping, Ahmad Abd Wahab, berkata sebaik mendapat laporan pasukan, penyelamat mula menjalankan operasi mencari mangsa pada jam 5.20 petang bersama 10 anggota. Katanya, turut membantu ialah pasukan polis dan Rela. “Mayat mangsa ditemui pada jam 6.50 petang, kira-kira 300 meter dari tempat kejadian. Mayat mangsa kemudian dihantar ke Hospital Taiping (HT),” katanya.

"Setiap yang hidup pasti akan merasai mati"
"Kematian itu adalah pasti"

Anyone perfect must be lying, anything easy has its cost.....

Assalammualaikum everyone. Alhamdulillah the SPM result is out last week. And as we all expect that there'll be some increase in the number of students who get straight As. Well As is not something that will give you a bright future. It's rather yourself than else. Congratulations to students who did well in their SPM. To those who's unfortunate, don't be sad with it. Get it over with. Pull yourself together. It's not the end of the world. The real test is just about to start. You guys now are embarking the real ship towards your dreams. What had passed leave it behind to remind you. And future is something that you have to seek for yourself. Remember once you fall it doesn't means that you'll be in the slump forever. It's all about how you getting up again and continue your journey. Insyallah in the future you'll become someone much more important than those who get straight As. Here I have an entry from my friend site, who's now studying in States. Well hope you guys will get something out of it.......

Some point to ponder for SPM graduate ..

Monday March 12 2007 was a day that every high school graduate has been waiting for. A day where the SPM result was announced.
As I expected the number of people getting straight A will increase. Congratulation to those who able to get that result. For those who were not, don't be too upset. This is not the end of your world. There will be more challenging task you will be facing when you study in the university.

My SPM result was not that good. I was not a straight A student in my high school. I was just a mediocre student who likes to spent most of my study time for my other school obligation. My class teacher once labeled me as part time student full time player as I always not around the school for extra co-curriculum activities. People might think I just want to brag myself here as I'm now study in US under MARA. But I would like to reinstate that I was not an excellent student. If you don't believe me, you can ask any of my schoolmate about how was I in high school. Some of my friends might tell you that I was lucky to get this scholarship which I'm not supposed to get it. Now back to my story, eventhough I was not in class, I will make sure that when I'm done with my activities I will go to my classmate to ask for note that I had missed. If I didn't understand, I will ask them to teach me. My friends always there for me to answer my question and they were so reliabale. I have to admit that I understand better when my friends teach me compared to the teacher.That was me when I was in high school.

But here in university I was alone. I don't have many friend whom I can always refer to. If I do have, they are not so reliable to give me a correct answer. They also are not sure whether what they are doing is right or wrong. Eventhough their SPM result was far away better that me, but still they are not sure with what they are doing.

You know why this thing happen? It is because of what you learn in lecture is not enough for you to understand the whole concept of the subject . The lecturer only teach you the main concept but to undertand profoundly of what you learn you need to do some extra work. You need to do some research, reading the whole chapter in the book or reading material that is outside the texbook. Study in the university is not a spoon fed concept, it is all about your eagerness to get knowledge. If you really want to understand the subject, you need to do some extra work to understand it.

This is where your life begin. Your true study skill will be tested. I don't know whether American grading concept is similar to Malaysia or not, but here you are not graded based on one exam, you are graded based on the homework,quiz, test, project and other assignment that is assigned by your lecturer. If you screw up on one of those school work, don't even dream to get an A. To get an A here is 90 above and you need to get almost perfect in all of those criteria that I have mentioned. For mediocre student like me, that is one hell of a goal.

Therefore for students who are not doing so good in their SPM, don't worry too much. You still have chance to amend your mistake. And for those who got straight A especially the one who got 17,18, or 19 As, your success come with a great responsibility. If in the future you want to be a doctor but just end up being a doctor in the same level as someone who got only 9 or 10 As,then shame on you. For your level, you should do better than that. For your level you should do something extraordinary to at least change our society. Be creative and use your brain at your full potential.

Friday Mach 16 2007

Amir, Me, and Hafiz. Brothers, and more than that.....

Assalammualaikum.... There's many thing in this life that we never expect to happen yet they always happen. And we also expect many thing to happen yet they never happen. That's life. Life is so full of suprises. We can always pray to HIM that what we want will happen. And what we never want to not happening. This is the rule of this life. He's the master of everything. He's the one that we must bow to. None other than HIM, Himself.

Today I recieved a text from my little brother. His SPM result (O-level) is out. He managed to get 4A1 3A2 2B2 1B3. Alhamdulillah. Even though it's not so good, it's still good. That's the game of this life. If you're working hard, you'll get the best. But if you don't work really hard enough, you don't deserve any. I've been thinking lately why we always taking this life too easy? Have we ever think about the life after? Are we gonna be in good shape or else?

This had opened my eyes. We should always pray and hope that we'll be prevail. Hope that we'll be saved from the torture of the Hell. Hope that we'll be the good servant. And the list goes on. But remember, even if the list is a mile away if it's not to be work on it'll never gonna to happen.

It's time to turn into a new page. Forget the past for a moment. Look into the new things. The present is something to be work on. The past, is something to be remembered and to be cherished. The future, is something that we had to plan. Always remember my friends luck is not everything. There's nothing as luck. The only thing that we had is our faith in HIM. Remember that he'll never easily give you anything if you're a muslim. Why? Because He loves to listen to the voices of a muslim. It's not that He hates us. But He loves us more. Never hate Him because of that. Yet we should love Him more. And more.

And this is a remembrance for me and to all of my friends. Where ever you are, what ever you do. Remember that He'll always be with us. Never turn away from Him. Even in the hardest or the easiest times. Always cherish Him. Cause the Jannatul-Firdaus surely will be yours. Bi-iznillah.....

8th of March

Assalammualikum and good day everyone.... It's been awhile since my last entry. Well that doesn't mean that I don't have anything to write. The truth is that I didn't find any leisure to write an entry. Probably because we're (me and my friends) having discussion all night except for weekend which I spent most of them playing games (oh, I shouldn't do that).

Well this, entry is specially dedicated to my house mate, Abd Hadi Damanhuri who celebrates his birthday on the 8th of March. He'll turned 20 this year. Well Hadi, it's been 20 years since your first breath on this planet earth. Only one thing to ask ourselves, after all this times, things, life and all of it what have we done in his favors?

After thinking for awhile, the answer should bring up this question, Who am I? And the question will continues until we reach the last answer that surely will bring us closer to HIM. My friends, it's never too late to turn back to the right path. He never denied our right, yet we always deny His. If you were in His place, surely you'll turn your back don't you? Well He's no that kind of thing. Instead He's always been there and still will be for us. In times of fear and chaos. In times of our darkness, our lost.

Never turn your back on something that's love able. Which His love will never disappoint you. Not like others love. Always remember that. You'll never find anyone better than Him. Even your spouse or your love one cannot overcome His love to you...... Only if you love Him hardly. Remember..........